BrokenTheory
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Last night we fighted again. I came to realize that we both changed. He had never told me what he didn't like about me. He had just kept it inside until he lost interest in me. I had so many dreams about us, but now? Lol. It's hard to even think of how to behave in front of him now. He doesn't like what I do anymore. How do I behave to not worsen the situation anymore? I feel so tired. Why am I not living for myself? I've lost my value because of this love. :(
Even though you've changed a lot, never have I ever lost the love I have for you. I love you even more every single day. How about you? I tried so hard to satisfy you and what do I get in return? You can't accept me. :( I don't want to fight for this battle anymore. I can never be like someone you loved. I already told you from the very start that I could never replace her but you wanted to give it a try. And now? I am the one who gets hurt so badly. Please go back to her. I can't play the role of hers in your life. I just can't.
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