Who: Chase Malone x Reader
Story: One happy night turns his life upside down. Business man, Chase Malone, must do everything he can to deal with loss, keep his business and bring back the woman he loves.
Y/n grabbed his hand knowing how he felt about Cody already. She pulled close to him so he'd wrap his arm around her.
"Let's go." She whispered.
Chase swallowed any hate he had for Cody and did as Y/n asked. As soon as they started moving though, Cody said,
Y/n kept pulling on him to keep walking.
"Y/n listen." Cody called after her.
Y/n's arm tightened around Chase to keep him from whipping around. Chase could hear Cody grumble but he didn't follow them.
He opened the door for Y/n and helped her get in. After putting the groceries in the car, he hoped in and drove off. She was silent during the drive like before. He was glad he hadn't started any trouble but he wondered what was on her mind as they were heading back. He was still better than Cody, no matter how bad he was now. He wondered how bad he was to her though, was she scared of his anger? Was she scared of him lashing out and getting put away? What was on her mind? He wanted to know what he could do to make her feel more secure.
They got into the house and he made her two sandwiches. From past experience, even when she said one would do, she'd want another. She silently ate in the kitchen while he walked over to Sammy's room door. He hadn't walked in since he packed Sammy's things in it. His life wasn't perfect, it was far from it but after all the things he lost, he was aware that he better be damn grateful of the things he still had. It took him a moment, he was fighting his hesitation but he knew he'd have to go in there and face him.
He just couldn't do it yet. He walked away from the door and came back to Y/n. She was picking apart her sandwich slowly and looked up at him as he walked back over to look at her.
"What are you thinking?" She asked.
"How can I be a better man for you?"
"What makes you think you're not a good man already?" She asked.
"You know I've changed since you got your memories back. I used to be strong enough for you but-"
"You don't need to try and save me Cha Cha. I just want you to make it to a place where you can acknowledge Sammy's death. It's never going to stop hurting but it can hurt less with time. I just need you to try and participate. Talk to me, deal with your nightmares."
"That's a hard thing for me to do Y/n. I've never lost so much in my life before."
"You haven't lost me. I'm still here. You have your friends, your home, your business, your life. You have a baby on the way. Yes you've lost a son, we both have but we can't let this tear us apart. We have to stay strong for each other. We've both lost something important but we have some very good things in our lives. I just need you to trust me as much as I trusted you."
He leaned over the island and grabbed her hand that was laying on the counter top.
"I trust you Y/n but the problem isn't with you."
"Then talk to me. I need to understand what the problem is." She said softly.
There was sympathy and understanding in her voice and even more in her eyes. It mixed with the sadness of not being able to recognize her husband, the man that saved her from Cody, the one who tried to destroy her. He walked around the island and his hand touched her stomach. She looked up at him and gave him a soft smile. Her hand came up to hold his face while her other one gently laid on the hand on her stomach. He leaned over and she pushed up to kiss his lips softly.
"Nothing is more important to me than you and this baby Y/n." he said.
"I know that." She whispered.
"But when I woke up in the hospital looking for you and Sammy- I felt like my entire world had crumbled down. I can fight someone stealing from my company, I can make good business decisions to save it; hell, I can even run through scenarios of the past five years of us together to get your memory back. I can fix all of that but-"
He looked Y/n in her eyes with tears brimming them. She looked at him thoughtfully, completely tuned in to hear him out.
"I can't fix this... I can't bring him back."
"Cha cha." She whispered.
"I was supposed to protect you both and I failed."
"No you didn't."
"We're never going to hear his first words or teach him how to ride a bike. He's never going to meet his little brother or sister, we'll never see him go to preschool or get married. He was just an infant not even a year old and he was just- wiped out of our lives."
She held his face and kissed him. Soft kisses soon turned to deep kisses and his hands held her waist.
"I remember when you were first pregnant- I remember being in the room when you gave birth. I cried with you when you held him. I cut the cord, I coached you through it. One little life has been wiped from our lives. I'm scared of moving on."
"That doesn't mean you didn't love him Chase,"
She laid his head down on her shoulder and started to brush his hair with her hand. He placed light kisses on her shoulder.
"I wish he was here, I wish he was with us." He said into her shoulder.
"I know. I do to... I love you Chase." She whispered.
"I love you too."
She raised his head so that he could look at her.
"You can't keep running from this. You have to deal with the pain otherwise it'll hurt more. It won't heal. You're a good man to me now but if you keep heading down this path you really will need to ask that question. And I don't want that."
He nodded and pecked her lips. He wanted her to have a healthy baby. He could only imagine holding their new child in his hands again. He dipped his head down to kiss her stomach. He had to protect this one with everything in him.
"You're not a failure Chase. You're my hero. But heroes can't save everyone, they can only try." She said.
"Maybe I should try harder."
"Loss makes humans stronger. I'm not okay with losing him Chase, don't ever think I am. Just because I hide the tears doesn't mean I'm not sad but we have a baby on the way. We have to try and heal the pain so that our next little one isn't ruined by it. " she said.
He nodded and kissed her forehead. He kissed in a line down her face, from the bridge of her nose all the way to her lips. He slipped his tongue passed her parted lips and kissed her deeper. He pulled her closer to him, he held her tighter like he'd never let her go. He picked her up and she wrapped her legs around his waist. He walked towards the bedroom and laid her down on the bed. He started to remove her clothes one by one and she followed suit until he was over her, inside her and making a mess of her all night.
You knew that Chase was having a rough time with opening up about how he felt about Sammy. You saw him go to Sammy's door the next morning, he looked like he was trying to work up the courage to walk in his room but he couldn't. You felt your heart sink seeing him being unable to go in. There was a big part of him trying not to break down but he was trying to do as you asked for your sake. He wanted to be a better man for you but you just wanted him to talk about what was going on with him.
You had to head into the office that morning after eating breakfast and you were working on your new clients paper work. You were getting back the original status you had before you lost your memory, you even had a new office. The thing was, you had to talk to your boss about maternity leave since you were two months pregnant. You had time to do it though and you could do everything else from home once it was finally time to go on leave so you weren't stressed about it. Your assistant buzzed you about someone coming in to see you and you told her to send them in while you were finishing organizing your papers. You looked up hearing the door open and then you saw,
"Cody?" You said.
"Sup." He said.
"What are you doing here?" You asked.
"Came to talk to you. You ignored me yesterday."
"After everything you've done to me, I have every right to ignore you." You told him.
"I heard about your kid."
"Don't. Don't you dare." You warned.
"I only want to offer my condolences. I know it must be hard losing a child, especially one you didn't get to know very well." He said.
You started feeling upset far more than you did before. You looked away from him. You could hear him walking towards you so you quickly turned around.
"Stop!" You warned.
"Y/n I'm not trying to start anything."
"Then why are you here Cody? You destroyed me, for months you did everything you could to break me and you did. I remember the day you came face to face with Cha Cha. How you told him I was worthless and that he'd want to get rid of me. You told him I was going hold him down and destroy him and I remember him punching you so hard in the face your nose broke."
"Not one of my greatest moments."
"Do you really have many?" struck back.
"That's not fair."
"Why are you here Cody?" You said getting a bit more impatient.
"I just- look I've grown up a lot over the past five years and after what happened to you guys- I don't know I just felt like I should try and make a mends." He said.
You sighed and calmed down. You didn't trust him but being this tense would hurt the baby you were sure.
"Look, thank you for trying but I really think you should go. Chase will be here soon to pick me up for lunch."
"You two actually do that?" he tried to stifle a laugh.
"He loves me and he enjoys spending time with me, so yes Cody, my husband actually goes out to lunch with me."
"Okay, Okay I get it. By the way, good luck on your next child." he nodded.
He turned to walk out of your office but you called after him. He stopped and looked back at you. You stared at him confused as to how he knew but you weren't sure if he was trying to trick you into revealing it or if he really knew you were pregnant.
"Come on, a lollipop and ham? It's not the first time I've been around a pregnant woman Y/n. Good for you for finding someone that could make you happy." he said.
"There's something ominous about your tone and I don't like it."
"Look I swear I didn't do anything and I don't want to do anything. I came here to apologize, it's a apart of my steps or whatever. Seeking forgiveness."
"You're in AA?" You asked confused.
"Yup, didn't you ever wonder where that downward spiral came from in our relationship? How we went from in love to me consistently hurting you until we ended things? You didn't see the alcohol, you just heard what I said to you. I destroyed you because I was destroying myself. I'd hate to see your husband do the same."
"Chase is nothing like you! Good for you Cody seriously, I'm happy that you're getting clean but what Chase is going through is so different from what happened between you and me. I will not lose my husband and I will not watch him self destruct the way that you did."
You voice gave away how agitated and angry you were. You felt a slight pain in the side of your stomach and you realized you were getting too worked up. Like your body was telling you to settle down before something happened. You sat down quickly and took a deep breath. That angry little out burst caused your body temprature to go up and now you had a headache. Cody walked back over to see if you were alright.
"I think you should go." You said.
"Yeah you better."
You looked up to see Chase standing in the door way of your office. He was looking at Cody angry but you could tell he was holding a lot back. He walked over ignoring Cody's presence to focus on you. He placed his hand on your stomach and kissed your cheek. You could hear him whisper softly in your ear,
You nodded and calmed down a little more. Chase looked up to see Cody still standing there.
"You should've left by now." Chase said in a warning tone.
Cody straightend up and looked at you. You looked up at him wanting him to leave without causing any more trouble. Just please don't let him mention Sammy or make Chase upset. He just nodded and walked out of the office. You sighed with relief that he left without starting anything and you wrapped your arms around Chase's neck. His hand ran up and down your back slowly and he kissed your cheek.
"You're okay right?" he asked.
"Yeah he didn't hurt me." You assured him.
"What about the baby? You were holding your stomach." he asked.
"The baby's fine. I just- need less stress." You said.
"Well let's start by getting you some lunch okay."
He pulled away from you to see your face and he gave you a smile. You smiled back at him feeling a sort of warmth from him that you hadn't really felt in a while. You weren't sure if anything had changed really but it was a subtle difference from how he'd been lately. He helped you up and walked you out so that you two could go to lunch....
Over the next several weeks, Chase tried to force himself to be more open to grief counseling with you. He was still mostly resistant in the beginning but he was getting closer to breaking through. Sammy's ghost was taking a toll on both of you. You tried not to let it weigh you down; you tried working on yourself while also being Chase's rock. Things at work were getting better and Chase was about to take his company back from Jay.
Gloria and Jay had become more serious with each other; although, at the moment they were going through some rough patches like before. The same reason they broke up last time: the distance. Gloria wasn't sure if she wanted to go to South Korea but most of Jay's business was in Korea, he was there on a Visa so he was spending more than half his life there and only a small percentage here. Having a boyfriend half way across the world was nearly impossible, Jay had proposed they move in together again but Gloria was still hesistant.
You partly understood, it was a new country where she didn't know the language, she didn't have any friends or family and Jay was her only connection. If things were to go bad and they broke up there she'd have to move back down to the states and find a new job. She was very hesitant on moving forward with him. When they were rekindling their romance, she had told him that she just wanted to keep it as a fling but as Jay often does, he got attached to her again and didn't want to be without her. If you didn't know Jay as well as you did, you'd think he was just the playboy type that didn't want the commitment. Deep down he had a softy side that was surprisingly romantic and the result was that he wanted more when it came to Gloria.
You had talked to her for weeks about it, knowing that she was just as in love with Jay as you were with Chase and if she didn't take the chance to lock him down he would eventually move on and find someone else. Although, you'd never seen Jay look at anyone that lovingly after Gloria. There was something about the way they were with each other that was sickeningly sweet. Though, you supposed the same had to go for you and Chase.
You were just scared of what Cody said, that Chase's pain would end up breaking you two apart. You already knew about those possiblities though and that's why you were trying so hard. That's why you were reaching out to him so that he'd deal with what he was feeling rather than push it down or push it away. Now you were five months, the days seemed to be moving faster and the closer the baby got to being born the more nervous you got about how Chase would act towards it.
You came out of your bedroom, as usual smelling breakfast in the kitchen but this time Chase wasn't in the kitchen. You walked up to the island to see if he had left a note or something but he hadn't. Aside from leaving you a plate of food, there was nothing of him in sight. You looked around and went down the hallway.
You saw Sammy's door open and you walked over to peek inside. You saw Chase looking around at the room, looking up at the ceiling. He was like in a trance it was like he didn't even know you were standing there. It was the first time he'd been in there since he packed everything you pulled out into the room. You stood there quietly watching, you saw him holding onto Sammy's pajamas and you felt your own silent tears building up.
"Sammy-- I'm so sorry Daddy couldn't protect you." he said.
You covered your mouth trying not to make a sound.
"I want you to know Daddy is never going to forget you-- but I have to take care of mommy and your little sibling. I hope you can understand son. You're always going to be in my heart but you're not here with us anymore. Mommy's here and your little brother or sister is almost here and they really need me to be there for them. I promise you I will not let anything happen to them. I'll do whatever is in my power to save them and make them happy.... I can't forget you but- I think it's time I let you go... I can't let you haunt me anymore."
Tears ran down your eyes as you watched Chase reach his final moment of closure. All the things he'd been battling with for months, now that he'd stopped battling the counselor and finally started listening to her adivce he was healing. Truly healing. Chase turned to see you standing at the door and saw your tears. You walked over to him quickly and gave him a hug. His hand cupped your cheek as he gave you a little kiss on the lips.
"Why are you crying?" he whispered.
"I'm just- I'm happy you could finally let go."
He nodded while his own silent tears ran over. He kissed you and then held you as best as he could.
"Come on, you need to eat up and then we need to go, you have an appointment with Dr.Shelly in an hour."
You nodded and headed into the kitchen to eat. He finished getting dressed and you followed suit after eating. Luckily the doctors office wasn't so far away and you two were only like three minutes late. You were finding out the sex of the baby. You actually hadn't been back to the doctors for a check up since you were two months and you ended up scheduling one because you felt something different about this pregnancy. Not only was your stomach bigger but the baby was kicking alot. A lot more than Sammy was. Right after you ate, there was just a lot of kicking going on but you could feel odd movement and it was seriously making your morning sickness worse.
Chase helped you up on the table and you laid back so that she could start the ultrasound. You both watched and you heard Dr. Shelly go,
It wasn't an alarming "oh" like you should be worried but more like a eureka momement. You looked at the ultrasound carefully and then looked at Cha Cha who was staring at it confused as well.
"Are there two heads?" You asked.
Dr. Shelly chuckled,
"Not just two heads sweety. Two bodies, I think it's safe to say all that over active kicking is because you're pregnant with twins. One is kicking and then the other is kicking so it feels like a lot more movement than usual." she smiled.
You looked at Chase and kind of chuckled in disbelief.
"Twins." You said to him.
He looked at you and smiled,
"We're having twins." he said.
"Would you like to know the sex?" She asked.
You both looked at her and nodded. She smiled and said,
"They're both girls."
You covered your mouth trying to keep from crying again.
"I told you it felt like a girl." you told Chase.
He laughed and kissed your forehead,
"You were right baby. We're going to have little girls."
You hugged him as best as you could while laying down. Dr.Shelly smiled and stood up to give you both a moment alone. He kissed you softly all over your face.
"I'm so proud of you. I'm so happy you're my wife." he whispered.
"I'm so happy you're my husband. I'm happy you're the father of my children. I'm happy you met me five years ago and you wouldn't let me go. I don't think I've ever been this happy before."
"Let me continue you to make you smile then."
He kissed you once again....
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