Ah, I recognize you now. I've seen your cards. I've watched you struggle. I do feel sorry for you, and I know how it feels. I've talked people out of cutting and failed a few times. You're not alone. Ither people feel the same way as you. Talk to others, and you will hear thier stories. You don't need a girlfriend, you just need a good friend. Someone that can help you through your struggles and tell you it's gonna be ok. There's a whole community, a whole group of communities of people that would be willing to form those friendships with you.