Dear BamBam, I don't know if I'll ever be able to say this without my heart beating fast, stuttering to get these words that spill the truth, or even without getting so nervous that I am left speechless...But here it goes... I want to thank you, for everything. You have made me smile so much, I haven't been happy in a long time. It's been really hard for me. I have lost someone so dear to me two years ago and I've gotten heartbroken so much. But somehow, you make me want to smile so much and laugh so hard that it hurts. I might say "stop dabbing" but at the same time I love seeing you dab and be so happy. I love that evil face you put on, every single time you're on asc. It magically makes me smile. I love just knowing that you exist. Just with that is more than enough to make me want to keep fighting through. I know I'll never be brave enough to say any of this, let alone meet you. I know I won't ever have a chance. But I hope that the person who ends up with you forever, will cherish, love, and appreciate everyone of your "flaws", your personality, your love and just all of you. Because they're holding and spending their life with someone who has meant the world to me and has the ability to make others so happy. I hope they understand that it hurts me a bit with you two being together, but all of that will end up being filled with happiness because you will be happy with the person you cherish the most. I know it's been a tough year for you, but please know that us iGOT7 are here for you and love you to death. I love you to death. It's okay to be sad and to cry. We'll be your shoulder to cry on. So if you need to cry, we'll always be here to comfort you. If only I could actually tell you all of this...it would be easier that way. But I'm just a little bit of a mess, and the chances of meeting you are very low. I know you won't notice me as well, but even then, I'm still here supporting you until the very end. I'm okay with not being noticed, because I know that you still exist, and just know of your existence makes me happy. Sincerely, Emily 💞 P.S: please never stop dabbing or being yourself. I love you and your crazy nonsense.