Once upon a time, several months ago, I posted a card where I basically wrote a letter to someone who was hurting me. He was either ignorant or lacking empathy- or perhaps both. But no matter what he did I still wanted him, beyond what was good for me. That was in October. We finally cut things off at the end of October/beginning of November. I've never moved on. Every time I would see him my heart would still skip a beat and my thoughts would race a thousand miles an hour. It's not April. We got together again this weekend. So unhealthy. I don't know why I let him do this to me. It's my fault. I know that. I can't stay away and he doesn't understand the impact he has on me (he isn't exactly a lady-killer). Over and over, Caleb. Why can't I be strong enough to realize how bad you are for me?