I believe that both are equally painful. Yes, you have your family but they end up dead and now you have the memories of them haunting you everyday of your life. But at least you have the memories of them loving you. Then to have not had a family at all never knowing if they gave you up because they didn't want you or always wandering if they had no choice but to give you up. Looking around and seeing others with there family and knowing you don't have that and you don't know what it feels like to have parental love. But at the same time if you had a family and they died you would have to deal with the pain for the rest of your life, and then to not have one you are already dealing with the pain of them being gone already. Both have equal pain. But one has more joy than the other. At least you had a family for whatever amount of time you had them, at least you knew they loved you.
Not really sure if that made much sense. It was hard to but into wards😅