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J-The Pains Of Our Yesterdays C18- Rising Waters
Alright guys, it's time to pick your path. If you're on this page, this is Jimin's path. Just to remind everyone, from Chapter 18 and onward, the chapters are split between a Hoseok path and a Jimin path. This particular card is Jimin's path. If you're on the wrong card, go here for Hoseok's path.

Now, for the warning, it is highly recommended that you choose one path and stick with it. If you want to read both, I recommend that you pick one until it ends, then go back and read the other. The reason for that is because the characters are stuck in the same place with the same situations. Obviously, things will be changed, I didn't cut and paste the different names, but you will probably find it repetitive. But if you want to read both, I obviously won't stop you. Either way, I hope you enjoy the story.

Another warning, Jimin's path is going to be a bit dark and angsty for a while. I just wanted to warn everyone because there may be some trigger warnings. But hopefully, the path they'll take will more than make up for this.

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Disclaimer: Many of the characters aside from BTS are made up and BTS themselves are not BTS in this story. And, of course, I don't know the BTS boys personally so their personalities are probably mostly fictional.
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Beginning: Chapter 1
Previous: Chapter 17
Warning: May contain mild language, slight trigger warning related to depression
Jiyoung POV

Everyone stayed and talked with me, trying to encourage me and lift my spirits. They told me everything the doctor had said about my recovery and rehabilitation. I was nervous, but hopeful. I noticed that Jimin wouldn’t come close anymore and it made me worried. Had something happened to him? I had a hard time keeping track of all the questions they kept asking me. I think it would be impossible to actually count the number of times they asked about my pain, my head, if I was hungry or thirsty, and if I had enough blankets. I pointed out that they were all acting like mothers which made them laugh. I loved the sound of their laughter. It was the feeling of home.

Something was off, though. It felt like they were hiding something, though I couldn’t tell what. Every time I tried to direct the conversation towards it, they would pretend they didn’t hear me and change the subject. That made me really worried. I couldn’t walk and I was pretty beat up. What could be worse? It didn’t feel like anything else was wrong with me, but what did they have to hide? The more I thought about it, the more tired I became. The medicine was pretty potent. I couldn’t help the increasing frequency of my yawns and everyone began to notice.

“Maybe you should rest,” Jin suggested. I hummed in agreement and yawned again.

“You guys should rest as well, you have work and school to worry about.” They opened their mouths to argue. “No arguing. Go home and get some rest. I’ll be fine. And tomorrow, you can tell me what it is that you’re hiding.” They looked at each other, confirming it for me. “Seriously. I’m not joking. Whatever it is, I want to know. No arguing about that either.”

Jin looked at the others and then back to me. “Fine. I know how stubborn you are. But I’m staying here tonight. No arguing about that either.” I smiled and stuck my tongue out at him, making everyone laugh.

“Okay, everyone, let’s say our goodbyes,” Yoongi said, clapping his has together to get their attention. “Goodnight, Jiyoung-ah.” He hugged me. Everyone took a turn as well.

“Thank you for fighting,” Hoseok whispered in my ear.

“I’ll always fight to stay here,” I told him.

When it was Jimin’s turn, he looked... uncomfortable hugging me. I tried to ask him what was wrong but he just turned away and walked off. That hurt a lot. Something was wrong and he looked like he was hurting. What had happened while I was unconscious?

“Jimin?” Pretending like he didn’t hear me, he walked off, following the others. My heart sank. This wasn’t the same avoidance as before the accident. “What’s wrong with Jimin?” I asked Jin.

Jin made a face like he was trying to figure out what to say. “He... I think this was all just a lot for him. Everyone took it hard when we heard about the accident. I think that’s just his way of coping with those emotions. He’ll be fine, though.”

“He didn’t look—“

“He’ll be fine. Jimin’s tough. You’re the one I’m worried about. Just let yourself sleep now, okay?”

I was too tired to argue. “Fine...” Already, my eyes were trying to stay closed at every blink.

“Get some rest and you’ll feel better tomorrow. They’ll take the neck brace off tomorrow and everyone will be back to see you. You’ll need your energy. You’ve been through so much, just let yourself rest now.”

“You too, oppa.” Sleep slurred my speech. “Get... s... sleep...” And then I was out.

The next morning, I woke up in a panic. I couldn’t really remember the dream, but I think I had been trying to find someone, someone who was always just turning the next corner. For a second, my dream overlaid with reality and I was still in that maze. Then the antiseptic medicinal smell woke me up to reality. I was in a hospital... but how did I get there? The haze of medicine slowly cleared bit by bit. I had been in an accident, that’s what had happened. I tried to move my head as much as the brace would allow. I felt someone’s hand on mine. I looked down and saw Jin sitting in a chair with his head resting on my bed. My hand was tightly clasped in his. Had he been worried? I’m sure he had to have been. He lost his sister a long time ago and he regarded me as his sister as well. He had probably been so scared of losing someone else. I felt horrible for making him go through that. A few tears overflowed and dripped down my face.

I lost track of the time as I watched his peaceful face. I wondered how much sleep he’d had. I looked up at the clock. 7:52. I continued watching and thinking about what I was going to do now. I was already such a burden on them. How much more was I going to trouble them? And Jimin... what was wrong with him. The movement of Jin’s eyes under his eyelids caught my attention. He was about to wake up. He let out a soft sigh and his eyes barely opened. He kept one eye open and smiled at me. I smiled back. He sat up, his grip on my hand never fluctuating.

“Good morning, oppa,” I giggled. His eyes were puffy and he had bed head.

“Good morning,” he answered while stretching. “How are you feeling?”

“I’m fine. The medicine is working wonders.”

“Mm, good. How long have you been awake?”

“Just a little bit. And how are you feeling, oppa?”

“Rested,” he chuckled.

“How’s your neck? That looked like an uncomfortable position to sleep in.”

“Nah, it’s fine. I wasn’t there for too long anyway. You were crying in your sleep not too long ago so I came over.”

I wondered if it had anything to do with that dream. “I’m sorry about that.”

“No, don’t be. I’m just glad I was here. You stopped crying as soon as I held your hand. Made me feel useful.”

“Oppa...”

There was a knock on the door. Jin told them to come in. The door opened and Hoseok stuck his head in. I giggled. He looked silly. When he saw me, a brilliant smile broke out on his face making me smile back.

“Good morning, Hoseok. Come in.”

“Good morning, Jiyoung. How are you feeling?”

“I’m good, thanks.”

“Good morning, Hoseok,” Jin said with a fake pout.

“O-oh! Sorry, hyung. Uh, good morning.”

I suppressed a giggle. “Not that I would complain about you visiting me, but shouldn’t you be at work?”

“Did you forget already? This is one of my family’s hospitals. I usually work from my office at the main branch, but I can work from here as well.” He smiled. “Looks like you’re stuck with me.”

“I guess I could live with that,” I teased.

“Tae will be by later as well. He had an early meeting at the main branch, but then he’ll be relocating to here as well. I think you should be more worried about him than me.”

“It does sound scary.” The three of us laughed.

“Ah, but hyung, Tae and I will be here. You should go home and get ready for work.”

“I’m staying here today.” I immediately felt guilty. I was interfering with his life and work.

“You have an important meeting later. I know you shouldn’t miss it. You can go. Tae and I will take good care of her. Promise.”

“Oppa, please.” Jin looked to me. “You can’t put your life on hold just because of me. You need to go. Please. I don’t want to be a bigger burden.” Jin was unhappy at my last sentence.

“Fine. You know I don’t like it when you say that...” I did know that. That’s exactly why I had said it. “I’ll be back after the meeting’s over.”

“You worry about your company, oppa. I have Hoseok and Tae—well, I have Hoseok if anything happens.” They burst out laughing.

“I’m telling my cousin,” Hoseok laughed.

“Hey, be nice.”

He chuckled. “Fine. Just because it was also a compliment for me.”

Jin stood up and let out a groan as he stretched. “Then I’ll be back after work with the others. You better take care of her.” He pointed at Hoseok.

“Y-yes, hyung.” Was Jin really that scary?

Jin came over and kissed the crown of my head, avoiding the bandages. “Behave, rest up, and eat up, okay? Don’t make Hoseok tattle on you.”

I chuckled again. “Yes, oppa. I got it. Now go and take care of your work. Don’t be late for your meeting.”

“Yes, boss,” he drawled. He gave me one last look before leaving.

“H-have you eaten yet?” Hoseok asked.

I turned to him and started to shake my head. Bad idea. “Not yet,” I told him. Hoseok held up a small bag that I didn’t see with him before.

“I figured that would be likely. I asked SunYung and MinJu to make some food for you. The hospital food isn’t bad, but I thought it’d be nice to eat something from home. I had them make your favorites. They also said ‘hi’ and they’ll try to stop by today or tomorrow.”

I smiled at him. “Thank you, Hoseok. I really appreciate it.” He unpacked the dishes on the bedside table. When he popped off the lids, my mouth started watering. And then I realized something— Jin wasn’t here to feed me... Was Hoseok going to have to? That was going to be so awkward. He froze while unpacking and I knew he had come to the same realization. His face turned pink.

“Uh... is it okay... I mean, do you—is it okay if I feed you?” He stuttered. Apparently he was more shy about something like this than I expected. Of course, I probably would’ve felt the same if I had to feed one of the guys. “I-I can ask a nurse if you prefer.”

“It’s okay,” I assured him. “I don’t mind. As long as you’re comfortable with it.”

Hoseok's face seemed to turn down ever so slightly, but I didn’t know why. Just as fast as it appeared, it disappeared back into his sunshine smile. “Then, what would you like to start with?”

After I finished eating, Hoseok cleaned up the food. We talked for a bit and I asked about Jimin. He frowned a bit again and told me that Jimin was fine, he was just a bit overwhelmed with everything and work. Hoseok then said he had to leave, but promised (threatened) that Taehyung would be by soon. Taehyung showed up shortly after Hoseok left. He forced me to confess about Hoseok feeding me and then teased me until I asked him about Jimin as well. He told me the same thing as Hoseok, which made me worry even more.

Just before he left, he asked, “For lunch, if I went and got you some food, would you prefer nakjibokkeum (spicy stir-fried octopus) or sannakji (live octopus)? Do you know which one you truly like?”

I stared at him, confused for a moment, before remembering our conversation during our ‘date’. And then I knew that he knew what I meant in that conversation. I looked down. I had figured it out, but I was beginning to think I was going to end up disappointed. Jimin was worse than he was after the kiss, the kiss that I knew he had to remember. Something else had happened, but either no one would tell me or no one knew. But Jimin... No. I would have to give it some time and see if he would bounce back like everyone kept saying.

“Yeah, I know.”

“Why do you look like that then?”

I looked up at Taehyung. “Like what?”

“Like you’re sad.”

I forced a smile. “I’m just new to everything. It’s all so foreign to me. I guess I’m worried whether he’ll like me back...”

“He?” Taehyung teased.

“Shut it. Like you don’t know what I was talking about.”

“True enough. But I’ll tell you, whoever it is, he likes you too. And he’s very lucky to have your affection. Are you going to tell me the answer though?”

“Now, why would I do something like that?” This time, my smile was genuine.

“So evil. And I’m so nice to you.”

“Ha! Who’re you trying to fool?”

He chuckled. “Fine then. I’ll just have to figure it out on my own.”

“Good luck with that.”

He threw me a pouting face before leaving. Leaving me alone to my thoughts. My worried thoughts. I had an idea as to why Jimin had pretended to not remember kissing me. With my reaction, he was probably afraid of making things awkward. And at the time, I was okay with that because I, myself, didn’t know how I felt. But what had changed since the accident. If he really cared, shouldn’t he be trying to come closer, not push away? But the guys knew him longer than I had and they said that he was fine. I hoped so. Seeing him avoid me really hurt and I was worried about him as well.
I was upset. I wanted to ask him what was wrong. And after figuring that out, I needed to find out his feelings for me. But I was stuck in the hospital, confined to a bed. I couldn’t walk, I couldn’t even feed myself. I shook my head, trying to clear that line of thinking. I didn’t want to fall into the dark thoughts anymore.

One of the nurses brought me a special remote that I could use to mess with the TV, even with my bandages. I tried to keep myself distracted with daytime television. I didn’t work that great. All I could do was think about what could be wrong with Jimin. I managed to be distracted when Hoseok and Taehyung joined me for lunch. While we ate, the two of them read my texts from the guys and responded for me. While the others sent a few texts, Jin sent way more than a few, and Jimin sent one. I asked about Jimin again and Taehyung told me that he was fine, just busy.

When we finished lunch, the two of them had to go back to work. I was back in those thoughts that the TV couldn’t drown out. A nurse came in and removed my neck brace. It was nice to be able to move my head around again.

As soon as they finished work, Taehyung and Hoseok were back in my room. Everyone else, except Jungkook and JiEun came within the next half hour. Their classes kept them away a bit longer. When they did arrive, though, they had bags of food they had picked up from home. As much as I tried to catch Jimin’s attention, he seemed dead-set on avoiding me and stayed the farthest away from me. I felt my spirits dropping. We all chatted about things at the hospital, their work, and at home, and I tried my best to not let them think something was wrong. The looks on their faces said that I wasn’t doing a good job.

Aside from them being worried, there was an underlying tone of wariness. They were hoping I’d forgotten about their promise to tell me the secret they were hiding from me. I hadn’t. But right now... I wasn’t sure if I wanted to hear. I was a little scared about what they were so adamantly hiding from me and I wanted to know what it was. At the same time... I didn’t exactly feel up to it. If they were hiding it, it must’ve been for my benefit. Maybe it would be better to wait until I was in better spirits. Whatever it was, maybe that’s why they didn’t want to tell me. Maybe they were afraid it would be too much for me.

“I’m sure you’re hoping I forgot,” I said when everything started to quiet down.

“Forgot what?” Jin asked nervously.

“To tell me what you were hiding from me.” I watched them all look at each other.

“Ji—“

“It’s alright. I’ll wait. Whatever it is... I’m not sure if I’d be up to hearing it now. If you’re hiding it... it must be pretty bad.”

“It’s not bad,” Jin quickly interjected. “It’s just... I think it would be better if you waited to recover a bit before hearing it.”

I looked at him and nodded. “Okay. I’ll wait a little bit. I’m not sure if I’m currently in the best place to hear whatever it is. But... I can’t wait too long. It’s bothering me to not know. But I know you have my best interests.” I looked toward Jimin. I caught his eye for a second before he whipped his head away. I definitely wasn’t in a place to hear anything right now.

“I promise, I’ll tell you soon. Just wait a little bit.” I nodded in agreement.

The conversation turned back to other topics until they had to leave. They started to bid me goodnight and promising to see me the next day.

“No,” I told them. “You guys have lives. I will always enjoy you coming to visit, but don’t push yourselves too much to visit all the time. Even you guys need rest. Don’t feel like you have to come every single day. Just do what you can. I appreciate all of it. Oh, and next time you do visit, they’re moving me to another room tonight since I’m more recovered.” Everyone told me how excited they were for that. All of us were happy to hear that I was doing better.

My move to another room was easy and uneventful. Jin and Hoseok worked to get me a VIP room even though I told them I’d be fine with a regular room. Over the next few days, my spirits fluctuated constantly, sometimes dependent on if people were visiting me, sometimes for no reason at all. I was worried about Jimin, he was getting worse, but no one said anything different. I stopped asking Hoseok because it seemed to bother him, even if he didn’t say it out loud. Taehyung and Jin just kept saying the same thing. But I knew something was wrong. Jimin only came when other people came and he didn’t talk almost at all, not even with the others. When I was left alone, all I did was worry about him and about that secret.

I knew I shouldn’t be feeling so bad in such a short time, but being confined to my bed and in the hospital was like being stuck in a closed room with water slowly pouring in. The water was getting higher and higher. Except it wasn’t water, it was sadness, loneliness, and depression. My small reliefs from my loneliness, being bored, and dwelling on things I couldn’t do anything about, came in the form of my visits from the guys, especially Hoseok and Taehyung who visited at least a few times a day.

I was feeling claustrophobic even only after a couple days so it was a huge relief when the doctor finally cleared me to leave the room. Jin and Hoseok took me around in my wheelchair and Hoseok even snuck me out to the garden once. The breath of fresh air was enough to really lift my spirits.

Finally, a few days after the promise, Jin said he was ready to tell me what they had been hiding. I was anxious.

“I... uh...” Jin started saying.

“Am I really paralyzed? Permanently?” I asked. If that’s what it was, I just need to rip the band-aid off in one go.

He grabbed my hand tightly. “No. That’s not it. You’ll be able to recover. I promise.”
I smiled hesitantly at him. “Then...?”

“We...” he sighed. “You know about the blood condition you have. And how we had to have donors fly in from other parts of the country.” I nodded along. “Well... the accident messed you up pretty badly. You were... you were bleeding out... They weren’t sure if you would survive if they couldn’t find more blood immediately. So they recommended testing all of us for the condition. It’s something that isn’t usually discovered until later in life so none of us knew if we had it. That condition is very rare, even amongst family members. We still couldn’t find your aunt so we weren’t sure what was going to happen... We got lucky. I have the condition.”

I looked at him. I wasn’t sure if I should be happy or sad. It was a condition that could be dangerous because of the lack of donors, but at the same time, it meant that we would always be able to help each other. And it was one more coincidence between the two of us. I smiled slightly. “If people didn’t know any better, they’d think we were actually related. I mean, just the number of coincidences. But I’m sorry that you have...” I trailed off at the looked on Jin’s face. He looked away guiltily. “What? What’s wrong?”

“We are related.” I was confused. I was obviously hearing things wrong.

“What do you mean? Like distant relatives? Half cousin twice removed or whatever silly thing?”

“No. Closer than that.” I didn’t know what to say. I opened my mouth but he quickly spoke. “We’re siblings.”

“What? That’s not... that’s not even possible. My parents would never cheat... and yours... would they?”

“No, that’s—you’re SooJin,” he blurted.

“What?” That was ridiculous.

“I know what you’re thinking. That it’s ridiculous and not possible.” That’s exactly what I was thinking. “They ran tests. You’re SooJin. My—“ he choked slightly “My SooJin.” A tear dripped down the side of his face that I could see. He was still turned away from me, refusing to look me in the eye.

“That’s not possible. I know I remind you of her, but I have a family. I have my own family. Pictures, everything.”

Jin started to explain the conclusion they had come to, that it was all an accidental mix-up. They told me about both accidents and what had likely happened based on police reports and medical files. And all the pieces started to fall into place: the timing of the accident and me waking up, my grandparents’ fear of me going to the gorge, the looks my aunt gave me the first time I saw her. Apparently, Jiyoung and I had looked almost identical, so it wasn’t too surprising for the initial mix-up. But my aunt must have known something was wrong. Why hadn’t she said anything? I didn’t know how to feel. Everything I knew for the last 13 years of my life had been a lie. Everything I had gone through, all of my memories...

I looked around. Everyone looked nervous and Jin still looked guilty.

“Are you okay, unnie?” JiEun asked quietly.

A tear slipped down my face. “I don’t know...” I really didn’t. I didn’t know what to think at all.

I turned when a hand gently squeezed my left hand. Hoseok was looking at me with an encouraging smile. “It’s okay to be confused. We know you’ll need time. But... you’re still the same person.” Hoseok nodded his head towards Jin.

I looked back. Jin’s hands were situated in his lap, fidgeting nervously. I could see the nails of one hand digging into the back of the other. He was scared. He was scared of my reaction. I reached my free hand over the railing. I couldn’t reach him, but I still held my hand out. “Oppa?” Jin’s head jerked to me, a nervous fear in his eyes. He was probably afraid I blamed him. His gaze traveled down to my outstretched and bandaged hand. “Oppa,” I repeated, “can you grab my hand? It’s hard to hold it like this.”

He let out a small sob and grabbed my hand. “I’m so sorry.”

“It’s not your fault oppa. I know that. And you should know that as well. It’ll... it’ll take some getting used to... but it doesn’t change how I feel about any of you. And you... I guess it just means that there won’t be a need to act like siblings. Because we are...” And even in all the confusion, I knew for certain, I was happy about this.
Alright, and there it is, the first split chapter. As you can see, it's going on a bit of a darker path. But like I said, I'm hoping to make up for it later. But it makes one wonder, why is Jimin behaving like he is?

Please don't forget to vote for the next story here.

Aside from that, I hope you enjoy and I'll put out the next chapter on Saturday. See you then.

Thank you @Mavis2478 for the story.
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waiting for Jimin to GrOw SoMe BaWlLz!
8 months ago·Reply
@KittenFear hmmmm, yeah. Let me just wait over here in the corner (please don't kill me) lol
8 months ago
I can't wait for the nxt chapter. Jimin seriously does need to take it up a notch and be more confident in himself
8 months ago·Reply
@YessicaCardenas but you remember the last chapter. Jimin said to himself that he wanted to let Hoby be happy and that he wouldn't interfere. @SNBlackRose right? I'm remembering this correctly right? lol
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Yup well lets see how it goes can't wait for the next part. Jimin does not look like the type to give up without a fight lol
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