Addixtion
3 months ago1,000+ Views
Hello... [Extremely Personal] [Long Post]
This shall still be BTS related.
Changes have been made since first posted.

I wasn't going to make this card, but then I thought about it... If I get judged, whatever, but if you actually enjoy it (doubt it), I thank you. ^^;

Please keep in mind that I am not doing this for attention at all. I am simply stating facts about my life because I feel comfortable with the feedback I've been getting in the community. Most of you who comment are extremely nice, and I've gotten nothing but positivity. So I trust that this card will be worth it...
It took a lot for me to make this, but I wanted to make something personal. I read the comments on my 'To ARMY's and Anti's' card, and that's when I really started thinking about this.

Because at this point, I honestly dont care who knows about my personal life. ^^ And if you don't care enough to know it, you dont have to read anything.

I've been on Vingle here for almost two years. In fact, I think sometime in November is going to be the two year mark. ^^;

I have been here for a while, and I've never actually introduced myself. I kind of just... showed up.

So allow me to, properly, introduce myself to you guys. ^^

Hello...

...my name is Mariah. :) (a.k.a Addixtion)

I am 14 years old, going into my sophomore year. My birthday is September 20, 02. I was born in Kentucky, and I, now, live in Ohio.

I dislike my birth mom (reasons which are too personal to even put in the card, she was 18 when she had me), I've never met my dad (I literally just found out his first name only months ago), and I live with my birth mom's dad's ex wife, who I have called 'Mom' since I was a baby. (sorry if its confusing, I dont wanna say grandpa)

I don't really know how to start with stuff like this, so I'm just gonna get straight to it.

My life sort of got... "real"... when I was in middle school. At 12, I was slightly "overweight", according to other people and my doctor, weighing at about 130-140(?) (I was like 5'0(?)). I was very, very insecure about my face and body.

If you know Jimin's story about his weight, mine is almost, if not, exactly like his.

I once got really sick, and at that time I had to go to the hospital for my nose while being sick. I felt so horrible, I didn't eat a full meal for about a week intentionally. Since then, I've eaten once or twice a day since I dont sleep normally. And it resulted in myself losing weight (I'm like 120 now...) and I've maintained this image for two years now.

Transformation at the end of the card.

↓↓↓ [WARNING: TRIGGERING] ↓↓↓


Edit: This may be cringe-worthy, but yes, I have gone through self harm issues... Starving, cutting, and this may not seem like self harm, but it kind of is; Stick N' Poke.
I won't explain in detail, but I will say it got to where I have permanent scars on both of my thighs... But I'm fine now! I haven't done it in so long! ^^
And yes, I have done the Stick N' Poke tattooing thing... I covered my arm in them to the point where it was numb and I felt like I was gonna puke... The only one that stayed, for several months now, is a semi colon on my forearm. (Suicide awareness symbol)
I dont know if I regret it or not... no one has noticed yet..

I'm completely fine now! So please no one worry if you are! ^^

I will say that Vingle, and you guys, are one of the reasons I'm even here to make this card at all. ^^ *tries not to cry while typing this I'm so sorry*

I once, when I was about 13, came across this app called 'Vingle'. I saw it had something to do with anime content. (I was very into anime at the time.)

I saw that the app involved communities, and the Japanese Anime Community was the first one I joined. I started posting quotes there. Quotes that are still being posted on a daily basis, but will be ending when the collection reaches 700 cards.

I slowly left the anime fandom... When I found something else I was interested in. A seven-member Korean boy band that I instantly fell in love with.

BTS...

These boys helped me get through many hard times... And they still do to this day... They helped me pick myself up when I was down. Made my day bright when it was dim. Turned my nightmares into dreams. And turned my frowns... Into smiles...

I was always active in the BTS community. And one day, I got a message from @PolarStarr ...

She told me that the team has been missing a member for a whole quarter. The rep for Jin.

She asked me how I felt about the eldest first, and apparently my answer was good enough, because afterwards, she asked if I wanted to join the team to fill in for Jin. It was already well known I stan Tae, but, of course, I said yes anyways.

Honestly, I was a little sad when I realized I was only gonna be a replacement, but that didnt affect my decision.

I was told to download a chatting app to go over themes and such. And I got it, for that reason only.

Talking in the chat and meeting the other team members, I was super nervous. "What if they don't like me?" "What if I'm not good enough?"

But all of them are extremely nice... They welcomed me with open arms, and I talk to them every day. I even found out I am the maknae of the group now. ^^

And I'm pretty close with @SkyBlast already... ❀

(Keep your head up fam, you got this. :) )

My life has changed for the better since I've gotten to know the members.

Both of BTS, and The Bangtan ARMY Team.

I have something to smile about everyday now. And I wouldn't trade any of it for anything.

It may seem pretty dumb to some people... But that's basically all I have to say...

Let me leave before this gets too long! ^^ Thank you to those who are reading this sentence, knowing you have read through. ^^

I don't expect anything great, like I said, I didnt make this for attention, only because I wanted to.

Thank you so much for being a part of my family... ❀

...And Goodbye.

Scroll past the tag list for my transformation.

Bangtan's ARMY Taglist:























BANGTAN’S ARMY TEAM TAGLIST:




Seventh Grade
Eighth Grade
Eighth Grade - Ninth Grade
Now...
Please respect my decision to post my transformation...
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This card is wonderful, thank you for sharing πŸ’™
3 months agoΒ·Reply
Thanks fam. ^^ I tried my best on it
3 months ago
We're here for you fam! 😊 Thanks for sharing your strength with us.
3 months agoΒ·Reply
Thank you Anthony! 😊
3 months ago
You're a gorgeous young woman and I'm glad to have you with us, regardless of what you've been through. I myself can relate to some of the stuff you've been through, so I kinda understand, but my situation ended somewhat differently which I'm happy for. BTS helped you through your struggles, you can say VIXX and EXO helped me through mine πŸ˜† Glad to have you here with us, and thanks for sharing 😊
3 months agoΒ·Reply
Thank you so much fam! It really means a lot! πŸ˜„
3 months ago
<3 πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ»
3 months agoΒ·Reply
this was so strong of you to share this!! im so glad you've found your little family now^^~ vingle and bts is the best fam there is haha
3 months agoΒ·Reply
Thank you so much! :D
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