I hate the days when I am overclocked with anxiety. Those days when I have nothing to be anxious about, yet my brain won't ease up. I try calming techniques, but I'm so fidgety and nervous that I have no focus. I feel as though I am caught in a whirlwind, despite the absence of a storm. Maybe it is overflow from the day before...even though I allayed my concerns. Maybe I just live in such a state of panic and worry that my body is now programmed to function only in "wth" mode. Maybe I actually do have something to fret about, but I've forgotten what it was? What if I've forgotten something important? Did I forget to reply to a customer's email, or to go to an appointment, or to pay someone? Are there going to be repercussions? Why can't I just switch it all off, take a break from the stress? Get away from the noise inside my brain? Away from the clamoring "what if"s and "when will the hammer drop"s? Away from the train wrecks I can't seem to steer clear of??? Oh yeah...four kids, a new business, and a plan to become independent. Maybe the anxiety is justifiable, after all.