Well, I am about to start my junior year in high school. This means two things: butt loads of work and prom!!! So I can't help but think, throughout all of high school, I haven't found that heart warming teen love that you see in the movies. In fact, I've only had one relationship, and I called it off because I knew we weren't a fit. So at times, I can't help but sit and wonder, is there something wrong with me?? I know, it makes me sound so insecure, but I'm actually pretty confident, until I think about the lack of romance in my life. My good friend tells me that I want too much, too picky I guess. But I mean, how is that my fault with all the romance movies being made, giving me false expectations? So what do I want? I want to be in deep love, I want a man to look at me like nothing else in the world and tell me, "You are my world", just like Superman told Louis Lane in the Batman vs Superman movie that was released this year. I want something like this:
However, I do also realize that perhaps I won't get that in high school. Deep down, I just want something real, something genuine. I want a guy who I can be best friends with, and lovers with at the same time. I want someone sweet and thoughtful. That's what I want. A few weeks ago, I was having a conversation with my mom about how I wanted a boyfriend, because I really feel like everything is right in my life, except love. That's all I'm missing. She told me that I had to widen my horizons, talk to other guys, but the crazy thing is, I don't want to talk to other guys. I have my heart set on this one guy, but I guess that's my problem? We used to be really close friends, but I made things extremely awkward a few years ago, and our relationship just isn't the same. I try to reconcile, I try to get him to have a meaningful conversation with me like we used to, I apologize all the time, but I suppose he's just not going to give in.. Who knows, all I can really do is go into my junior year with a smile and let things happen. So what about you guys, have you found love? Does it live up to the expectations you perhaps once had?