I've been putting off my re edits to my BTS Series, so I hope you can forgive me. Anyways, here is Jin's story.. and yes I did change the name on it, only cause i thought this suited it more.
so I hope you still enjoy it ^^
“Is he still in there?”
“Yea…What do we do? His drinking is getting out of hand.”
“I know, but all we can do is try and help him right now.”
I heard them quiet down, and leave from the outside of my room. I just haven't been myself after when she left me two months ago, I just can’t forget… four years meant nothing to her, I guess not if she had to betray me behind my back. *sigh* I guess I just have to really move on.
I got up and sat on the edge of my bed, I looked over to my desk that had piles of books and scattered paper across it, I walked over and turned on the little lamp so it gave my room a little light, I sat down and picked up a pencil, I sat for a while until my mind begged me to write. I’m surprise with my sober brain I’m able to function, and comprehend words and the sentences I was writing.
I looked at the paper that I scribbled what to me was just nonsense, I looked at the time and it was close to midnight. I got up and grabbed my paper and notebook, and stuffed it in a bag. I went to my bedroom door and opened it. It was oddly quiet in the apartment, so I figured the guys are either out or asleep. I sighed and went straight to the door.
“Hyung?” I stopped and turned around to see Namjoon standing there.
“Oh, uh hey.” I said relaxing.
“Where are you going? It’s late?” He asked looking from my bag up to my face.
“I’ve been wanting to sit somewhere and write… so I’m going to my spot.” I said to him.
“Oh, do you want me to go with you? I don’t really want you going by yourself hyung.” He said.
“I’ll be okay, I just want to be alone Namjoon” I said smiling a little and leaving out the door.
I got up the top floor and reached the roof access, I knoticed that the door was kicked open already, but I didn’t think much of it. I just walked over to my usual spot, pulled out my headphones and began writing. I looked at what I had written,
-It’s not that I believe it, but that I want to try holding out because this is all that I can do, I want to remain, I want to dream more, even so, what I’m saying is, that it’s time to leave.-
I read it out loud, and sat my notebook down, and got up. I walked to the edge of the building, I'm not sure about any of this but this pain has been enough, I just couldn't handle this anymore. I sat on the edge letting my feet hang over. I thought about it, i just keep... ugh I'm too much of a coward doing it myself.
"Hey!" I heard a girl say. I looked back as she slowly walked up to me, "Hey, are you okay? Why are you sitting on the edge like that?" she asked, I didn't say anything to her I just looked back towards the ground below my feet. "Look, I don't think you want to do this, I'm sure whatever it is your going through, it'll get better, trust me." She said, I scoffed and chuckled.
"Get better? The one person I cared a lot about, cheated and broke up with me. My life is shit, and you a complete stranger, is telling me it's going to get better. How do you know it will?" I asked her. She sighed, and walked a little closer and stopped.
"I know because I was in the same position as you.” She said, I looked back at her, but I couldn’t see her face. “I wanted to take the fast ticket out of my hell, but when I woke up, I realized that I didn’t want to leave.” She said.
“I still don’t know or feel about this… I feel like I failed, I feel like nothing is right or nothing matters.
“Or that you can never fly?” I felt her hand touch my arm. “Please come down, we can talk.” She said to me.
“I can’t touch the sky” I said to her looking up at the sky, I felt ready.
“Just stretch your hand out and run... just a bit more.” She said, I looked back at her and
closed my eyes, I felt myself go forward, but at the same time felt a pair of arms wrap around from my back. “Have you ever really danced on the edge?” she said I looked down again towards the ground. “Is there something still scaring you?” I looked at her arms, and I could see faint dark scars. “Your count of three is up.” I realized this is it.
This was what I was looking for… A way out, but something pulled me back, this is my truth, and I’ll be covered in wounds, but it’s my fate, I still want to struggle and fight.
I raised and put my leg back on the safe side of the ledge. I held on to her as we crumbled to the ground. I usually never liked having to hug or hold onto a girl, especially when I don’t even know who she is. I heard her sigh and let go of me.
“I’m sorry, I just… I just didn’t want to see someone risk their life over something if they can’t overcome it.” She said looking away, I looked at her and seen her long black hair, cover her face.
“I’m Seokjin… you can call me Jin.” I said to her holding out my hand, she chuckled, and accepted my shake.
“I’m Reylin… You can call me Rey.” She said pulling her hair behind her ear. I had a good look and let me tell you this girl was beautiful.
“You’re American?” I asked her, she smiled and nodded.
“When I said I realized that I wanted to live, I decided to study abroad, I’ve lived here since I was nineteen.” She said, since she was.
“How old are you now? If you don’t mind me asking” I said. She smiled
“I’ll be 24 December 4th” She replied.
“Really? That’s my birthday too.” I replied smiling, she I nodded and smiled, then that’s when I realized something, I've seen this girl before,
“You live in this building right? I see you at the university.” I said she looked up at me and smiled.
“I do and yes, I'm glad you recognize me” she said laughing a bit.
We sat there laughing and talking, she was telling me what she wanted to do, as I told her my plans. I felt a connection to her that I never had with anyone, was it fate? As we talked she looked at the time on her phone.
“It's really late and I have class in like four hours” she said getting up. I got up with her and nodded. “Um well, I'll see you around… Jin” she said, I swear I could see her blushing. Before she walked away I grabbed her arm and pulled her back. She looked at me and blushed again.
“I think I'm starting to like you Rey” I said I mentally cursed at myself for rushing and not thinking before I said it. It was silent for a while so I figured she probably doesn't like me back.
“Jin, I think I like you too.” She replied. I smiled at her.
“Can I… may I have your number?” I asked, she nodded as I gave her my phone and typed in her number and texted herself. After she gave me my phone back she began to walk away.
I grabbed my stuff and walked to the door, and seen Namjoon walking down the hallway. I just went up to him and hugged him.
“What was that for?” He said I laughed.
“We'll be okay. I'll be okay.” I said to him.
“What did you do?” He asked. I looked at my phone as it vibrated.
“Um, my apartment is 124 if you ever want to hangout or uh… yea, I’ll just see you later okay.” She texted.
I must have smiled really big for Namjoon to ask who I was texting. I just looked at him and replied.
“A girl that I think I actually fell for.”
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