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The Pains of Our Yesterdays C10- No One
Hey guys, chapter 10 is here. It looks like this next week, I'll have more time to write so I'm gonna bust my butt and get through as much as I can. Thanks again for sticking with me.
Also, just wanna add, I'm so happy for the bands that won at MAMA 2016. I'm a big fan of BTS, GOT7, and EXO, so I was so happy to see them win. Go them! It was nice to see how incredulous they all looked at winning. Still so humble. It's always nice to see. And I'm not the type to complain about other bands winning other awards. Every band/singer who won an award deserved it. So congrats to all of them.
Back to the subject at hand, I hope you enjoy the story!
Thank you to all of you who are reading, liking, clipping, following, and commenting.
Disclaimer: Many of the characters aside from BTS are made up and BTS themselves are not BTS in this story. And, of course, I don't know the BTS boys personally so their personalities are probably mostly fictional.
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Beginning: Chapter 1
Previous: Chapter 9
Word Count: 2430
Warning: Contains very mild language and innuendo
Narrator POV
Jimin and Hoseok met on the stairs. “What’d you say to her?” Jimin asked when Hoseok avoided eye contact. He already had an idea, but he couldn’t believe his hyung would actually say something. Jimin already said he would try to stay away from those feelings, but he didn’t want Jiyoung to think badly of him. He didn’t know why her opinion meant so much to him. Everyone who knew him knew how he was. But for some reason, he didn’t like the thought of her knowing.
“Not enough.” Hoseok tried to walk past but Jimin yanked on his arm. “I just told her be careful.”
“Goddammit, hyung!” Jimin’s free hand curled into a fist.
“What’re you two doing?” Yoongi asked, appearing at the top of the stairs and making it clear that he would not allow whatever was about to happen.
“Nothing, hyung,” Jimin said forcing himself to let go of Hoseok’s arm.
“Good. You two are in the walkway.” With a huff, Jimin stomped back down the stairs.
Yoongi turned his bored gaze to Hoseok. Hoseok knew that his affect was very deceiving. Years of knowing Yoongi had helped him to read the small twitches and particulars of his behavior whenever Yoongi was trying to appear uninterested. “You’re older than him. You should act like it. You know better than that. And if this has anything to do with Jiyoung, you had better make sure it stops now. I like the girl, but if her presence starts to cause rifts in the friendship you two so carefully worked to repair, I will tell Jin that she has to leave.” Panic showed in Hoseok’s eyes. “That’s what I figured. You two had better work it out before it becomes a problem.” Yoongi left no room for argument. Hoseok stood on the stairs a moment longer after Yoongi passed him.
Hoseok didn’t know what to do. He cared for Jiyoung very deeply already. But Jimin also had his sights on her. Hoseok wanted to protect Jiyoung, but he didn’t know how. If he stayed away from Jiyoung, it was possible that Jimin might try something with her. But if he tried to stay too close, it might push Jimin’s temper. Hoseok also was unsure what to do because of what Jimin said last night. Jimin had said that Jiyoung was basically only a passing fancy as the result of not having recent female contact. But his actions right now and the fact that he felt guilty meant that that wasn’t quite the case. The only other time Jimin had felt guilty was when he found out he had slept with Hoseok’s then-girlfriend (who Hoseok had been madly in love with). And the only reason he had felt guilty was because it was Hoseok.
Hoseok decided that he would need to wait. It had only been a couple days. It was possible that with the next weekend, Jimin would find some random girl at a club and then be over his current feelings for Jiyoung. Hoseok shook off his thoughts and went back to getting ready for work.
In the dining room, Jimin and Jiyoung were talking and joking as if nothing had happened. Jimin felt better knowing that whatever Hoseok had said hadn’t caused her to act differently around him. Yoongi joined them a minute later, though he didn’t say much. He simply watched the interaction between the two. After Jimin finished, Jiyoung and he both got up to put their dishes in the sink. Jimin was reluctant to leave Jiyoung, but he had to get ready for work.
“Let me talk to you for a sec,” Yoongi waved him over. Jiyoung went to the library to pick an easier book for her to read. Jiyoung left and Jimin sighed. He knew he was about to get lectured by his hyung. Yoongi told him the same thing he told Hoseok.
“Shit,” Jimin mumbled under his breath.
“And I’m not joking. Like I said, I like her, I really do. She’s sweet and she fits in with all of us. But I can’t let a problem like this happen. I’ll pay for her to get a hotel room if I have to. Do you understand?”
“Yeah. Don’t worry. It’ll be nothing soon. I already told hyung I’ll take care of it the next time I go out. Come Saturday morning, there won’t be a problem.”
“Whatever it takes.” Yoongi turned back to his food and Jimin trudged up the stairs. Jimin hoped that what he said would hold true, but he was worried. While he did feel a strong attraction to Jiyoung, the way he did towards the other girls he’d take home, there was something else there too. Something he wasn’t completely unfamiliar with. It reminded him of what he felt years ago before he became like this. He told himself he’d work his ass off this week and keep himself distracted and then come Friday, he’d find himself the hottest, bustiest girl at his favorite club and work out his problem all night. And morning if need be.
Jiyoung made sure to come back and talk with the others when they came down. The maids had told her their normal wakeup schedules and, sure enough, the boys stuck diligently to them. Jiyoung read her new book while waiting for the boys to come down and then saw them off. When Jin came down, they talked longer than she did with the others. Jin recommended that when she came across a word she didn’t understand in a book, she should look it up in one of the dictionaries. Jiyoung agreed to the idea. JiEun and Jungkook were the last to get up since they didn’t have classes until later. The two of them took classes at the same university and even had a few overlapping classes. They ended up leaving together.
The maids, SunYung and MinJu, made lunch for themselves and Jiyoung and she was quick to make friends with them. While they didn’t let her clean with them, they did let her follow them and converse with them. She was worried for a little bit that her conversing with them was annoying and/or distracting them, but they assured her that they rather enjoyed the company. When they left do some of the household shopping, Jiyoung stayed and read her book. She didn’t notice when they came back, she was too enthralled in her book. By the time the guys and JiEun came back from their classes, Jiyoung was already about to finish her second book. Jiyoung was completely oblivious to the world around her and the others let her stay that way for a while.
An announcement that dinner was ready finally snapped her out of her fictional world. She was about to get up when she noticed a large shopping bag sitting next to her. With hesitant curiosity, she opened the bag. Inside were a stack of books centered around ‘Preparing for Your GED’. Jiyoung smiled. She brought the bag with her to the dinner table.
“Never thought I’d see someone so excited about school books,” Jin teased.
“Did you get these for me?” Jiyoung asked.
“Everyone got you a couple books on different subjects.”
“Thank you guys,” she bowed deeply. She was touched by their consistent kindness.
“Tomorrow, Kookie and JiEun finish their classes in the afternoon.” Jiyoung laughed at Jungkook’s pet name. “If it’s alright with you, they want to take you to get a cell phone.” Jiyoung was about to protest when Jungkook cut her off.
“It’d be good for you to have one in case of emergencies.” The others voiced their agreement.
“Plus, then we can bother you when we’re bored at work,” Taehyung added while sticking his tongue out. Jiyoung giggled.
Dinner continued with them talking about what they did at work and what Jiyoung had been doing. Jiyoung felt like she was back with her grandparents. Even though there weren’t nearly as many people back then, the sense of family and belonging was similar.
“By the way,” Jin said when they were almost finished eating. “I asked someone I know to see if he could track your aunt.” Jiyoung looked at Jin with mixed feelings. She was happy Jin had stuck to his word and happy at the thought of finding her last biological family member, but deep down, a passing thought hoped that they didn’t find her.
Jiyoung pasted on a smile. “Thank you, oppa.” After that, dinner finished quickly, and more quietly. Everyone went back to their rooms to get everything ready for the next day. Most of the guys had some work that carried over to home and Jungkook and JiEun had some studying to take care of. Jiyoung followed their lead and started studying her new books. The night passed.
The next few days passed similarly. Tuesday, JiEun and Jungkook took her to get her phone, Wednesday, an issue at a couple hospitals kept Hoseok and Taehyung late and busy for a couple days. Jiyoung missed seeing Hoseok for those days. Thursday, Namjoon didn’t come back home at all due to a breakthrough at work. Friday morning, Jiyoung asked the maids to let her prepare dinner that night. She said it was her way of trying to cheer them up after working all week. She also baked cookies for them.
Jiyoung POV
I was happy when everyone enjoyed my cooking. It felt good to do something for them, even though it was something little. Jimin rushed through in order to meet some friends at a club. I was a little disappointed that he was leaving, but I didn’t want to intrude on his personal life. Everyone else insisted on a game and movie night. We played games for a couple hours and then watched a comedy movie. Everyone couldn’t believe when I told them it was my first time watching a movie in 10 years. I fought against the bad thoughts that told me to stop telling so much about myself.
After the movie was over, everyone headed to bed. I waited until JiEun fell asleep and then went back down to wait for Jimin. I thought it would be nice for him to have someone waiting up for him. But part of me knew that staying up wasn’t just for him, I felt like I would be more at ease knowing that he was back safe. I had done the same when Taehyung and Hoseok had stayed late.
It was almost 2 am when I finally heard a car pull up and idle. There was a woman’s laughter and then I heard the car drive away. A taxi? A couple seconds later, someone bumped into the door and I heard them struggling to put the keys in the lock. I quickly ran to the door and opened it with a smile on my face. I was surprised to find that Jimin wasn’t alone. I remembered Jin mentioning that Jimin often did this. For some reason, there was a small pain in my chest. I shook it off.
“Sorry, I didn’t know you were bringing someone. I’m probably not helping you out.” I politely bowed. I looked at the scantily clad woman clinging to Jimin. She was really quite beautiful. {You’ll never be as pretty as her}, the bad thoughts whispered furiously. I ignored them. I could smell the strong stench of alcohol coming off of them. I was going to leave, but then I thought it would probably be better if I locked the door behind them since they had trouble opening the door.
The whole time, the woman, who was hanging off of Jimin, kept drunkenly giggling. “What’ssss she? Your maid?” The woman slurred.
“Nope,” Jimin slurred back. The look that he gave me was something between disinterest and disdain (a new word I learned). It made my stomach clench.
“Sister?”
“No. She’s no one. You don’t need to worry about her.” My heart dropped. The bad thoughts laughed at me, {I told you so}. The woman squealed when Jimin then gripped her ass.
“Let’s see what other noises you can make,” he said suggestively. The woman giggled.
“Good bye, ‘no one’.” The woman wiggled her fingers tauntingly at me before the two stumbled up the stairs and to Jimin’s room. I was frozen for a few minutes before I finally managed to close and lock the door. I didn’t care that Jimin brought someone home {liar}, I had already been told about that and it wasn’t any of my business {are you sure?}. I didn’t care that the woman had called me a no one {it stung a little}, I didn’t know the woman and therefore her words held no value to me {nothing new anyway}. What I did care about was that the only reason the woman had called me a no one was because Jimin himself had declared that that’s what I was. And that hurt more than anything.
It bothered me that the words of someone I had only recently met had affected me so strongly. I felt a needle of pain in my chest which only grew as the words replayed themselves over and over in my head. ‘If you weren’t a nobody, wouldn’t somebody care about you?’, my adoptive mother’s words joined in. And of all people, those hurtful words had come from Jimin. Of the boys, the only ones who could affect me as much as him were Jin and Hoseok. I felt stupid for thinking that Jimin actually thought of me as a friend, as someone he cared about. I really had believed that having many faces wasn’t a problem. What mattered was what face they showed to who. Jimin had just showed me one of his faces. And it wasn’t a nice one.
I felt tears start to roll down my cheeks. I had to rethink everything. If someone like him could trick me so easily, who was to say that the others weren’t like that. {Of course they are. They’re just good at pretending}, the bad thoughts flooded my brain. Maybe I really was bad at reading people. Or maybe I was just bad luck and brought out the worst in people. My grandparents had died soon after they started taking care of me. The people who adopted me were bad people. And my adoptive sister had changed because of me. {You’re like a poison}, the bad thoughts encouraged. {Maybe I shouldn’t let my new friends get any closer. For their sake and mine}.
Ugh! Jimin, Jimin, Jimin. I don't know what to do with him. I wonder how much of what he said he'll remember in the morning. I feel bad for Jiyoung. If it's not one thing, it's another. I guess we'll see what happens.
And I wonder if Yoongi's going to end up having to make good on his promise. I guess we'll find out ;)
Well, that's all for this week. Sorry it's short, but I hope you enjoyed it. Let me know what you think.
See you next week, same time, same place.
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