Feelz war began and I'm coming for Eomma @Royalpandajedi using a little Jay. All told through Jay's POV
I'd rather give you all of me but you push me away. I'm always chasing after you but you keep saying, "No Jay" or "enough". What am I supposed to give to you to make you believe I'm for real. I've messed up in the past but I'd swear to heaven or hell that I'd do anything for your trust. You still think I'd hurt you. You still think I'm playing. I've only seen you, that first time we met, right in the lobby of AOMG, damn your smile had me. You were so professional while my eyes and mind wandered to what might be underneath. I chased you, I wanted you. I fucked up. I wanted you and I hurt you. So I tried to hide the mistake. A drunken night and old habits of rubbing up, kissing and having sex with babes came back. You said it showed my true heart but it's not like that. It's the life I lived for so long it's like teaching a pup to sit. I needed training and I thought I had it but I didn't. I tried to make up for it, I bought you so much but it wasn't enough. I understand it, you say I don't but I do. I broke your heart. I told you, you could trust me. I told you I'd never do that to you. I'd never do what so many other guys have done to you. Damn it I wanted you. I still do. All give you all of me instead. You don't want material things so take everything I have. Take these hands that touched her and clean them. Take these eyes that wandered and make them focus. Take these lips that lied and train them to only tell the truth. Take my heart as a trophy and show her I belong only to you. I'm yours, take all of me. I'm yours. I lied. I'm sorry. You have every right to be angry and look babe- just let me finish. I. Am. An. Idiot. It's just a fact that can't be erased. I can be taught though. I know you don't want to teach me so let me say this. I can learn. I'll work for it. I'm not talking about your body I'm talking about your heart. I had it but I was careless with it. I didn't think I'd break it but I forgot how fragile it already was. If these pieces of your heart are too sharp, I'll let my hands bleed putting it back together. I kept telling you I love you. I know you don't believe me but I can prove it to you. Just let me give you all of me.
Let me start like this. Everyday I'll pick you up and take you to bed. No sex. Just. Bed. I'll carry you every night up the stairs and past the door and lay you down. I'll cover you with the sheets, I'll even sing you to sleep. Let me wash you hair, I'll wash your body. No sex. Just. Washing. I'll clean every part of you. You won't have to lift a finger. I'll do it all for you. Let me earn your trust. Call me anytime and I'll answer. Ask me to come and I'll be there. Let me touch you. No sex. Just. Touch. I'll move slow day by day. I'll hold your hand then touch your arms until I've met your shoulders. I'll hug you close and bury your face in my chest. I'll wear the cologne you like to soothe. On your stressed days, I'll pamper you and I'll massage you. Let me keep touching you. No sex. Just. Touching. When I finally get to touch your face again, I'll drink you in. I'll pay attention this time. Every imperfection makes you so much more perfect in my eyes. Let me kiss you. No. Sex. Just. Kiss. When I kiss you again, I'll take my time tasting your lips. I'll savor every feeling you give me and I'll give you feelings too. You'll trust me. I'll have given you all of me. So when I carry you upstairs to bed or wash you clean or massage the knots away you'll know how much I love you. You'll know how dedicated I am. You'll know I only see you. You'll know I've learned my lesson. I know there's only you. You give me everything so in return I'll give you all of me. One day you'll say you love me again. When I put you to bed, you'll invite me in next to you. I'll hold you and kiss you and you'll tell me you love me and I'll never let you go. I'll remind you, you have all of me and I'll never leave you alone. I'll shower with you and we'll bathe each other taking in each others soaked bodies. We'll be kind to each other like always. I'll touch you and you'll love it, every sweet soft caress. You'll love my tender kiss again, you'll love all of me and you'll love it when I whisper against your lips
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