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J- The Pains of Our Yesterdays  C26- Change
So, after leaving on the previous little cliffhanger, I hope you're ready to see what happens next. To be fair, I can kind of understand Jin's perspective. I don't necessarily agree, but I can understand. Anyhow, on with the story.

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Disclaimer: Many of the characters aside from BTS are made up and BTS themselves are not BTS in this story. And, of course, I don't know the BTS boys personally so their personalities are probably mostly fictional.
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Beginning: Chapter 1
Warning: Contains mild language

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Narrator POV

Jimin took a deep breath and walked to her. He kneeled in front of her and rested one hand against the back of her head. He leaned in and kissed her. It started off gentle, but as they started to get lost in the moment, the kiss deepened and became more passionate. Jimin’s hand was now keeping her mouth firmly against his. They completely forgot about the others as they fell deeper into the kiss.

Suddenly, Jimin was yanked backwards. “That’s enough,” Jin growled, clearly upset and angry. Jimin quickly climbed to his feet and rushed out the door, slamming it behind him.

“Dammit,” SooJin swore under her breath. She threw a glare at her brother before running after Jimin.

“Nice job,” Taehyung shot at Jungkook.

Jungkook was about to retort back when Namjoon spoke up instead. “You’re an ass.” Jin turned to Namjoon and pointed to himself.

“Me?”

“Yeah, you.” Jin had no idea how much his actions made Namjoon feel like he was being stabbed straight through the heart.

“Wh—“

“Tell me you would’ve done the same if it were Hoseok instead.” Jin opened his mouth but then closed it, realizing he actually couldn’t argue. Of course, he would have been upset at having to watch anyone make out with his sister. But the fact that it was Jimin... “Tell me that it being Jimin had nothing to do with the intensity of your reaction.” Jin looked away guiltily. “That’s what I figured. You’re a hypocrite. You call Jimin your friend but it’s obvious what you think about him. Is that how you think of me too?”

“What? No, I don’t think—any one of you—I just—“

“She’s your sister, I know. But Jimin’s changed, I’m sure you had to have noticed. He changed, and it’s probably because of her. What if... What if they actually liked each other? What if they wanted to be together? And what if you’re keeping them from being happy?”


In the next room over, SooJin had caught up to Jimin. She held his face in her hands.

“I’m so sorry about that. I’m so sorry about my brother, Jimin.”

“I guess that’s exactly what I expected to happen,” Jimin responded, letting out a shaky breath. “He doesn’t even know yet and that’s...”

SooJin wiped his few tears of frustration with her thumbs. “I love you.”

Jimin let out a shaky breath. “I love you too.”

“No, Jimin,” she brought her lips to meet his, “I love you.” She kissed him gently, lovingly. Jimin lost himself in the feel of her soft lips against his. His fears seemed to wash away in the love she poured out. She broke the kiss but placed her forehead against his. “We can do this. We can get through this. Let’s... let’s tell them.”

Jimin leaned back to look her in the eyes. “But, after this...”

“This is exactly why we should tell them. I can’t stand for my brother to think that way about you. He needs to know that the feeling is mutual, that it’s not just you trying to force your feelings on me. If he knows, he’ll have to learn to accept it. I won’t give him the choice on it. And he’s your friend. He should trust you more. He should be happy for you.”

Jimin pulled her back into a brief kiss. “How did I get so lucky to find you? To finally have you?”

SooJin smiled. “I don’t know. I guess we were just destined to finally find happiness.” She grabbed his hand. “Come on. Let’s tell them.” Jimin nodded. SooJin opened the door to find Jin already on the other side. By the look on his face, she could tell he had heard at least some of it. The doors at their parents’ house weren’t soundproof like theirs.

Jin looked down to their hands clasped tightly together. “You two are...”

“Yes,” SooJin answered with confidence.

“H-How long?”

“One week,” Jimin answered.

“One week. Then...” Jin thought back to a week ago when the two had apparently made up. Jungkook had explained his awkwardness that morning by saying that when he went to wake Jimin up, Jimin had been sleeping naked and he saw it. Everyone had laughed then. But now... everything clicked for Jin. He grabbed Jimin by the collar and shoved him into the nearest wall. He was livid. “Did you sleep with my sister?!” he yelled.

“Hyung—“

“Just answer!”

SooJin grabbed her brother’s hands, trying to make him let go. “Oppa, let go of him. Jin!” When he didn’t, she blurted out, “I’m an adult. I can make my own decisions.” Jin’s grip faltered as he turned to her.

“What?” Jin asked quietly.

“We slept together. But he didn’t pressure me. Actually, he was the hesitant one.” Jin let go of Jimin.

“Hyung, I really love her. I swear. I’ll never hurt her.” Jin looked to him. Remembering what Namjoon had brought to his attention, he realized that Namjoon had called it right, but not exactly right.

Jin knew his sister was an adult and he would have been protective of her regardless of who she dated. But because it was Jimin, he was even more defensive. But it wasn’t quite for the reason Namjoon had suggested. The fact that it was Jimin wasn’t really the problem. The problem was that he was worried Jimin would hurt her. He trusted Jimin’s sincerity, but he didn’t trust his addiction. That’s what those women were, an addiction. He was afraid of Jimin falling back into that and hurting SooJin.

The second he realized that they had slept together, he was afraid that it was simply Jimin feeding his addiction. He was afraid that Jimin, even without meaning to, was taking advantage of SooJin. SooJin was so new to everything outside of the bubble she had been in, Jin was afraid that she wouldn’t have known how to respond. But if Jimin had been hesitant, if SooJin was the one to suggest it, then that changed at least part of it. But he was still afraid of what the future could hold.

“Oppa, I know what I’m doing,” SooJin insisted. “I know you’re worried.” She grabbed Jin’s hands. “But I promise, I know what I’m doing. We know what we’re doing. I know you don’t trust him—“

“I do trust him.” He turned to Jimin. “I trust you. You’re my friend. I trust you. I just... don’t trust that side of you. That habit, or addiction, or whatever you want to call it. I’ve seen the changes, I know you’ve been changing, I’m just worried about you slipping. You two sleeping together... I know you wouldn’t purposely take advantage. I was just worried that you did it without realizing...”

“I knew what I was doing, oppa. I told him I wanted to, not the other way around.”

“I will never hurt her again,” Jimin insisted. “I will never betray her. What I did before... I have SooJin now. Even if we hadn’t slept together, just deciding to finally be together would have been enough for me. She fills a hole I didn’t know I had, that I didn’t realize I was trying to fill with all those other women.” SooJin grabbed Jimin’s hand in one of hers. Now she held both his and Jin’s hand. Jimin turned to SooJin. “She’s all I need.”

SooJin smiled lovingly back at him and Jin looked back and forth between the two. Jin let out a small sigh. “Alright.”

The two looked at him. “What do you mean?”/ “What does that mean?”

“It means alright. I’ll accept it. It’s—It’s easy to see how much you two care for each other. And it is true that you’re both adults.”

The two looked at each other with wide smiles on their faces. SooJin threw her arms around her brother. “Thank you, oppa!”

“Thank you, hyung.”

“Don’t completely thank me yet. There are still some ground rules.” They looked to him with complete attention. “First, I don’t want to know about whatever you guys are doing at night. You don’t have to sneak around, but I just don’t want to have it shoved in my face.” Their faces turned pink. “Second, be careful and use protection.” Now both of their faces were red. “You both are still young and have a lot you want to do. Be careful that you don’t do anything that might complicate that.

“And third,” Jin directed this specifically at Jimin, “fair warning: if you ever hurt my sister, I will hurt you exponentially more. Understood?”

“Yes, hyung.”

There was a short pause. “Are you going to tell the others?”

“That’s what we were planning on.”

“We were just worried about how you would take it,” SooJin added.

“I guess I’m glad I heard it before you could tell all of us.”

“Yeah... it probably wouldn’t’ve gone over very well,” Jimin agreed, “obviously.”

“C’mon. Let’s head back before they start wondering if I’m trying to hide your body.” They walked back, Jin ahead of the two who walked hand in hand.

“I’m glad we can finally let people see us,” SooJin told Jimin.

“Me too. It kind of hurt keeping it a secret,” Jimin admitted.

“It did.”

When they reached the room, Jin opened the door for them and let them go in first. It fell silent when the others saw them holding hands.

“Are you guys... really...?” Namjoon asked with hope. If the two of them were together, it basically confirmed that he could have a real chance for an actual relationship. He might even have a chance with HyeMi.

Jimin nodded and held up their hands. “Yes, we are.” Taehyung looked to Hoseok, whose face was blank.

Jungkook let out a sigh of relief at no longer needing to keep it secret. JiEun looked at him. “Did you know?”

“Uuhhh...” he took another drink.

JiEun smacked him on the arm. “I can’t believe you kept it me from—from me.”

“We asked him to,” SooJin quickly explained. “We weren’t ready to tell everyone yet.”

“I guess that explains a lot of things,” Yoongi commented while looking completely unsurprised. The three people standing sat back down in their circle, this time with Jimin sitting next to SooJin.

Hoseok held up his glass with a small smile. “To happy beginnings.” Everyone stared at him in silence.

Taehyung raised up his glass as well. As much as he knew his cousin was hurting, he also knew that Hoseok would be happy in SooJin’s happiness and happy for his friend. “To happy beginnings.”

The others raised their glasses. “To happy beginnings.” The glasses were clinked together and then they all drank.

The games broke down after that, mostly because most of them were too drunk to continue. JiEun was the first to pass out. Jin, Yoongi, Jimin, and Namjoon were still talking when SooJin fell asleep.


Taehyung was the first up the next morning. He woke up Jimin and SooJin, who were sleeping cuddled together, first before Jimin’s hand movements could become... too much and potentially get him killed by Jin. Then they woke up the others. SooJin and Jimin sat and played with each other’s hands while they all talked. They were so excited to finally be open about their relationship. They talked for a while longer until Mr. and Mrs. Kim came to inform them that brunch was ready, along with medicine for any hangovers, whenever they were. The girls ran to their room to get changed and the guys got ready as well. They went down to the table as a group.

At the table, Jimin and SooJin couldn’t help exchanging looks and smiles. They didn’t realize how obvious they were until Mrs. Kim said something.

“Is there something going on between you two?”

The two looked at each other questioningly. They hadn’t even thought to discuss telling either of their parents. With a shy smile from SooJin, Jimin grabbed her hand and looked at her parents.

“Y-Yes ma’am. We, uh, we’ve been dating for—just for a week. We told the others last night.” Jimin was extremely worried. He knew that everyone around in their circle knew about his behavior. Even his parents stopped bothering with it a long time ago. It was one of the reasons why they had never tried to set him up for dates or engagements. Not only would Jimin not be interested, but all the people they knew didn’t like the idea of setting up their daughters with someone like him. He had been so worried about Jin finding out that he didn’t even think about SooJin’s parents finding out.

“Really?” Mr. Kim asked, leaning on his elbows.

Jimin swallowed hard and turned to SooJin. SooJin looked to her father. “Yes, really. We’re very much in love.”

It was quiet at the table. “Okay then,” he said, going back to his food.

“O-Okay?” Jimin tried to confirm.

“Yes,” Mr. Kim stated simply. “If my daughter is happy then I’m happy. Right, dear?”

Mrs. Kim smiled. “Of course.”

“You’re really okay with it?” Jin asked, also surprised at the ease of getting their approval.

“If you’re asking why we’re okay with it when everyone knows about Jimin’s behavior, it’s because we trust SooJin. She’s a smart girl. If she’s with him, if he’s with her, it’s because he’s changed. Right, Jimin?”

“Y-yes, ma’am. I won’t do that anymore. I love SooJin and I would never hurt her like that. I’ll never hurt her again.”

Mrs. Kim’s eyebrows raised at Jimin saying ‘again’, but she decided against saying anything. “The husband and I firmly believe that people can change given the right push, right, husband?”

“Yes, dear.”

“As a matter of fact, Mr. Kim was quite the ‘playboy’, as you kids call it, back in his day.”

“What?” Jin blurted incredulously. As far as he knew, his father was always a ‘straight and narrow’ kind of guy.

“It’s true,” Mr. Kim confirmed. “At least, it was, until I first saw your mother at a dinner party. She wouldn’t even give me the time of day. It took a year of proving I had changed until she finally agreed to go out with me. I never regretted changing and I never looked back. She was everything I could have wished for.”

“I... had no idea.”

“Yes, well, it wasn’t exactly something to be proud of.”

“But now,” Mrs. Kim added, “it can help encourage you and show you that you can change. And that’s why we can choose to trust you.”

“But with that, as her parents... Well, I trust that we don’t need to go through the whole ‘if you hurt my daughter’ speech?” Jimin and SooJin turned to Jin. “Well, I guess he’s warned you already anyway. That’s fine then.”

With laughter, everyone went back to their brunch. After brunch, everyone went back to their rooms to pack their things. They again thanked Mr. and Mrs. Kim for hosting the party and letting them sleepover and wished them goodbyes. Jimin and SooJin sat next to each other for the car ride back. Their fingers stayed laced together and SooJin leaned against Jimin. Jin looked back at them from the front seat. Jungkook was happy for his brother. After all their worries, everyone had accepted them. Their happiness was more than he could hope for for his brother.

When they got back to the house, most of them went to their rooms to unpack and shower. SooJin led Jimin to the music room instead. She sat him down in the chair she had so often sat in, wondering if her feelings for Jimin were worth the pain. She sat sideways on his lap and wrapped her arms around his neck, Jimin wrapping his around her waist.

“I spent a lot of time here after getting out of the hospital,” SooJin told him.

“It’s pretty. The leaves are such beautiful colors.”

“Yeah... I never saw how beautiful it was before.”

“Really? You’ve always seen the beauty in everything.”

“But I wasn’t looking at beauty when I sat here before. I was looking past it all, thinking about us. About you. About how the leaves were like our friendship, full of life when I first saw them and then dying slowly, falling to the ground. What was done could not be undone. That’s what I thought about fall. It was a time for things to start dying. And then the winter would come and freeze over everything, making sure it was all dead.”

Jimin held SooJin tighter. He would never be able to fully forgive himself for putting her through so much pain.

“But I was wrong. I could only see what my own darkness let me see. It wasn’t dying, it was just changing. The falling leaves hid the beauty of the plants still surviving the change. The winter doesn’t kill everything, it just provides the opportunity for everything to be reborn. And only when you feel the chill can you truly appreciate the warmth of spring and the heat of summer.

“Now that I’m looking out with a better state of mind, I can see the true beauty of it all. Now that I have you, I can feel the warmth of spring, even as the weather gets colder. Thank you, Jimin. For loving me. For letting me love you.” One hand on the side of his face, she kissed him chastely, and yet, conveying so much passion.

“I’m sorry,” Jimin confessed quietly. “I’m sorry for all the pain I put you through.”

“You did what you thought was best for me at the time. While I obviously don’t agree with it, it wasn’t done with malice. You were trying to protect me. And that woman” Jimin flinched “was your way of trying to force yourself to get over me. Or maybe it was your way of making sure you could never go back. Or maybe both. But either way, she left because you couldn’t bring yourself to do it. You couldn’t do it to yourself and you couldn’t do it to me.” She ran her fingers through his hair. “And now, it’s all in the past. It’s all over. There’s just us now. Just us. And that’s all I could want.”

“What could I have possibly done to deserve you?” Jimin pulled her into another kiss that lasted for a few minutes. Jimin broke the kiss, though he kept their lips separated only by millimeters. “I love you so much.”

“I love you too.”

“I do have a question, though.”

“What’s that?”

“Are you sure you’re not related to Namjoon-hyung? I mean really. You’ve got to be pretty close to his IQ and I know Jin-hyung, as much as I love the guy, is not.”

They both started laughing, when Jimin’s phone rang. “Always bad timing.” He checked his phone and looked at SooJin. “My parents are calling.”

“Oh.” SooJin stood up and Jimin pulled her back down.

“Stay.” He answered phone. “Hello? Fine. You? What do you mean? Kim SooJin?” SooJin looked at him questioningly and he shrugged his shoulders. “How did you know about her? We only just— What do you mean pictures?”

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Oh, the drama, lol. What do you think? Was it alright? I hope you enjoyed it.
There's only two more chapters and an epilogue after this so it's almost the end.

I'll try to post the next chapter on Saturday, but I, unfortunately, have a long trip again. If I can't get it done before I leave on Friday, I'll make sure I have it done on Sunday. Thanks for your guys' patience with me for this whole story. I love you all.

Thank you @Mavis2478 for the story.

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FAM WHY? OH I SWEAR IF HIS PARENTS ARE ALL LIKE "NOPE CAN'T BE WITH HER" AND HE GOES BACK TO BEING EMO JIMIN WHO IGNORES HER IMA FIND YOU! IMA FIND YOU AND SHOVE MY- I mean i love you :D
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I just keep thinking that baby makes 3. Jin would kill Jimin but it would be cute.
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