I've been debating all day on how to put my feelings into words. This literally hit my heart so hard. This year many of the artists that have impacted my life have taken their own lives. Chris Cornell, Chester Bennington, and now Jonghyun. Each amazing vocalists that have helped me lift my spirits up in some of my darkest hours.
I suffer from major depression and In my lifetime have attempted suicide 13 rimes to be exact. It is a constant battle. Yesterday Sunday Dec 17 was an especially hard day that I was again contemplating suicide to end my pain. Again I turned to music, prayer, and my support system.
Shinee was a band I thoroughly enjoyed listening to and watching. I've been a fan from their debut. I didn't have a bias of the group but Jonghyun was the member I always felt the deepest connection.
I loved every moment you shared with us fans Jonghyun. You did extremely well. My heart hurts for your family, for your friends, for shawols, but my heart is heavy that you lost the battle to pain but happy you are not suffering from the mental illness that is depression. Your music will continue to impact thousands of life's for many years to come.
Thank you for the time you graced this earth. The warmth, kindness, and loved you imparted on people will never fade. Your music will be heard and you will be remembered with fondness, and love.
everything about you was a gift, a treasure, and
You did extremely well, you worked extremely hard, and you gave us your all. Please rest in peace. take your wings and soar.
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