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Broken: Chapter 6
*Jiyong... married? How.. Why*

"WHY WHY WHY"

I began bagging the steering wheel of my car. How is this possible? How could he? My heart just dropped. I parked the car into a parking lot of a park. I grabbed my sweater and left the car. I began to walk and the night was cold just like my heart.

*Jiyong, you have done it. You just destroyed me completely.*

I fall to my knees, I cant hold onto this. My chest is just ripping apart. Why must I love him this much? All these years all he done was put me down and down.

All of a sudden, the rain began to pour. I look up in the sky and just close my eyes. Memories began to pour as the rain hits my face.

Remembering his smiles and his laughter. His eyes looking at me and making me feel special. I miss those moments. I miss him holding onto me. Hugging me and making me feel safe. His touch and his kisses.

I look at my hands and just squeezed them tight. I had him, i had him in my hands. I kept him close to me and cherished him. Keeping him in my heart and soul. Now, now he is gone. He is gone, away from me and my heart.

I dont even know what happened. He just left. He just left me alone and now he end up marrying some other woman. How did I failed? His words just kept repeating in my mind. These memories I tried each day to forget but it haunts me every night.

-A Memory from Jos-


It's 9pm and Im just waitimg for Jiying to get home. He hasn't been back home since he left this morning to work. He promised we will go out tonight, but he wont pick up his phone.

I just know that he left to the bar, Im mad but Im more disappointed. He promised and nothing. He wont even calls me or anything. As time went by, he arrives the house. It was 2am and he was drunk. Very drunk.

"Hey babe, sorry about tonight. I got caught up with the boys"
"Ji, you promised. You promised me that tonight we was going out"
"Tomorrow night babe. Just im drunk. "
"Jiyong this is too much. You need to stop drinking so much. "
"Look you dont tell me what to do. "
"I aint. Im just worried about your health. You also have family here. The girls depends on you too"

Jiyong walks to the room and sits on the floor. I go inside and I just began to help him undress himself so he can sleep well. Then he kisses me.

"Im sorry babe."
"Its whatever Jiyong. Just go to sleep"
"Sleep with me"
"I will, soon. "

Jiyong goes to bed and I turn off the bedroom light. I stand next to him and just began to wonder, how life would be if Jiyong never drank. Then I lay next to him and he felt that I was next to him. He comes towards me and he just wrapped his arms around me.

I look at him and see him asleep. He looks so soft and beautiful. I brush his face with my fingers and then brush his hair back. He opens his eyes and he looks at me and smiles. A good night kiss was given and we end up sleeping.

-End Of Memory-

I smile and I know tears are just running down my cheeks, but I dont even know what is rain or tears.

I miss him.
Dearly.

I wish to have him back, back into my arms. But that's something I can't never have.

-A Memory-


"You fucking bitch. You aint shit and never wil be, you was never anythimg to me. All I liked about you is fucking you. Shit, not anymore. Your so fat that your aint even attractive anymore."

I looked at Jiyong and I couldnt believe the words he is saying to me. It was to harsh and painful. I looked at the ground.

"How can you say that Jiyong? You know I had the twins. Its obvious I will gain a couple pounds, but you male it sound like im some huge fat person. "
"To me you are Jos. I dont even know how I ended up with you"

I walked towards Ji, but all he did was push me down. Down to the floor.

"Thats how you are. A low life piece of shit, who aint worth shit"

-End Of Memory-


I sat down on the floor above the rain and just put my knees to my chest and place my head down. Those words, they still haunts me. What if I am a low life, a piece of shit and not worth it.? What if that's all true?

Then someone touched my shoulder. I quickly look up and it was Seungri. He never saw this way, and i know it broke him apart. He placed my head on his chest and all I can do cry loud.

*My Jiyong.. I miss you*
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3 comments
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3 months ago·Reply
fucking asshole why hurt her..... 😭😭
3 months ago·Reply
jiyong, just another piece of shit. (to her)
3 months ago·Reply
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