Who: Reader x Kim Seokjin x Kim Taehyung
What: Fluff and Smut
Story: A nerdy girl with no real social skills is getting pursed by two of high school's most popular and handsome boys and some girls are not happy about it.
"Y/n you don't have to stop being one of us." Jimin said.
I gave him a soft smile.
"Look I know you guys said that once I'm one of you I'm in for life but right now I think things need to change for the sake of your friendship and my sanity." I said.
"What does that mean?" Taehyung asked.
"Look I'm not saying that I want to stop hanging out with you guys forever. Just take a break for a little while, afterwards if you'd still have me I can come be with you guys again." I said.
"Sounds like you're running away from something." Yoongi said.
I looked at Yoongi and shook my head.
"Not running away just getting some space."
"Are you breaking up with me too?" Taehyung asked.
I looked at him,
"No Tae. I still want to be with you. Look, something's are going on right now and I don't want to cause any trouble. Namjoon you must know what I'm getting at you understand a little bit don't you?" I asked him.
Namjoon looked at me for moment and there was a sadness in his eyes. It seemed like all the guys really ended up getting attached to me which made me feel even more special. I didn't have to go back to the nerdy girl that couldn't speak to people but I knew that Chanlee and Heejin were up to something. Giving them some space, would keep me out of their path until I could hopefully get into this new school. Not to mention, Jin would get some time away from me. I think it was because I ended up with Taehyung that my feelings didn't grow more for him because me and Jin were hanging out like normal. I didn't understand why he wouldn't tell me he liked me when I asked him.
I don't know what was going on in his mind but even he knew that kissing me was wrong. I just didn't want to be the reason that their friendship got messed up. To think that just because I came into the picture, I caused a rift between them made me want to disappear from their lives even more. I didn't want to destory them I wanted them to be together. They had been family for years surely they could over come this little difference but I still didn't want to be the reason there was tension in the room. Once Taehyung found out about the kiss he wouldn't want me near Jin anymore anyway.
I think that realization hurt me too. I think there was some stuff lingering inside me, that crush still exisiting within me without me realizing it. I thought I had shut off those feelings when Jin didn't return my feelings. It made it easier for me to be okay with exploring how I felt about Taehyung. I really liked Taehyung. It was too early to tell if I loved him but I liked him enough that I wanted to stay with him. Even when my heart was fluttering at the idea that Jin loved me.
That was everything I had ever hoped for. For Jin to notice me and return my feelings. He was the one to come and find me and help me out. He didn't sleep in the same room that night but he let me sleep in his big bed and his sheets smelled like him. His shirt was big on me, enough to make into a dress. Jin was a gentlemen and he loved having me over to play mario kart with him or cook with him. We'd talk about recipes and everything with each other.
I talked to Taehyung about the guys a lot. We talked about games and Tv shows and people at school. I was more open with Jin about my fascination with the stars than I was Taehyung but I was gaining a stronger connection with Jin as a friend while I deepend my relationship with Taehyung. I liked our silly banter with each other, sometimes calling him an ass when I could and he'd call me a nerd or a dork and a few times he called me an idiot.
For someone with a higher G.P.A and IQ, I could honestly say I was not the true idiot in this relationship.
I adored Taehyung but that kiss with Jin, I didn't really know what that meant in my heart. I didn't know if it meant that I still loved him or if I was just enjoying the kiss. When I thought like that, I wondered, was it the kiss between me and Taehyung that even made me be with him?That thought sent knots into my stomach. I loved being with him now but if it wasn't for that kiss I don't think we would've been together.
I think if Taehyung were the one to confess his feelings to me without having kissed me I would've at least told him that I had feelings for someone else. I don't know if I would've specifically said Jin but I know I would've told him I didn't feel the same. At the time I didn't, he was a friend. Which made all of this so hard for me, they were all my friends now. I didn't want to leave any of them.
Taehyung stood up and grabbed my wrist and pulled me down the hall and into his room. He closed the door behind him and turned to me upset.
"What is this all about? Tell me the truth." He said.
I looked to the other side of the room. This was the moment of truth, I would have to tell him what I did. I wasn't even sure what it meant. I just knew I had to tell him.
"Last night Jin saw a hickey on my neck that you left behind. I didn't even realize it was there but he asked me if we had slept together and I pretty much said yes. He was upset and he walked out of the house. I didn't know why he was mad and the guys wouldn't tell me so I went out looking for him. I found him at the park and we got to talking and-" I stopped myself.
This was getting a little hard to say. I was still putting Jin in a bad position. I knew I had to tell him but my body was shaking with the anticipation of it. I didn't want to tell Taehyung. I didn't want them to fight. I didn't want Taehyung to hate Jin. I didn't want Tae to ask me if it meant something because I didn't know. I didn't want to be asked questions or cause conflict. I wanted to disappear. I took in a deep breath.
"Jin told me that he was in love with me." I said.
Taehyung stared at me for a moment with pressed lips. He crossed his arms and leaned up against the wall. I felt tears starting to edge at my eyes. I didn't want to cry but there was a lot of emotions welling up inside me.
"And what did you say to him?" He asked.
I thought about it. Most of it was just asking why but that was after he kissed me. I was upset that he didn't tell me that before. I was upset that he had lied to me and was just now trying to confess when I had given him the chance to do it before. I was upset that he was mad at me for sleeping with my boyfriend, like I was just going to give him my virginity even though I was dating Taehyung. I didn't understand him. I didn't understand the method to his madness and there was just no formula or equation to break all of this down.
Relationships were new to me but on some level even I knew that things shouldn't be this difficult. Maybe I was making it difficult because I was always hanging around him. He probably needed some relief and that's why he needed to get away from me last night. Perhaps that kiss wouldn't have happened if I had just let him be and talked to him the next day. Maybe he wouldn't have told me the reason why and I wouldn't have been confused.
I think maybe I still would've pressed him to find out though.
I wasn't sure. I looked up at Taehyung and said,
"I asked him why he didn't tell me before."
"What did he say?"
"He didn't tell me when I asked him because he said that he knew I was looking for a reason to be with you."
"Is that true?" He asked.
"I don't know maybe. When you kissed me, things changed. You were my friend and then you were my friend kissing me and- I don't know."
"So how do you feel about Jin?"
"Jin is my friend that's all he can be. I like you Taehyung I want to be with you. I don't want to ruin things between us please believe me." I said coming closer to him.
"So is that why you're doing all of this, leaving Bangtan?"
I looked down and let out a short exhale.
"No, I'm doing this because I need to focus on my work. I've been applying to this science program at another school for a while now even before the mess with Baekhyun happened. When you guys brought me into your group, I stopped paying attention to it but I need to go back to it." I said.
"So you're not just leaving Bangtan you're leaving the school?" he asked.
"Yes. Look, Taehyung let's be honest that school has nothing there for me. There's no reason for me to stay anyway." I said.
"I am. We are. Bangtan loves you and you know that. That can't be the only reason you're leaving." he said.
"I love Bangtan Taehyung I really do but I was going to leave the school anyway. I just have a better opprotunity at this other school than here. You guys want to be idols, there's going to be a point in our lives where we're not together as often because you're working so hard as a trainee. If we can't make it because of different schools what makes you think we can make it when you become an idol huh?" I said.
That wasn't even how I felt but as I started to say that I started to wonder how right I was. This relationship with him might not last and it might have nothing to do with his reputation and everything to do with the fact that he would become an idol. I felt odd about that. Like our future together, no matter what, was doomed from the beginning. I mean people have said multiple times that Taehyung was bad for me but they were wrong. Taehyung and me were good together. I trusted him.
Still everything they were saying may have just been a bad omen. Eventually, something was going to break us apart.
"So you're trying to go to another school. You're leaving Bangtan and you say it's all to pursue your career right?" Taehyung said.
"See I would be more supportive of that if it didn't feel like you're just running away from us. Or at least from the fact that Jin said he was in love with you. If you don't want to be around him Y/n that's fine but don't hide behind your career as an excuse." He said.
"Taehyung it's not just that." I whinned.
My eyes were stinging with in coming tears.
"Jin and I kissed in the park." I admitted.
I don't even know how Taehyung felt but saying that out loud in front of him made my heart sink. I sat on his bed because I couldn't stand anymore. I felt terrible for saying it to him.
"He really kissed you. Like the way I kiss you?" He asked hurt.
"Yes." I said.
"Did you like it?" He asked.
I felt my face get red and I got really nervous. Oh man, I loved that kiss but I didn't want to tell him that. If this was reversed would he tell me the truth? Did my face already say it? Did my silence already say it? The overwhelming emotions took over and tears started to drop.
"Taehyung please." I cried.
"How many times did he kiss you?" He asked.
"Just once and I pushed him away." I said.
"Were you ever going to tell me?"
"Then why did I have to force it out of you Y/n?" Taehyung asked hurt but he also seemed annoyed.
That only made me cry more though.
"You don't understand I didn't want to cause a rift in your friendship." I said.
"Oh no you didn't do that, he did when he decided to kiss you. He obviously doesn't give a shit about our friendship."
I stood up to cup his face.
"Please don't say that. See this was why I didn't want to tell you. I knew I had to but I didn't want to because I knew it would start trouble. This is why I need to stay away from Bangtan. You guys were a family long before I showed up and I don't want to be the reason that you two get into a fight. I thought giving Jin some space would give him a chance to deal with his feelings." I said.
"What did his kiss do for you Y/n? Did you feel anything for him?" He asked.
"Taehyung please don't ask me that." I said.
"I need to know. Did you feel something for him?"
I backed away from him and walked over to his window. I didn't know what I could say to make this better. Why did he have to know? Why couldn't I just forget the kiss ever happened and we could just pretend everything was normal? We could move on from all of this and I continue with my plan. Taehyung sighed.
"Yeah maybe it's best you two stay away from each other then."
I wiped my eyes as more tears came down them. He walked over to me and hugged me. I was surprised by that but I hugged him back.
"Please don't hate Jin." I said.
"I don't hate him but right now I don't want anything to do with him. It was wrong of him to kiss you and that makes me angry. I just think it's best if we stay away from him." He said.
I looked up at him and he wiped more of my tears away.
"Are you going to forgive him?" I asked.
"I don't know. I mean betrayal by a brother is hard to forgive. You know that better than anyone." He said.
I looked at him with sad eyes. He was right and that's what Yoongi was trying to tell me that day. I had to be able to forgive everything that happened with Baekhyun in order to forgive the small things. It was hard to forgive a person after a huge betrayal but I was starting to understand it now. I think not forgiving Baekhyun set a precedent for the others.
"If I forgive Baekhyun you have to forgive Jin." I said.
He nodded and said,
He leaned down to kiss me and his lips took over mine. Having felt Jin's lips, they weren't the same. This kiss wasn't the same but Taehyung's was still sweet and comforting. My heart was twisiting in confusion. I was so wrong for feeling like this. I wanted to stay with Taehyung. I had to focus on him and school those were the only two things that mattered right now. Other wise I'd be in big trouble.
"You still have to go to the dance with us though. We got you a ticket so you have to at least show up for that." Taehyung said.
"Okay." I nodded.
He smiled and kissed me again. His sweet kiss became deeper and there was a sudden taste to it that wasn't so sweet anymore. It was hot. He kissed me harder and turned me in the other direction towards his bed...
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