Pairing: Reader x ???
Length: 2444 words
Warning: Rated M, Foul Language, readerxidol
Summary: I was meant to keep you safe not to fall in love with you.
Yoongi was watching the door and then he saw her walk in with her bodyguards then just they split up. Then he saw Kookie back hug her, and guide her to the couch. Yoongi noticed they both started whispering. He wanted to talk to Moon but was too nervous and scared. He was scared his mind was right and she's been lying to him...this is the first girl he didn't want to lose but didn't know how she truly was.
He heard Jungkook say he was in the studio and he ran there and was ready to talk to her, but once he heard her knock he jumped into the recording booth. He sat at the bottom of the booth window so she wouldn't see him. He felt bad but was scared of himself.
Once she left he stood there and took out his stuff. No matter how much he needed to work it felt like something was missing. No not something someone. Moon. Yoongi was mad at her but...he didn't want to admit it but he does, he loves her. No one's ever made him more happy and speechless...but she's been lying to him….
The whole day he had ignored her at one point he saw her and he ran. He couldn't do it, he knew he had to but was too scared. Even when they needed to go prepare for their concert he showed up late. He hated that every time he looked in the mirror he saw her staring. But that didn't stop her she pulled him behind.
“Yoongi!” Her voice cracked, he couldn't tell if she was mad or upset. “Why have you been ignoring me?!”
“I don't know…” he thought for a minute if he doesn't do this he'll never know and she’s the one not being honest. Not him. She is! She's the one playing with MY heart. “Why have you been lying to me?”
Her face went pale. He knew it, he fucking knew it. Moon! You bitch! How dare you?! I fucking loved you!
“W-what? Yoongi I haven’t been-” you were cut off.
“Don't fucking lie to me Moon! Your stylist skills are too quick and you do the same thing to Jungkook every day.” You couldn't move you couldn't speak. “You've told me all these stories but the way you speak. What are you lying to me about Moon!”
“Please Yoongi let me-”
“Stop saying my name!” He yelled his face was getting red. Was he that mad…?
“I can explain ple-”
“Aish Moon I don't want you to explain I want the truth!” He stopped and looked at you. “Are you even a real stylist?!”
The one question you never wanted him to ask. The one thing you never wanted to answer in front of him. You couldn't move, you couldn't breath, you couldn't speak.
“Tell me god damnit!” You look down.
“No…” you couldn't see his face but you could tell he didn't want to hear it either. “Yoongi!”
“You were lying all this time.” His voice cracked. “You know I try so hard to keep the boys from people pretending around them.”
“I was not pretending!” You shouted.
“To think I really thought you were different!” You saw his eyes water up. “But you're just like everyone else. You wanna take us down some way. Tricks on me huh?”
“Stop!” He looked away. “...I can't handle you saying my name anymore…” he started to walk away but stopped you still couldn't move still, you couldn’t run to him you couldn't tell him you were doing this for Bts not yourself. “And moon…you were my new dream…” he ran off leaving you there.
That's when you felt it, you were crying. You've never cried even when you get injured on a mission you'd never cry, but Yoongi was different..why do I feel this way why am I letting this rip me apart.
“Yoongi…” you cried. “YOONGI!” You dropped to you knees. Then you remember you needed to listen to that song.
You ran out, thank god you had long hair and it was down to cover your face. Then he started and you were ready to die, you were ready for whoever was after bts to kill you right then and there.
“It sucks when you don't have anything you want to do I know it's pathetic to not have something as common as a dream, I know
"You said to do as I'm told, that it would all be fine when I go to university"
I'm the asshole for believing those words
I live because I can't die” he looked at you and you started again, crying.
“Give me some drinks I want to get drunk today
Please don't stop me
Anything will be fine,alcohol is a luxury for a bitch
I can't stand being sober Everyone else is running, why am I the only one here Everyone else is running, why am I the only one here Everyone else is running, why am I the only one here” he walked to the other side of the stage.
“So far away, if I have a dream
If I have a dream that flies away” Jin really had a voice.
“Don’t fall away, yea, if I have a dream
If I have a dream that flies away, oh, oh, oh” oh kookie.
“Dream, I will be there for your creation until the end of your life (Ouu-uu-u)Dream, wherever you might be, it will be lenient (Aa-ah-ahh)
Dream, you will fully bloom after all the hardships (Fully bloom)
Dream, though your beginnings may be humble, may the end be prosperous” Yoongi I'm sorry.
“Yeah, fuck, I live because I can't die
Nothing is more miserable and lonely than not having something you want to do
The only thing everyone around me says
Is to come to my senses
I try to vent out my anger but the only one here with me is me
So what’s the point of venting?
Every morning, it's terrifying to open my eyes,to breath” he looked at you and you could help it he looked so passionate. “Yoongi please” you cried.
“My friends, even my family are getting further away (Ay)
As time goes by, I'm becoming more impatient (Ay)
The feeling of being on my own
I am on my own right now, I want everything to disappear
I want it to disappear like a mirage
Want it to disappear
I want my damn self to disappear
Like this, the world throws me away (Ay)
In that moment I'm getting farther away from the sky
“So far away, if I have a dream
If I have a dream that flies away” Jin truly can sing.
“Don’t fall away, if I have a dream
If I have a dream that flies away, oh, oh, oh” You too kookie. I'm proud of all of you.
“Dream, (Oh, oh, oh) I will be there for your creation until the end of your life (Oh, oh, oh)
Dream, wherever you might be, it will be lenient (So far away)
Dream, you will fully bloom after all the hardships (Ahh-ah-ahhh-hm)
Dream, though your beginnings may be humble, may the end be prosperous”
“So far away, if I have a dream (So far away)
If I have a dream that flies away
Don’t fall away, if I have a dream
If I have a dream that flies away, oh, oh, oh”
“Dream, I will be there for your creation until the end of your life
Dream, wherever you might be, it will be lenient
Dream, you will fully bloom after all the hardships
Dream, though your beginnings may be humble, may the end be prosperous” Yoongi I'm sorry!
“I will be there for your creation until the end of your life (First love)
Wherever you might be, it will be lenient”
You will fully bloom after all the hardships
Though your beginnings may be humble, may the end be prosperous”
“So far away”
“So far away”
“So far away”
“So far away”
“So far away
Don’t fall away”
“So far away
Don’t fall away”
You let them finish and then ran to the bathroom and screamed. You couldn't help it. He was hurt and you could tell but you couldn't tell him. You couldn't fix him you couldn't run back and tell him how you felt because you didn't know how you felt.
You splashed yourself with some water and took a breath. When you looked in the mirror you could've screamed again. You needed to fix yourself before someone saw you. You ran back to the stylist room and fixed yourself luckily you and Jungkook have the same skin tone.
When the concert was over Jungkook was the one that came to hug you and lift you then dragged you out before anyone could come in.
“Y/n what happened?” He called you by your name and all you could do is hug him. He hugged back tightly. You couldn't cry, not now and not after you just finished fixing yourself.
“Come on Kookie.” You took a deep breath. “Let's go clean you up.”
You walked right past Yoongi not looking at him, him not looking at you. Nothing. But it felt like getting stabbed a million times in your heart. You finished up Kookie and instead of you just sitting there talking to Kookie you were cleaning the area way more.
You stood there late after everyone left and cleaned everyone else's station. Something just came over you. You couldn't help it. When you went home you started looking for more looks for Kookie but simple and tried them out on yourself.
At least you and him had the same skin tone. There were some and you were ready to try them on Jungkook and you saved them to your laptop. It was around 12:00 am and you decided to look for just a little longer. By the time you finished though it was 4:00 am and you took your papers make up and everything in your bag and ran to the studio for the girls to fix you up.
“You're here early, is this gonna be your time all week till their tour?” You best girl friend stylist asked.
“Haha yeah things have been crazy, oh did you get my message last night?” You asked.
“Ha you mean this morning?” You gave her a big fake smile. “Yes. Here these are the fastest ones I'd do on him. He's cute by the way. Isn't he around my age?”
“Yes and thanks.” You rolled your eyes. “Bye guys thanks again.
You left and made it to big hit at 4:30 am. You went straight to your station and started to prepare. After you pulled out your laptop and looked for more ideas. Not just for Kookie you could help out the other stylist. Jungkook came in with a frown but once he saw you his face lit up.
“Woah did you come in the back?” He said hugging you.
“Haha yeah…” you lied you couldn't have him scold you for being early.
“And early. So.” He sat you down. “What happened last night?”
“What are you talking about?” You asked knowing a little but he wasn't there?
“Last night. I saw you crying y/n you ran off after we performed.” Well shit.
“I uh...I was uh thinking about my um my mom.” You looked at him and his face was in shock.
“Your m-mom?” He stuttered. And you placed your hand on his shoulder.
“Jungkook my mom passed away when I was in middle school. Her mission didn't end after the woman was caught...it ended when she was on the operation table. The woman was caught but so was my mom.” You didn't cry then either. You knew what to do to make your mom proud.
“Oh my god y/n I'm so sorry. Our song was that touching.” He hugged you and you laughed.
“Very you and Jin have amazing voices really.” You pulled away. “Oh look at these looks I've been thinking of doing. You guys have an interview later today right?”
“Woah these are cool. Oh uh yeah we have it after lunch. You can really do these?” He asked looking at all of them.
“Yeah. Oh and I have some for the other guys stylists. It's actually really fun being a stylist. Haha” you gave Kookie some more papers.
“Woah I'd like to see that look on Hobi hyung.”
“Yeah I was thinking to have it similar to Jimin's because they did that intro dance.” You said showing the other paper.
“Woah-” we looked at the stylists coming in. “Well I'll let you go have ‘Moon’” he winked at you and you rolled your eyes.
“Hey guys um. I know I haven't been acting like a professional stylist SOO.” Because you're not one. “If you you guys wanna take a look I got some pretty cool ideas for the guys.” You gave them the papers.
“Woah I know some perfect outfit to fit with these looks.” Jin stylist said.
“Totally and these would look great on T. V.” Nam Joon's stylist was always obsessed with his make up.
“Yeah we should tries today, they could look really nice.”
“Woah really? Thanks guys.” You smiled.
“Totally this could be a really cool change. You can teach us too.” You could, you will.
You helped everyone even Yoongi stylist but you didn't look at him you just gave her the just of it. You couldn't look at him yet. Your heart still hurt and you didn't know why.
After they all went out to eat and you told them you had to go to your manager but didn't. You stood there and cleaned the other girls stations again. It'll get you in good with them and you. Even if you know one of them might be a cold hearted killer wanting Bangtang.
You stood there till around 10:30 pm and then got a call from Younge.
“Hey y/n I know you're on your own mission but one of our teams could use you. You not to tired to show up?” I haven't eaten anything all day...and didn't sleep last night…
“I'm on my way.”