Pairing: Jungkook x Reader
Length: 1628 words
Summary: It was always the same with him. Until I lost interest.
I opted to ignore the texts he had sent. Yes, I had broken up with him before all that happened, but he had fucked up majorly. It was one thing, getting drunk and coming home with an equally wasted bimbo, but another to physically hurt me the way he did.
No number of apologies could put that right in my mind. My roommate, Rena was out quick, mumbling something about needing to go shopping in an hour with her boyfriend.
I knew what she was doing- times like this, she knew I preferred to be alone.
I gave her an appreciative smile before hopping into the shower, trying to scrub away all the sadness and despair. But all I could think about were his stupid texts.
He was all I needed. The way our lips molded together. The way his hands would rest on my hips. The way we were meant for each other. But of course it all had to turn to shit. I started scolding myself- why couldn’t I have just stayed quiet at that restaurant? Why did I have to speak my mind- especially in a public place? I was stupid.
I had so many unanswered questions. Why did he start to treat me like he did? Like I was a nobody? Jin had confirmed last night that he hadn’t told Jungkook our secret. Had he simply fallen out of love? Was that it?
I stepped out of the shower feeling even worse than when I’d gone in. It was rich of me to think this, but maybe Jungkook was cheating on me? If so, I would be the first to admit I deserve it. But what I didn’t deserve was him just shutting me off for weeks on end. You don’t do that. You either talk it out...or you end things. Simple as.
Once done, I sat back down on the sofa, not feeling hungry in the slightest. Jin was busy...maybe I could text Yoongi? I just needed someone to talk to. Anyone. My thoughts would drive me to insanity.
Just as I was waiting for Yoongi to answer, I heard knocking on my door and my head shot up in alarm. It was just then Yoongi answered. “Y/n? Are you OK? Jin told me everything via text...I’ve been yelling at Jungkook all morning.”
“Is he still there now?”, I whispered, trying to ignore the incessant knocking.
“No. He mumbled something about going for a walk. Why?”
“Cus there’s someone at my door Yoongi.”
There was a pause. “Well...it won’t be him because he would have used your key to get in, right?”
As he said those words, the knocking stopped. I sighed in relief. It hasn’t been Jungkook...probably some sales representative.
“It’s OK. The knocking stopped. I need to make sure Jin gets my key off him.”
“Y/n. I know he was a dick and he hurt you. What he did was unacceptable. And as mad as I am at him, I saw how distraught he was when he realised what he’d done. Trust me. You know he’s feeling bad when he wakes me up at 7 am. Did Jin stay at yours by the way? He didn’t come back home.”
“Distraught”, I scoffed. “I don’t think so Yoongi. You’re on about the same boy who hasn’t looked me in the eye for a month now. Like he gives a shit. And yes, I needed someone with me last night, so Jin stayed over. He’s gone to work now.”
“Trust me y/n, I know him well. He felt really bad. As soon as he got up, he was screaming at that girl to get out. Poor girl got the fright of her life. And right, that’s fine then. He going back to yours after work?”
“Yeah, he kicked her out...but I guarantee it’ll be a different girl tonight. It’s always the same with him Yoongi. I got sick of it. Yeah he said he’d come back, but I think I’ll text him to go home. I’m OK now.”
“You don’t sound OK.”
I narrowed my eyes at his blunt response. “I’m as OK as a girl who got attacked by her drunk ex can get.”
He sighed heavily. “I’m sorry y/n. It’s been a pretty rough morning over here too...You know you too will have to talk eventually.”
“Not if I can help it. I don’t have anything to say to him. In fact, I never want to see his face again Yoongi.”
I froze when I heard a shuffle behind me, completely zoning out of the conversation. “Y/n? You there?”
I hadn’t heard what Yoongi had said in response. I slowly turned to find dishevelled Jungkook stood before me, and leapt off the sofa as quick as I could, my eyes wide. He had made me jump. God knows how long he had been stood there.
“Yoongi...I’ll call you back”, I breathed, hanging up before he could reply. All I could do was stare at him, not knowing what to say or do. My mind went back to the knocking I heard earlier- that must have been Jungkook.
“Why are you here?”
“Why do you think?” His voice was raspy and low, like he had been crying, although his face gave nothing away.
I stepped back a little as he made his way around the sofa and sat on the same spot I had just got up from.
I stared at him. “You can’t just turn up like that anymore. We’re not toget-”
“-Don’t”, he cut me off, voice wavering. “Don’t say it.”
“Why?”, I challenged. “We didn’t work Jungkook, and your reaction to me breaking up with you proved that.”
“I was drunk.”
I stared at him incredulously. “You were drunk? That’s all you have to say?” That was a shitty way of justifying his actions.
“Y/n, I’m sorry. I’m sorry for last night. But that’s all I’m sorry for. The ignoring you for one month thing? I’m not sorry for that. I’m not sorry for how upset I made you feel every single day for the last month.”
As he spoke, my shoulders slumped. He knew. He knew about me and Jin.
“He told you?”, I asked quietly. Jin had promised me he never told Jungkook about that night. Jungkook should his head, an unamused smile on his face. “Jin was acting weird around me, so I decided to go through his texts. I read that whole conversation.”
He stood up slowly, chuckling, and I’m not afraid to admit I was slightly scared. Who laughs in a situation like that? “And you know what I did in retaliation? I fucked Rena. You slept with my friend...so I slept with yours.”
Well, that was a shock to the system. Me and Rena would have an interesting chat when she got back. “Then you had no right to blow me off like that”, I whispered, shaking my head. He knew this whole time. But he had got his own back ages ago.
I continued. “And what happened between me and Jin was a mistake. If you read our texts then you knew how bad we both felt about it. Whereas, you...you slept with Rena out of spite? That’s fucked up Jungkook.”
“You think I don’t know that?”, he barked making me jump. “She had an argument with her boyfriend and I knew about you and Jin. It’s fucked up, but it’s done!”
I’d had enough. I barged past him to go to my room. Anywhere I wouldn't have to see his face. He let me pass him, but then followed me, trailing closely behind. I stopped at the doorway of my room. “Leave.”
“I want you back.” That was his reply, emotionless as ever.
“Jungkook, I asked you to leave.”
“Don’t you get it? I came here to set things straight because I don’t want to lose you!”
“Well you lost me Jungkook”, I whispered, my hands shaking by my sides. “You lost me a month ago.”
His hands trailed up my arms as my tears fell once more, and I pushed him away. “I gave you the silent treatment because I didn’t know how else to deal with the fact that the girl I love slept with someone else. Everytime I even looked at you, I imagines you with Jin. And I couldn’t end things because I loved you too much.”
“Well you don’t have to end it, because I already have”, I stated. “We’re done, Jungkook. Yes I’m a bitch for sleeping with Jin, but you? You’re in a whole league of your own.”
“I promise to never hurt you”, he hummed. I instantly knew what he was doing. He was repeating all those promises he made to me months ago. “I promise to stay by your side no matter what. I promise that no matter who enters my life, I will love you the most.”
A single tear rolled down his cheek as he reached out for my hand, pressed the key into my palm, and curled my fingers closed around it, encasing my hand in his own. “I guess I broke every single promise, huh?”
He let go of my hand, and it lifelessly swung back to my side as I stood there, staring. “You’re right. We should have been over ages ago. You deserve better. But never forget that I still love you.”
You know what the worst time of crying is? That silent one. Where you can feel that pain in every part of your body and even breathing becomes difficult. Where you just want to scream. That’s what I felt as he walked away, out of my life for the final time.
Because Jeon Jungkook, the person who meant the most to me, was gone.
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