My Life Now

I have always thought Martina from Eat Your Kimchi was a darling person, and I was so inspired by this video even without a chronic illness. This applies so well to people (like me) who have or still battle depression or other mental struggles and I highly encourage you to watch this! Are any of you going through something like this? How do you deal with your darker days?

The true colors...

I suffer from depression. It sucks. It is like this obnoxious imp that constantly gets between me and whatever I desire. I wake up ready to take on the world, but this melancholy washes over me and wears me down. This growing, dark cloud wraps around me, slowly tightening like the coils of a giant serpent. As it blocks out more and more of the bright, beautiful world, it pushes me farther and farther from the cheery, passionate person I would much rather be. People ask me why I'm sad, what do I have to be sad about, why don't I just "snap out of it"? The problem is that I carry around a great deal of pain from trauma and I spend so much energy on pushing it down that when it springs back I just don't have the energy to contain it or keep it hidden anymore. And so, it trounces out like a once caged puppy and tangles itself all up in my life. It's like trying to shove a balloon into a box that's a bit too small. It's not like I haven't faced down the source of my depression, either. I've dealt with both my childhood trauma and more recent trauma. However, depression doesn't come from unresolved injury, depression is the scar left by trauma...the sudden flaring sensation long after the flames have died and the flesh has mended. And so, I struggle in this constant battle for control, with a foe that I know may never be entirely vanquished. Don't worry about me, though....I'll rise up, stronger than before.

it's safe

Hello fam! I can across this cool edit. These are not my own, but I wanted to share. @VeronicaArtino and I were having a conversation about " why we look up to BTS or what we have learned from them." These edits definitely sum up what I have learned from BTS. Honestly my key things are you are never too young to be wise. Love myself and loving myself is not selfish. Love those who support you and even your haters. You reap what you sow. If you plant seeds of success and water them with hard work and dedication you will get what you deserve. Focus on being the best version of myself, screw comparing myself to others. COMMENT BELOW WHAT YOU HAVE LEARNED FROM BTS! RM Fearless Leaders @Just2BLoved @BTSMicDrop @jeonraeyoo @VeronicaArtino @jungkookieeeee @natsiepatsie23 RM Protection Squad Taglist @natsiepatsie23 @LuvMyya16 @lrwc12 @Queenycrossgene @Yugykookie97 @SweetDuella @QueenPandaBunny @StephaniePoore @Starbell808 @lop0929 @BabydollBre @lrwc12 @LiyahBoon @DefSoul1994 Ride or Die Peeps Taglist @lisablinkarmy @SolYLuna @szewwy @koalabear @SweetDuella @DefSoul1994 @blessowmwago @Starbell808 @Jiminsnooder @SarahHibbs @Yugykookie97 @WinKonVIP @simpsonsamantha @lrwc12 @Gladys21 @hyunjinnie @VeronicaArtino @Shanai88 @Mochiroon @jungkookieeeee @Blackrose139 @cathysanchez157 @KittyCat1998 @Kail916 @pandaqueen7 @MelissaGarza Jimin's Mochis Taglist @MelissaGarza @BTSARMYBOI @LiyahBoon @lop0929@sleepingbeuty @BBxGD @beccajean180 @Yugykookie97 @QueenyCrossGene @DefSoul1994 @SweetDuella @Mochiroon @jiminsgirl16 @blessowmwago @Parkjimin235 @natsiepatsie23 @savgracee @LiyahBoon Jimin Squad Taglist @jiminsnooder @Just2BLoved @jeonraeyoo @blessowmwago @BTSMicDrop @VeronicaArtino @natsiepatsie23 @jungkookieeeee

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Hi! I'm new here so I wanted to tell you about me! I can rap in Korean Japanese Chinese Russian and English. My height is 4 feet 7 inches I am a Kpop fan of a lot of groups. My favorite song is The Real Slim Shady by enimen My fandom name is MeU. I am 9 years old. My birthday is February 22 2010 I can speak English Korean Chinese and Japanese. I am Amarican. I am very joyful. I love kind people. My fandom name is MeU. My real name is Candace. My nicknames are Jennie Jimin Candy Squish Irene tomboy2.0 devil baby. I am a tomboy. I want to model when I grow up or be a kpop idol. Have a nice day! Thank you for taking time to read this!❤

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https://www.vingle.net/posts/2530743 Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful! The words are simplistic in nature, yet they do an amazing job walking the reader through a journey to find oneself. That is the hardest journey, in my opinion: trying to connect the dots about yourself if you are suffering identity crisis. But the only other being that knows us like the back of our hand is God because we were created in His image and likeness. And with God, all things are possible, including self-awareness. Keep writing; you are very talented! AveryDanae345

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"I want you to imagine that each person is in a room with a canvas in the middle of that room.  Most people begin to paint unconsciously because it seems like the only thing to do.  Some of them begin to paint whatever gets them commission, but they do so with dread because it isn’t what they really want to paint.  Others, who call themselves spiritual, go through the motions of painting but dream endlessly about there being more to life than painting and obsess about what is outside of that room.  It is the rare person who begins to consciously paint on that canvas and paint what they truly desire to paint.  It is rare because most people have forgotten why they entered that room in the first place.  Most people have forgotten they are painters and the canvas is called life." #spiritual #positive #selfmotivation #september #virgo

#올해의키워드 인스타그램이 연말을 맞아 2018년 한 해 동안 가장 많이 검색된 국내 명소와 올해 트렌드를 이끈 화제의 해시태그를 공개했다. 수치 선정의 기준은 ‘해시태그’와 ‘위치 추가’. 국내 유저들에게 사랑받은 위치는 서울, 부산, 대구, 제주, 광주 순으로 트렌디한 지역은 크게 서울과 부산에서 많이 나타났다. 또한 서울은 이태원, 명동, 가로수길, 여의도 한강시민공원이, 부산은 광안리 해수욕장, 해운대 해수욕장과 다대포 해수욕장 등이 탑 10에 순위를 올렸다. 그렇다면 올해 가장 많이 검색된 키워드는 뭘까? 해시태그의 분류는 가장 인기 있는 카테고리인 패션을 비롯해 음식, 여행, 육아, 애완동물, 케이팝(K-POP), 총 6개 분야에서 각각 다섯 개씩 선정됐다. 특히 푸드 라인에서는 ‘먹방’이 인기 해시태그에 포함돼 맛집 강국의 면모를 확인할 수 있으며, 미국 캘리포니아에서 개최된 아이하트라디오 뮤직 어워드(iHeartRadio Music Awards) 시상식를 통해 ‘베스트 보이 밴드’와 ‘베스트 팬 아미’를 수상한 방탄소년단과 관련된 해시태그가 상승 곡선을 찍었다. 국내 유저의 경우 글로벌 평균 대비 하나의 게시물 당 해시태그를 2.9배 더 많이 사용하기 때문에 인기 해시태그를 살펴보는 것만으로도 커뮤니티의 관심사가 어디에 있었는지 살펴볼 수 있으니 세부적인 내용은 위에서 살펴보자. 더 자세한 내용은 <아이즈매거진> 링크에서

--Current recruitment for these Communities has closed. Please check your communities for notifications on the next recruitment period!-- Hello Vinglers! Three months ago, we welcomed our Pioneers who bravely took on the role of first President of their Communities. Now that their term has ended, these Communities will be open for applicants who want to take on the responsibility! The registration period for Presidential Candidates starts December 3 and will end on December 11. Current Presidents are allowed to re-apply for their spot, and new members of the Commuity are encouraged to apply as well! On December 12, your Community will have 1 week to vote. The results of the voting will be released in real time and anonymous of course! If only one person is running for President, they will become President without a vote. To apply: Click the link of the Community you want to apply for below and fill out the application - A.C.E AOMG Astro BAP BTS BamBam Bigflo CROSSGENE Chanyeol Cheerleading ChoiYoungJae Funny Got7 Infinite JJProject Jimin KimYugYeom Kpop MarkTuan NCT NU'EST OnePiece Pentagon Quotes Straykids SuperJunior T.O.P TRCNG TVXQ Travel WINNER iKON If the community you want to be President for is not on the list, visit the Community and see if you can apply to be Pioneer! For Communities with Pioneers that were appointed a bit after the very first round of Pioneers, a "President registration banner" will be posted automatically and notifications will be sent out to remind you that you can apply when their term ends :) Many, many thanks to the wonderful Pioneers that cared so much for their Communities as our very first Presidents! @galinda @caricakes @jazminramirez9 @kpopandkimchi @QueenPandaBunny @immortalartist @Starbell808 @Yugykookie97 @MelissaGarza @Luna1171 @MaeLyn @Sugakookiev @TaylorHill5 @DefSoul1994 @WinKonVIP @Akiramarie13 @QueenyCrossGene @Just2BLoved @BTSMicDrop @Twistedpdnim @HeonyStar @Awkwardjazzy @YulaGyeom @ESwee @Halsyeon @Changkyunie @Kangyoochans @royalpandajedi @SweetDuella @Baekyeol27 @MonstaHyungwonX @LiyahBoon @CLAKPOP @VeronicaArtino Good Luck!

Suho posted a pic of EXO standing in stage via someone else's camera. Looked like Chanyeol and Sehun had something to say about that... Google translate: @oohsehun "Sorry, you can not take this." The infamous photo of Sehun, supposedly showing his support for Seungri. I read he was lightly laughing... how do they know these things??? Lay's Updates have been slipping past me. The alerts are on but I get nothing.... Same with Sehuns and Baekhyuns....hmmmm... Okay EXO-List @QueenPandaBunny @Indiglow @JaxomB @Jessicalista @ynsamgwlk @MaritessSison @MelissaGarza @Namjoonsbutt @YasminChavez @luna1171 @Matty0204 @SHINee4ever @tinafalcon22 @StefaniTre @CrazyKitten EXO Community Council @MelissaGarza @Starbell808 @EXOahjummafan @Just2BLoved @MonstaHyungwonX