Bangtanss
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I decided to write down everything I feel as of right now. This has a trigger warning, so please read at your own risk.
I first want to start off as, this isn't a call for attention. It's my cry of help. No one listens to me anymore, I speak but no one responds. I only had very few people that listened to me, and now they're all gone. They've all told me goodbye and moved on with their lives. Even my best friend. I guess that's why I'm coming on here. Because I know some of you listen to what I have to say. And I'm here to say, that I don't know if I could keep moving forward. I'm stuck on the same damn tracks that I started on. I don't even find joy in the littlest things anymore. My sister, whom I thought would always be there, stabbed me in the back and in the front. She told me terrible things from, "I hate you," to "I don't want to become as messed up as you." She said many more things and even proceeded to tell me everything she hated about me. I've done wrong so many times, and I've given up way too many damn times. Tonight, I feel like I'm close to giving up again. I don't find joy in my everyday doings anymore. I can't even find comfort and it scares the hell out of me. It scares me because I've been through this a while back, and knowing that these emotions are coming back terrifies me. I don't want to live like this again. I can't even picture myself seeing some sort of light in this tunnel. I can't do this anymore. I don't have the strength to keep doing this. I don't want to end it this way either. I know I'll be okay, but right now I just want people to at least hear my cry of help. I just want to know if people notice or listen to what I have to say. Ah, I'm sorry again.
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a year ago·Reply
MICHELLE. WE LOVE YOU. YOU KNOW WE ALL LOVE YOU. 💙❤💚💜 You know if you need someone to talk to, you have an army of friends here that will be here for you. If you need someone to rant to, cry to, be angry to, or just someone to listen to you, WE ARE HERE. Don't ever think you are alone, because WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU. LOVE YOU MICHELLE. 💙
a year ago·Reply
Please know that you're not alone and the Vingle fam supports you every step of the way! I honestly really enjoy your cards and find you to be very relatable and creative. If you ever need to talk, I will definitely listen and I'm sure there are many who will agree with me. I understand how you feel right now and I can tell you that things do get better, but it takes some time for things to heal. Please hang in there and don't hesitate to send a message if you need to ❤❤❤
a year ago·Reply
MeShell darling, anytime you need a smile or to vent, or even just want a distraction come to me. Come to all of us, on vingle, in our chats. Whatever way! You're loved sweetheart and i want you to know from the bottom of my heart that what ever you need, I will help you. Love you Michelle
a year ago·Reply
honey, I think you need to cut yourself some slack. you're human. Don't think that people leaving you means the end of a story, it's just an end of a chapter. some people can't go with you because they can't grow with you. I don't truly one who you are or understand what exactly you're going through, but I am going through something similar. it feels hopeless but somewhere inside you know it's not the finale, it's just the end of a chapter, there's more to come.
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