God is near and willing to heal you. Just open your heart up to him and allow him to do work. He can't do work or healing if you aren't willing. You feel crippled by fear and you may even feel like you can't allow God to do his work in your life. Did you know these are God's words he spoke to Joshua? "Be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or fearful for the lord your God is with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9 When fear sets its roots in yours. Mediate on the things God says and has done in your life. It's all in Gods hands and that's a beautifully complex things.