hskswife
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once 11 || m.yoongi fanfic
find the chapters here! !!!TRIGGER WARNING!!!🚨🚨THE CONTENT BELOW HAS DETAILED DESCRIPTIONS OF SELF HARM PLEASE SKIP IF YOU ARE UNCOMFORTABLE WITH THIS🚨🚨🚨🚨 You bowed as you greeted your new coworkers. You watched as they all bowed back not a single person shining a smile at you. All you can see were their empty eyes. Almost as if though they had their souls sucked right out of them. "And this is your seat Ms. Byun." You looked at your manager bowing,"Uh yes thank you." She then left as you sat down on your chair. This was your new life now. No one can stop you or pull you out of it. No one. Not Nana. Not Baekhyun. And definitely not Yoongi and Chanyeol. -------------- You yawned as you looked at the amount of work still towering over you at your table. You then turned your head towards the clock. An hour left before break. You can still hear everyone typing away so you shook your head and cheered yourself up as you continued to type away at your work. Before you even knew it the clock had already struck 12 pm meaning it was break time. You stretched out of your chair as you clocked in for your break. You were hungry and needed battery so you went straight to a cafe nearby. "An ice caramel macchiato with extra caramel please. And also a grilled ham and cheese sandwich." The clerk nodded as she handed you a number. You bowed as you sat down near the window as you grabbed your phone from your bag. Your phone had been flooding with calls and messages from people you've worked with asking you why you quit so suddenly. And one from Baekhyun. But the two people you thought would be the first to ask didn't even leave an ounce of interest. You bit your lip as you called your brother,"Y/N! What the heck I told you to talk it out! Not quit! Now I feel awkward having this girl we don't know picking out my outfits. God what's wrong with you. Only caring about yourself." "Sorry Baek...I just I couldn't get myself to I was getting an--" "Excuses. God it's not that hard to start a conversation Y/N." You bit your tongue not wanting to say anything you'd regret so instead you conformed into his words,"You're right...I'm just being selfish. I'm sorry." You then hung up your phone. I'm sorry for being selfish. ------------- You looked at the clock and smiled happily as it struck 8pm. It was finally time for you to go home. You stretched and bowed to the seniors who had been kind enough to say goodbye. When you had gotten home you turned on the tv. "Yes we had made it official a couple weeks ago." The minute you turned it on those words had echoed out of Chanyeol's mouth and into the emptiness of the room. You had lost him. All because you bumped into Yoongi. All because you were jealous and had to tell him about it. You scoffed. "I regret not confronting one of them and now I regret confronting one. Good job Y/N. You fucked up all the good things in your life." You watched the interview and cried. There wasn't a single hint of regret or sadness in Chanyeol's eyes he was 100% over you. You sluggishly headed to the bathroom. You had filled the tub with warm water and prepared yourself for a bath. You looked at yourself in the mirror. At the corner of your eyes you saw there was a blade. A blade from one of your eyeliner pencil sharpeners. You remembered it breaking and asking Nana to throw it away but she never got around to it. You scoffed,"I guess she forgot to throw this away." You shook your head as you undressed. You flinched as the warmth of the bathtub soon filled your now naked body. You placed the lilac colored bath bomb into the water and lifelessly watched it unravel into tiny pieces and disappear. Much like your chaotic existence. The confrontation with Chanyeol being the drop of water needed to create that chain of reactions sending your whole life down a whirling shit hole. Loosing your boyfriend. Then your bestfriend. And now the trust and support of your loving older brother. Nothing was going right. Everyone was going against you. The anxiousness grew inside of you. The feeling of being alone took over your body. Being physically and mentally drained not by work but by you. You scoffed as you looked up the ceiling the blade once again catching your eye. You reached out for it and examined the shining blade. If I die now will the suffering end? You cried. Your cheeks wet from both the tears and the water but no one would know the difference. No one but yourself. You had gone numb and you wanted to feel something again. Anything. So you took the blade as you made one shallow slit going across your wrists. You cringed in pain as the blade made contact with your skin. The calming crimson color coming out from beneath. You were feeling something again you thought. You made another slit a little deeper this time. You cried out in greater pain as you placed your hands in the water. You flinched at the stinging on your wrists as the water made contact with the wounds. But relieved to see the ribbons of red forming in the water. The pain didn't matter anymore. Because at least now you were feeling something again. Even if it was pain. It was something. ------------------- ⚜ House Of Disquietude Taglist ⚜ Queens/Kings; @geekywriterabby @Bangtanss @AimeeH @Lexxcisco @SkyBlast @Jaerinn @hskswife @MelissaGarza @SaraDarWish Royalty Family; @AbbyRoscoe @SugaKookieV @LemonLassie @SimplyAwkward @KenyaMendoza @SarahHibbs @EmilyCayetano @twistedPuppy @sarahdarwish If you want to be tagged/untagged please go ahead and ask in the comments below. 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5 months agoΒ·Reply
Baekhyun your a dead mofo!!!πŸ˜‘πŸ˜‘πŸ˜‘
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@ecaldwell18 I KNOW RIGHT. If I were her I'd be like. Bitch you just afraid of bitchs, get over it. Chanyeol has and you know what I'm blaming you have fun walking home bitch!
5 months ago
Wow and he's your brother?! If you ask me he's the only on being selfish here! *smh* See guys are dogs! 😠
5 months agoΒ·Reply
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5 months agoΒ·Reply
Am i the only one who sees a relation to 13 reasons why? lol
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@AbbyRoscoe thanks i will put it on my list @namjoonxme πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚
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