Genre: Fluff/ Angst Pairing: Jungkook x Taehyung Length: 4744 words Warning: Intimacy (Not too much in this chapter) Summary: I just wanted him to look at me only Part: 1/?
I walked down 3 blocks at a steady pace, I wanted to arrive to Jin's house at the usual time I did for the past 5 years. "7:30 AM, right on time." I said to myself I looked up to see Jin jog down the steps of his house to meet me on the sidewalk. "As always, right on time Jungkook." Jin said smiling, putting his arm around my shoulder to greet me. I smiled at him mainly because his presence always made me feel happy inside out. I thought myself lucky to only live 3 blocks away from him. I took a couple of seconds to scanned him from head to toe knowing that this was going to be the only day out of the year where his uniform looked polished and clean as it was our first day back from summer vacation. "Ahh! Jin, you're wearing the blue tie! We're not in the 10th grade anymore, 11th graders wear the green ties remember." Jin looked down quickly at his tie before running into his house. "Aish!! Be right back!" He walked down the steps but this time at a slower pace focusing on tying the green tie which he was obviously struggling with. "Aish!!," he screamed as he reached the bottom of the steps giving up. He looked absolutely cute with the look of frustration on his face; I couldn't help but laugh a little. Jin had always struggled when it came to tying ties which is why he woke several minutes before his mother left for work so she could do it for him. His mother had been long gone by now. Jin grabbed my hands quickly and moved them towards his tie gently grazing his chest on the way up. I could feel the blood slowing raising my face. I looked up at him confused. "Why are you taunting me!? If you don't tie my tie we're going to be late and I know that's not something you'll like Mr. right on time." I looked at my watch and saw it was 7:40, great now I'd have to skip on coffee if we wanted to make it on time. I was very particularly obsessed when it came to the time, I never liked being late anywhere. I started tying his tie and become very nervous being this close to him. I could feel his eyes locked on me and his breathing. With every breath I grew hotter. "Th-There," I said as I patted the tie down and looked up to him. "Thanks!," his head shot up from his tie and looked at me. "Hey, you're not feeling sick are you? You look a little red," his hand started making its way to my forehead. I quickly swatted his hand before he could reach my forehead knowing his touch would only make things worse. "Can we just go, we're going to be late." We sped walked towards school, our shoulders bumping from time to time entangled in conversation on what the new school year will bring. Jin was my best friend since middle school, the one who's always been there for me thick and thin, the one that brings my mood up just with his presence, the one that I can tell anything to, well almost anything. I could never tell him that had been in I love him for several years now. We finally reached school with 5 minutes to spare. We quickly scanned the bulletin board that consisted of all the students names and the classes they would be assigned to for the year. My eyes widened in shock to see me and Jin barely had any classes together this year. Since middle school wed have a large majority of our classes together, why was it different this year!? "Whaaat!? I cant believe this Jungkook, we barely have any classes together." My heart sunk at the confirming statement. I felt a bit of anxiety rising in me.
Damn, I could always tell when Jungkook was worried but he was more than worried now, I could see the anxiety building in him. He was so use to being by my side for a large portion of the day; I could see why cutting the time we had together down to 2 classes was disappointing for him and for me as well. He's always been so dependent on me, which I didn't mind at all. Jungkook was the little brother I wish I always had, I enjoyed looking out for him and making him happy. But without me there how was I to take care of him, he always had a hard time making friends. The only friends he had other than me were my friends who were basically acquaintances to him actually. I leaned in close to him, "Hey its no big deal, right? Look, were only down the hall from each other, I said trying to make the best out of the situation." Whenever I got that close to Jungkook he would step back immediately, maybe because he really liked his personal space, but this time he didn't move, I don't think he even realized I was that close, I stepped back. I sighed, "I know it can be hard for you but well still have lunch and in between classes to see each other and don't forget well have time together on the way back home." I could hear his breathing starting to settle down and his body looked more relaxed. "I do think it'll be a great idea to try to make a friend, trust me it'll help the time pass till we can be together again." The bell rang and that made Jungkook flinch a little. I turned my back walking away and yelled "I'll see ya later for lunch, before disappearing into class."
I watch Jin wistfully disappear into his classroom. I truly appreciated how much he looked out for me and its one of the main characteristics that made me fall for him. I laughed a little through my nose, Make a friend, I mocked. I rolled my eyes, I wish he understood that I didn't need or want anyone one else, as long as I had him but I guess thats what I have to accept about having a one sided love. I looked around and noticed students started to pour into their designated classrooms, the hall was almost empty. I clenched my fist and took a deep breath hoping this would get rid of the butterflies in my stomach and hurried to my classroom. I arrived only to be met by more disappointment, not only were we separated but also I was a little late to class than usual even though class hadnt started yet. I was now forced to sit in the back of the already filled classroom. I looked around recognizing a few faces from last year but none that I was comfortable talking too. I soon noticed Mark and we made eye contact. Mark was one on Jins friends and was around during lunch often. He's someone I'd feel a little comfortable conversing with, I guess. I smile at Mark to greet him but he quickly averted his eyes. No surprise, without Jin here why would we talk, we had nothing in common. I sighed and tried to relax myself by emptying the contents of my school bag and placing them neatly onto my desk. I wanted to keep myself focused on anything other than the fact that Jin wasn't next to me. "This seat taken?" The out of breath person beside me said causing me to jump and dropping my pen which he caught before it could reach the ground. "Ah..N-," He sat down anyways and used both hands to place my dropped pen into my hands. His hand grazed mine for a split second, wow his hands seemed so soft. The teacher walked in before I could thank him. I tried to focus on the teacher but was distracted by the unfamiliar tan slim boy as he was using his untucked uniform shirt to fan himself. Every couple of seconds his shirt would go up a little more than usual showing a bit of his tanned stomach. I nervously looked away every time it happened. He was slightly panting, still trying to catch his breathe. His hair was disheveled, he had specks of sweat on his face making him glisten and his tie was loose. Had he ran here? Had he just finish having sex somewhere!?? I immediately felt hot and could tell anyone looking at me would see I was red. Despite his messy look there was something absolutely beautiful about him. My mind wondered coming up with scenarios as to why he ran to class trying to forget about the second scenario. I felt a small tug on my textbook and I turned to see two big brown eyes inches from my face, I froze. The unfamiliar boy didn't seem to care about how close he was. "He said page 36," he whispered. I nodded but he didn't notice. Still weirded out with how close he was I took my time reaching for my textbook. We both ended grabbing it, his hand on top of mine. "Ah! Sorry!" I flinched pulling my hand back quickly. His hand was definitely softer than I remembered. He flashed a rectangular smile that suited him perfectly, "Sorry, I thought you hadn't heard me." Great some first impression I'm making. Why couldn't I just be normal, why was it he made me feel nervous? Was it because Jin wasn't around? Wait, why am I so worried about the impression I'm making, I need to relax. He moved closer to get a better look at my textbook, why was he using my textbook? "Um..wheres your textbook?" I asked. "Ahh quite the observer you are," he said raising his eyebrows and nudging me a bit. "I actually arrived to school a bit early and decided to nap in one of the rooms on the 2nd floor. When I heard the bell rang I just ran to the classroom, you see I hate being late anywhere. So turns out I left my book bag." He paused for a second deep in thought. "Honestly I don't think I remember which room I was napping in before arriving here," He gave a small laugh. "I think Ill have a hard time looking for it." He nervously smiled. Wow he seemed like all beauty no brains. "Hey!" he said before grabbing my hands, "Do you think you could help me look for it? I can look in one half of the class rooms and you could look in the other, please please please, it'll make things a lot easier." With my hand still in his he made prayer hands. My eyes widened, this was the third time our hands touched but this time it was longer and I was able to feel how warm and perfect his hands were. I slightly blush but soon turned white at the sight of the teacher glaring in our direction. I freed my hands quickly and took notes intensively not wanting to be called out. "Taehyung!" the teacher called out trying to get him to focus. Taehyungs eyes shot forward; the teacher then turned his back. "Taehyung...Taehyung...Taehyung." I said his name in my head for several seconds relieved that I finally knew his name. He nudged me snapping me back to reality but really he was waiting for my answer. Scared to get in trouble I nodded and I agreed to help, I had such a perfect record I couldn't allow this boy to ruin it...no matter how...good looking. "Thank you, thank you, I truly appreciate it. Its a blue book bag and has a little bomb key chain on it. We can look together during lunch," he whispered. He looked really excited it was cute. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~LUNCH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ As soon as it was finally lunchtime and the only person on my mind was Jin, I couldn't wait to talk to him, to see his face, to hear his laugh. I spotted Jin in the crowd easily, he was so tall and it was impossible to miss that smile. As I grew closer I noticed an unfamiliar crowd surrounding him and my pace grew slower until I stopped completely examining the three strangers. These people weren't his usual friends, had he always been friends with them, the way he smiled and laughed made it look like he knew them since forever. "Jungkook! Over here!" Jin called out. My head shot up and I proceeded at my usual speed. A tall muscular boy and two girls stood beside him one of the girls standing closer than the other. "Oh is this Jungkook, your best friend you told me so much about?" the closer girl said. Usually Id be smiling ear to ear flattered that Jin was talking about me but the way the unknown girl wrapped her arms around his arm made me nervous. She was really pretty and had the body most girls aimed for. I flashed a smile to be polite and looked at Jin puzzled. He then introduced the girl with her arms still wrapped around him as Luna, the muscular one as Jackson, Lunas senior brother and Risa, Lunas best friend. Luna and Jackson barely glanced at me while Risa nervously glanced. He mentioned how he met the two girls in class and Jackson was joining us for lunch. It was no surprise he had made these friends in class, he was always out going and it was so just so easy for him. Me on the other hand had always struggled and depended on him for so much. We made our way to the lunch table where I was forced to sit next to Jackson as Luna and Risa rushed to each side of Jin. I stared at how close Luna and Jin had gotten in just the matter of half a day. I stared so intensively at them it helped me drown out how obnoxiously loud Jackson was. I sighed and picked at my food, I lost my appetite.
I scanned the lunchroom looking for Jungkook but it was hard to focus from how loud that senior Jackson was being. I noticed he was standing with Jin, Jungkooks "other half", which was weird, seniors didn't really hang with those from lower grades. I didn't dwell on the situation any further continuing to scan the lunchroom until I heard Jin call out "Jungkook! Over here!" my head jerked in that direction and noticed Jungkook. He was so small; I could barely see the top of his head in the crowd of students around him. I thought he was absolutely adorable but I could tell something was off in him; he was timid by nature but never around Jin. I couldn't tell what was being said but by the gestures Jin made he was possibly introducing the crowd that surrounded him. Jungkooks mood slightly got worse after seeing Luna, I believed that was her name, wrap her arms around Jin. I frowned seeing his mood, maybe I could buy him some canned coffee later that could put him in a good mood, it was something I knew he loved. I smiled at the idea but my smile quickly disappeared watching Jungkook follow the group to sit down. Wait, did he forget about me? Was being around Jin that great that nothing else mattered? Jungkook still looked down so clearly it wasn't that great. Why is he putting himself through this, he should be smiling, I could make you happy! I crossed my arms and leaned against the wall staring harder. After 20 gruesome minutes his eyes finally meet mines. I wanted to call him over, I wanted to make him laugh but anger consumed me and my expression didn't change. He immediately looked away and I gave up. I started making my way out of the room.
I could see in my peripheral vision that Taehyung made his way out of the lunchroom. From the second we made eye contact I suddenly remembered what I had promised him and actually felt guilty. I tried to make myself feel better by telling myself how I waited so long to see Jin but sitting here in silence as everyone was in conversion didn't make me feel any better, Crap! Several minutes passed by and I had made up my mind. I got up quickly, all eyes at the table on me now, "I-...I forgot I was called to help my homeroom teacher grade some papers. Ill see you a little later!" I turned my back and prayed I'd be able catch up with Taehyung. I flung the lunchroom door open looking left and right down the hall but he was nowhere. I decided to go looking for his book bag on my own, maybe if I found it he'd forgive me, besides I couldn't return to the lunch room now.
I entered a classroom on the second floor and found my book bag with no problem as I clearly remembered where I left it. I remember earlier when I arrived 30 minutes early to school I saw Jungkook and I would be in a majority of the same classes. I didn't get excited yet, I scanned the board for Jin's name as well and noticed him and Jungkook barely had any classes together. He only had one class Jungkook and I later in the day, I smiled with delight. Without even noticing my mind was racing and I started hatching a plan, since the day I saw him I prayed that he'd look at me the way he did Jin. The plan was simple; Id accidentally leave my book bag in a random classroom and arrive to class as early as I know he does. Jungkook definitely had a hard time making decisions without Jin by his side and if I nagged him enough to help me find my lost bag he would eventually crack and agree. Him being there alone was the perfect opportunity for to me to get to know him on a personal level. I don't know why I've become a little obsessed with the boy. Since last year I've come to develop a secret crush on him. I remember sitting a few rows behind him and Jin and seeing him for the first time. For the rest of the year I enjoyed looking at the way he really focused when taking notes, his smiled, his laughed, it all just captivated me. I remembered there was a time where Jin caught a stomach virus and was out for a week from school, Jungkook was alone. He looked so defenseless and scared, I wanted to go over and protect him but it was hard for me to approach him. I saw how he never let anyone else into his life and it intimidated me, I didn't want him to hate me. I decided to follow him instead and watched him from a distance that week to make sure he didn't run into trouble. This was the event that really attracted me to him and I just fell in love. How did I know Id fallen for him, because when Jin arrived Jungkook wore the biggest smile that day and I was filled with jealously ever since that day. Since the plan was to arrive around the time he usually arrived to class being sure to sit next to him I saw I had time to spare. Unfortunately I accidentally ended up dozing off, the school bell awoke me and I took off running, Shit shit shit, I thought. The plan I carefully came up with just went down the drain. By now I'm sure he was all the way in the front of the class with the seat next to him taken. I bursted into the classroom, a sweaty mess and to my surprise he was sitting all the way in the back with the seat next to him empty carefully taking his supplies out his bag. This was definitely a rare sight, was Jin not being around messing him up this bad? I saw someone making their way to sit next to him but immediately grab the seat next asking permission but not caring if he'd say no. I was so happy but also embarrassed as I was a sweaty mess. My plan had turned out great until now of course. I guess Jungkook sitting at lunch with Jin looking uncomfortable was way more important to him then helping me with my made up problem. I huffed at the turn of events and made my way out of the classroom. As I was leaving I heard the movement of tables and chairs coming from the neighboring classroom. Curiosity sparking my interest I peeked into the classroom to see Jungkook on his hands and knees searching the room. I was really happy, he came after all, and I tried smiling but the anger in me made it hard.
There was no one in any of the classrooms and no sign of Taehyungs bag. I was in what seemed to be the 5th classroom searching. I got down on my knees and hands hoping that'll make it easier to scan the room. "I already found it, no thanks to you," a familiar voice mocked from behind me. I turned around quickly a little startled to find Taehyung standing in the door way with his book bag propped over his shoulder, his bomb key chain dangling. "Tae-".. I said almost whispering. I looked up at him still sitting on the floor. He moved his bag from his shoulder to the floor and walked slowly over to me. His expression was still the same from the lunchroom so I started to apologize, which seemed more like rambling. "Look, 'Im sorry its just when you had asked for help I failed to mention I had already promised my best friend Jin Id meet with him for lunch. You see I haven't seen him all day which is weird for me because we've been together since middle school but then I got to lunch and things got very uncomfortable, I was just so out of it, I-" "You like him don't you," Taehyung cut me off, his expression changing now to serious. "Huh?" I looked up just realizing Taehyung was practically hovered over me. My eyes widened, I started to sweat and my heart was pounding. No way, I didn't make it that obvious, right? "Wha-..What are you talking about?" I laughed to play it off. "I don't think you've noticed before today but I've been watching you." He said leaning in closer. "WHAT!?: I gasped because if this was true then I knew he had evidence to prove his statement. "I've always been watching you, had you really not noticed? I was in several of your classes last year." He laughed looking at my confused expression "Of course you hadn't notice when the only one you can see is Jin. Your'e always at Jin's side and I could never understand why but watching you for so long it soon became apparent. I observed the way you looked at him, acted with him, sensed the jealousy in your eyes when he introduced those girls today at lunch, the look on your face when that girl wrapped her arms around him, the look of disappointment when you couldn't sit next to him and just now you couldn't even stop talking about him!" Fuck!, I thought was I that easy to read? Was it that obvious that I liked Jin!? Does Jin know? I still tried my best to play it off. I nervously laughed," Taehyung you need to relax, you're jumping to conclusions. I don't like him like that, I-I don't like guys! We've been best friends for so long I guess I don't think about the way I act around him. Look, I get if you're mad that I forgot about you but jeez I apologized didn't I-"
Without thinking my hand quickly grabbed Jungkooks neck from the back and pulled him in fast smashing his lips on mine. His eyes widened with shock and he fell back allowing me to be on top. I couldn't stand hearing about Jin anymore, I wanted him talk about me, to think about me, to look at me only! I was so angry, I felt like punishing him so I pinned his hands above his head with one hand. I could feel him struggle a little but I was definitely the stronger one here. I saw him close his eyes tight after I tried to force my tongue into his mouth. He hadn't taken a breath since I started kissing him and it was only a matter of time. After a few seconds he took a deep breath allowing me entry. I intertwined my tongue with his and he let out a moan into my mouth. This was bad, I had to stop myself, he was so hot if I didn't stop now who knows what will happen. I definitely went to far too fast, I didn't want him to hate me. I let go of him quickly and took 2 big steps back trying to subtly compose myself. He was still on the floor now propping himself up trying to hide his obvious boner, gasping for air, unable to say anything. He was red and I could tell he was embarrassed and angry; I liked that. I liked that I was able to make him feel something towards me rather than nothing. I scanned him up and down as he caught his breath, I could tell my eyes made him uncomfortable but seeing him in a defenseless state only turned me on more. I don't know what got into me but I continued taunting him. "How could you say you don't like men when you're red all the way to your ears," I said licking my lips. I made an insulting expression and which made it hard for him to look at me. "I take it your best friend the one that knows everything about you or should know everything doesn't know this dirty little secret," I mocked. He still didn't say anything he just looked to the ground. I honestly couldn't believe how I was acting. For some reason this boy made me act out and it was hard to stop. "Hey, it's pretty obvious he'd never be into you, hes definitely girl crazy," my voice was a lot softer now almost apologetic. "Shall I do you a favor anyways and tell him?"
"YOU CANT!!" My head jerked up, tears almost forming in my eyes. Did he really think I didn't know he'd never like me. I was so content with just having him by my side. My voice grew softer and I pleaded not wanting to anger him, "P-please..no one knows..," I couldn't believe this was happening. I couldn't believe this was the same Taehyung from earlier. "So you lied to me?" he crossed his arms looking down at me. I dropped my head, "I'm sorry." The tears I fought so hard to hold back came rolling down my face on to the floor. After a few seconds of silence he walked over to me and grabbed my face forcing me to look at him, I was scared. He wiped my tears and I just stared blankly into his eyes. What did he want? "Tell you what, he said softly, Ill help you forget about him. You do know it's not healthy to devote yourself to someone that will never want back." He kissed my forehead gently. "I don't want to see you waste your time loving someone when there are so much better options in front of you," he let go of my face. He was now being so gentle it was as if he was the Taehyung from earlier. The school bell rang and he swiftly slipped out of the classroom leaving me behind to process the event that just unfolded. Was this what he was after? Did he just want to help me when I didn't even ask for it? What did he mean by better options in front of me? I whispered to myself, "Jin, what do I do?" before making my to class.