a year ago
Bangtanss
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I'm sorry.
I decided to write down everything I feel as of right now. This has a trigger warning, so please read at your own risk.
I first want to start off as, this isn't a call for attention. It's my cry of help. No one listens to me anymore, I speak but no one responds. I only had very few people that listened to me, and now they're all gone. They've all told me goodbye and moved on with their lives. Even my best friend. I guess that's why I'm coming on here. Because I know some of you listen to what I have to say. And I'm here to say, that I don't know if I could keep moving forward. I'm stuck on the same damn tracks that I started on. I don't even find joy in the littlest things anymore. My sister, whom I thought would always be there, stabbed me in the back and in the front. She told me terrible things from, "I hate you," to "I don't want to become as messed up as you." She said many more things and even proceeded to tell me everything she hated about me. I've done wrong so many times, and I've given up way too many damn times. Tonight, I feel like I'm close to giving up again. I don't find joy in my everyday doings anymore. I can't even find comfort and it scares the hell out of me. It scares me because I've been through this a while back, and knowing that these emotions are coming back terrifies me. I don't want to live like this again. I can't even picture myself seeing some sort of light in this tunnel. I can't do this anymore. I don't have the strength to keep doing this. I don't want to end it this way either. I know I'll be okay, but right now I just want people to at least hear my cry of help. I just want to know if people notice or listen to what I have to say. Ah, I'm sorry again.
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awe hugs you and I am here for you and heat you loud and clear.
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@sarahdarwish @MeghanJorgina @StephanieDuong @LemonLassie @Tamaki1618 @LaurenStrayhorn @twistedPuppy @SarahVanDorn @Helixx @MandyNoona @micahirene @MonAnnahiX @VeronicaArtino Thank you all for your kind words! It really makes me feel a whole lot better! Thank you, thank you, thank you!
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@MichelleIbarra 😙😙😙
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@MichelleIbarra please don't give up. I've been where you are before (seems like a lot of us have from all the comments) and know just how hard it is to see any good when everything seems so wrong. Fighting with family is so hard emotionally but I hope in time you and your sister can get back to a good place. The best thing you can do right now is find someone you trust and feel comfortable with to talk too. Someone who will listen and not judge you. If possible I recommend getting a referral from your doctor to a therapist to help you work through the harder, more complicated emotions you have. Of course I'm always here if you want to talk to me as well. We can talk anything or nothing I don't mind. ^^ Stay strong hun you have a lot of people here who care about you and want the best for you! 💜
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True words could come in anytime. Especially since you're so special to us. So don't thank us. 🙃💞
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