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*Yeah! Everything is back to normal with the post. I will try to stick with posting every other day. Enjoy!*
(I've decided I'm going to post a card with an updated list of my fanfiction stuff once a week.)
Warning: May contain sexual content and/ or cussing
Word Count: 1028
I turned to him when it was gone and said “Thank you,” again. I saw a light pink spread across his face. “Oh, is someone embarrassed?” I asked teasingly, poking his cheek. “No!” he protested cutely. I squinted my eyes at him and smiled. “Oh, really,” I cooed. “Yes, really,” He tried to avoid eye contact. I poked him in the stomach, “Yaah, you should look at your elders when they talk to you,” I playfully scolded him. He jumped away from my finger so I decided to really get his attention. I started to tickle him, and this is when I started a tickle war. “I’ll stop if you look me in the eye,” I laughed trying to get him to look at me like he usually does. “I’ll stop if I get to ask a question and get your answer,” He stated. He looked me in the eye so I did what I promised, but I still didn’t answer him, so he continued to tickle me. “Okay, you can ask me a question.”
We were both out of breath and he was looking me in the eyes. He still had his hands around my waist and he was holding me. Suddenly, his lips were on mine, I tensed in shock. It was a little kiss, like I’ve never felt before. Not realizing it, I started to kiss him back. He deepened the kiss, I pulled away a soon as I knew what I was doing. I could feel my face flush, so I turned around to try and hide it. “Um, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have…”
Tae started trying to sound stable, but his voice wavered with frustration. “I’m just going to go…I have to get to work early anyways…” “Wait,” He grabbed my arm, but I didn’t even turn to him. “I’m sorry. You don’t have to leave…Can we talk about this?” “I think we should forget that it happened…I’m sorry, Tae. I just...” I paused. “I’ll see you later okay?” I looked at him and he seemed cool and even on the surface, but I can tell that he was still frustrated by the grip on my arm. I brushed him off and walked out. My mind was swimming with confusion as I left.
I went to my room and got changed for work quickly, heading out to the office. I tried to keep myself too busy to think too much into it. Not paying attention to where I was going with a stack of papers. I ran into a solid figure. Papers went everywhere along with my phone. “I’m sorry,” Jungkook, the figure I ran into, said. “It’s alright. It was my fault anyways. I wasn’t paying much attention,” I replied starting to pick things up off the floor. He bent down and started to help me with my thing. “Thank you,” I took the papers that he held out for me. “No problem, I picked up the phone that fell on the ground and began to walk away to get stuff done, not before I gave Jungkook a friendly smile.
Towards the end of the day, the phone was constantly vibrating while I was working, so I looked to see who it was and realized that the phone wasn’t mine. It was the same phone type and everything, but it wasn't my phone. I started to go through the phone to look to see who’s it was. I sighed looking at all the selfies of Jungkook. I decided after work that I would go to their dorm to give it to him. I finally packed up my stuff for the day and I looked up from my desk to find Tae standing there. He looked worried and heartbroken all in one. I didn’t even speak to him as I walked right past him. I wanted to stop and talk, but if I did I would fall weak to his desperate gaze.
“I know I screwed up…If I forget about it ever happening… will you please talk to me?” I stop walking away and turned to look at him. He looked relieved that I had stopped for him. “Walk with me back to the dorm?” I started walking and he ran to catch up with me. We started to walk back in silence, which was weird for Tae to be so quiet. “Tae?” “Yeah,” He responded. “We can only be friends…” I retorted plainly. “I know…I’m…I’m sorry.” I didn’t want to do that, but I already have too much stuff going on to get him involved. I didn’t need to take him down this hole with me. Mary was right about one thing, I’ve dung myself a hole and if one of them say something, it’s my ass and they shouldn’t go down with me.
“No, it’s okay Taehyung…It was not your fault it was mine. I shouldn’t have let you kiss me…” He grabbed my arm and I when I was ahead of him. “Why are you pushing me away?” “Because it’s the easiest thing to do right now… I really don’t want to hurt you…” “How do you know that you’ll hurt me if you won’t even look at me while I talk to you? You’re hurting me more now, more than ever…” He paused. I felt my arm being tugged with an enough force that it made me collide with him. He held me tightly in a hug. “I want to be your friend, just let me be your friend…”
I mulled it over for a few seconds and said “Okay, we can be friends… but nothing more, just friends…” the rest of the trip back to the dorms were practically silent. The only thing that made a sound was our surroundings and my thoughts swirling in my brain as I tried to make since of my life currently… my life has flip flopped in less than a week and I was still trying to wrap my mind around the insanity of it while thinking it couldn’t get any worse…but clearly, I was wrong because it got a hell of a lot more confusing, exciting, depressing and happy all at once.
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