The few days with Kookie around went by fast. Before we knew it he was gone. "Don't worry honey you will see him again soon." She smiled at me. "I know. But video chatting isn't the same." "But you will get through it. " My mom was right. I needed to stay positive. "Alright thanks mom." "Ok I am going to head....." My mom stopped talking and grabbed the counter with one hand and her head with the other. "Are you ok?" I asked moving over to her. "I don't know...it hurts." She fell forward and I barely caught her. "Mom!" She had passed out. I reached for my phone that had fallen out of my hand and dialed 911. Within a few minutes an ambulance came and got her. They rushed her into a room and started checking her out. after several minutes a doctor came out to see me. "What do you mean she has gotten worse? She has been taking her meds that were suppose to make her better." "Has she been taking them properly?" He asked. I started thinking back. I know I saw her take them...but when was the last time. Was it the day Jungkook came? "I assumed she was. I had seen her take them." I said realizing she might not have taken them anymore. "Well we will start the treatment now and hopefully after a while she will take them on her own." The doctor said and instead of going to my mom I went home. I went searching through her things and sure enough her meds hadn't been touched since the day Kookie came here. "Why didn't you notice! I'm killing my own mother!!!" I screamed out to the empty house. I fell to the ground and started crying. There is no way I will let her leave me. She needs to survive. I went back to the hospital after I calmed down. I walked into her room and she was awake. "How dare you." I yelled. "Excuse me?" "Not taking your meds? I am mad at myself for not noticing before." "Honey I have the right to not take the meds." "No! You don't you need to take them, you are not allowed to leave me." "You won't be alone." "Yes, yes I will." "No you will have Jungkook." "Mom he is in another country, he can't just drop everything to come here for me. Stop being so selfish." "Sarah! I have known about my condition for awhile." "I know and it's not fair. I wouldn't have left you." "That's why I didn't tell you." "Well you can't stop me now." I was done i was going to keep a close eye on her now. I've had too many scares from her and I don't want anymore. . . . ..... .... .... .... ... .. .. . . . After another week of fighting with my mom on her taking her meds. I Finally broke. The only way she would understand how serious I was, was if I ended the possibility of me leaving. I called Kookie ready for what was to come. "Hi Babe!" "Hi." "How is everything?" He asked "It'll be better soon. Kookie I have to tell you something." "What's up?" "I...I...we need to break up." "What! Why?" "I will never be coming back. My mom is not getting better because she won't take her pills. She just wants me to leave her and I can't do that." "But why do we need to break up?" "Because I can't do it anymore." I was trying to hold back my tears. "But..." "I'm sorry...Goodbye." I said and hung up. I wouldn't talk to him again. I was doing what was best. I couldn't risk going to visit him with how my mom was being. She would understand how serious I was about this and that's what needed to happen.
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