Okay if you're in a good mood or in public, don't read this card. You may or may not cry. Please heed the warning before proceeding.
Okay then, everyone meet my dog Ana. She's a pure bred German Shepard and my family has had her for 13-14 years, basically my entire life because I'm 17 right now. Well, about 2 weeks ago we went to the vet and we were told that she barely had any muscle left and you can tell by the way she walks now that her hip bones are showing very clearly. She has no muscle on her back legs anymore which makes it really painful for her to walk. She can't get up anymore without my mom and I helping lift her up. She shakes when she walks and when she goes to lay back down she just falls over, plopping down onto the ground. She doesn't get up anymore, hell she won't even lift her head up to get a drink of water or eat. I hand feed her and make sure she gets as much water as she can get. Now why am I telling you all this? Well, I probably won't be on Vingle for a while because tomorrow (May 18), at 4pm, Ana is getting put down. She's in too much pain and we don't want her to suffer any longer. I know she's in a lot of pain and she'll be in a better place but I'm selfish and I don't want her to go. She's saved me and my family so many times.
Ana saved me from myself. Before I found Vingle and all you lovely people, I was kind of in a dark place. I was 'friends' with some people that used me for my car or my inability to say no and I was fed up with everything. I took a razor from my bathroom, went into my room and stood there. I was about to slit my wrists with a razor. Well before I was able to put the razor on my arm, I heard my door open. Guess who opened my door? Ana pushed my door open with her nose and just stared up at me, then walked over to me and rubbed her head on my leg. I owe my life to my dog, and whoever says dogs 'don't have feelings' or are just 'mindless and dumb animals' are completely wrong. Dogs can sense when you're sad or something bad is about to happen. No one can tell me otherwise.
She's my K-Pop buddy. She listens to Big Bang, BTS, 2NE1, etc with me and she doesn't complain. She was my first K-Pop friend and really my first friend ever. I think she likes listening to K-Pop because usually when I play other music she kicks my phone with her paws.
These are some pictures I took yesterday of us. I usually don't post pics of myself, especially me crying but I wanted to share these because Ana.
Well, I guess this isn't goodbye, but it's more of a see you later. 👋🏻