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As I got back to the dorm, Namjoon stopped me at the door. “Hey,” “Hey, What’s up? You’ve been avoiding me for the past couple of days…” I asked him. “I just want to say that… I would be okay if you and (Y/n) are together…” He looked depressed just saying those words. “Look, Namjoon, it’s nothing like that… (Y/n) and I are just friends… She’s just… trying to pull herself together right now, she’s going through a rough time right now…” I insisted. “She’s going through a rough time? What about me… huh? Every part of me aches every time I see her... because I can’t be with her… and she’s going through a rough time?!” His voice got louder as he continued. Tears are in his eyes now, “Namjoon,” I said grabbing his shoulder, trying to console him, but he shrugged me off “I don’t need your sympathy…” He stormed off to his room and I heard his door slam down the hall. I signed in frustration “What am I going to do?” I looked at the guys who were in the living room, and they were obviously trying to stay out of it…
Weeks went by and I haven’t seen Namjoon ever since we ran into each other last time. I tried to do everything like I use to before I started dating Namjoon. I felt weird with every step I took of our choreography, every note of our vocal lessons, and everything else. I didn’t realize how much he was in my life. “(Y/n)!” I was jerked out of my dream state from the vocal teacher. “Yes?” “Why are you out of it lately?” she had asked. “Oh. Sorry, I’ll try to stay more focused, I’m sorry,” I bowed, showing how sorry I was.
“Okay, why don’t we take a quick break?” I sighed and walked out of the room. I rubbed my face in frustration. I started to walk to the vending machines to get a water bottle, but stopped dead in my tracks. I looked down the hall and saw Namjoon with an arms around Kat. My breath caught in my throat. I ran the other direction and went to the bathroom. I felt my eyes start to sting, so I turned the sink on to wash my face. Frustration grew in me. I was going to show him that I didn’t need him anymore.
“Look, you can’t just grab me like that, Kat.” I tried to pull her off of me, but she had a grip of a python. I finally got her off of me and looked her in the eye. “Namjoon, I really like you…” her eye went from happy to pleading in an instant. I sighed “I’m sorry, but I don’t like you like that… Can we just be friends?” “Okay,” she sounded pitiful and was about to turn away from me. So, to be fair, I grabbed her and gave her a hug. “I really am sorry,” I said as I could feel her arms wrap around me like before. As I released her from the hug I said my goodbye to her and turned to walk down the hall. (Y/n) was walking towards us, but didn’t even look in my direction. When she eventual got close enough, I grabbed her arm. “(Y/n), I came to talk to you.” She looked me in the face and plainly said “About what?” “About us.” I saw a glimpse of something cross her face when I said that, but it went back to normal in a second.
“There’s nothing to talk about.” I could tell she was lying. She had always been terrible at it. “Yes, I think there is… Just come with me for a second so we can talk in private,” I asked trying my best to hold in the frustration that I was feeling right now. She sighed “Just follow me so I can get some water.” I agreed and followed her to the vending machine room and thankful there was no one in sight.
I didn’t know what he wanted to talk about, but if it’s about moving on, he didn’t have to have my permission. “I glad I caught you. We really need to talk…” “You know you can date someone else without my permission.” He stopped talking and was practically speechless. “Excuse me?!” He paused seeming a bit shocked and frustrated. “What?” “You and Kat…” “No, this conversation is strictly about us… I don’t want Kat…” he paused as I got the water out of the vending machine. “(Y/n), I miss you.” I looked at him. “No, you miss the idea of me dating you…” “Why are you doing this?” “what? What am I doing?” I asked. He ran his finger through his hair in frustration. “Why are you pushing me away?” “Because… I’m tired of the fighting, the crying, getting back together and then doing it all over again,” I stopped and looked him in the eyes. “You need to move on. We both do… this isn’t health for us.” I go to leave the room, but he caught my arm again, like before in the hall way. “(Y/n), I need you… I love you…please, don’t do this.” I could feel the tears pool in my eyes as I looked at him. I had half a mind to change my mind, but it would change things. We were in a rut, a rut that we seemed to never dig ourselves out of.
“Just let me go, Namjoon! It’s for the best! Live your life with someone that won’t cause you pain and I’ll do the same…” I go to jerk away, but he wouldn’t let me go. I looked him in the eyes, this time they weren’t filled with frustration, but with desperation. “What’s the point of being with someone who doesn’t make you feel some kind of emotion? You are the only person that I’ve ever feel anything with. You are the only person that I feel alive with…” he paused as he shook his head no. “There is no other person, but you…”
Those words pulled at my heart strings. “I can’t live without you ever since you came into my life…” My tears started to flow. Before I knew it, I had kissed him. Something that I thought I had told myself that I didn’t want to do, but really, I was dying to be back in his arms.
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