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Trauma Ch.5

Who: Reader x Kim Junmyeon
What: Angst, Romance, Smut
Story: You're just two trauma filled people trying to live normal lives... but trauma is a bitch

Y/N's POV

When you woke up in Junmyeon's room, you were a little disoriented. Your stomach was a little unsettled and at best you could remember Junmyeon bringing you back to his place. You remember having Lady sitting on your lap and drinking with Junmyeon for a little bit. The rest slipped off into darkness. You were completely clothed so you didn't really think you and Junmyeon did anything but you had the distinct feeling that something happened between you two. You just couldn't place your finger on it.

Then, Junmyeon admitted you had explained things to him. Of course you said something while you were drunk. You felt stupid. It wasn't until he said that his father tried to kill him that you stopped resisting. He told you he'd explain his side since you told your side. You were about to find out something so secret about Kim Junmyeon it was almost unnerving but it was your chance. You were finally going to be able to understand why he acted the way he did. Maybe it would explain why he treated you certain ways.

You agreed to hear him out. He gave you the chance to get yourself together first. You knew that just meant he didn't want to talk about it at his flat with Minseok and Jongin. You could understand that, besides your morning breath was annoying you and you needed to get Lady back to the house. You just hoped your father didn't randomly show up to talk about what happened last night. You didn't want to talk about it with him of all people.

After you got yourself dressed and your morning routine was done, you sent Junmyeon a text. He ended up meeting you close to fifteen minutes later and you both walked in silence for a moment. You wanted to ask him what the story was but you also didn't want to be rude. You couldn't remember if he asked you or not last night. You wouldn't put it past yourself to just start talking when you're in that state of mind. You didn't get seriously drunk often, you liked a nice buzz to relax you but last night you were embarrassed and hurt and you wanted to forget. So, that mission was accomplished. Junmyeon seemed like he was lost in his own train of thought and you partly wondered if that meant he no longer wanted to tell you what happened.

You both ended up at a cemetery; you stopped at the entrance when he walked in. He turned back around to see you staring at the graves to the side. He walked back over to you and held out his hand to you. You kind of felt like a child being offered a hand by a guardian. You took his hand anyway and he led you through the graves until you both stopped in front of one with that looked like an award from school more than a headstone. A rose that was wilted laid at the base. Junmyeon released your hand and walked up to the headstone and placed his hand on the top of it.

"Hey mom...I'm back." He said.

You looked at him hurt. You covered your mouth and let out a soft breath. His mother was dead. You could only imagine how it felt for him. Did he really understand what you went through as a child? Junmyeon looked back at you and said,

"My mother died-- was killed when I was seven years old and the man who did it was my own father."

You swallowed when he said that, it was scary to hear him say something like that happened to him when he was a child. It didn't seem to even slightly compare to what you went through. His seemed worse by a lot more.

"Did you see it happen?" You asked.

He shook his head,

"My dad was really frantic that morning. He was always kind of rough around the edges, he was a real disciplinarian but that morning I knew something was really wrong. When I tried to run to my mom, he took me out of the house and packed me up in the car."

He sighed heavy, like the weight of the events that took place where ready to cave in his chest. He sat down in front of the tombstone and leaned against it. You could see a hollowness in his dark brown eyes. Without the sun to illuminate them, they looked like black holes sucking in space. He almost looked like someone petrified and frozen in time by the fear. He continued his story with his eyes glued to the ground.

"He yelled at me a lot that morning, especially because I was whining for my mom, then he just got oddly calm and told me that we'd all be together soon."

There was a pause and his expression changed like he was questioning his father's actions right now. It was almost as if he was watching the whole memory play out and he was a ghost of the future making comments on the side lines. You partly wondered if he remembered he had you as an audience.

"He drove us to this place we used to vacation at and he sat me down to talk to me. He was calm then, it was a normal conversation between a father and son but I could tell he wasn't himself. So when he left to go to the car, I decided to wander off. I walked for miles, I wasn't sure how long but there were some cops that saw me walking alone and started asking me where my parents were. I told them that my mother was at home and I didn't want to go with my dad. So, they took me to my place and it turns out my dad didn't even lock the door. So I ran up to my mom's room and that's when I found her- laying there,"

"Junmyeon stop." You said.

Your heart was racing and tears had rolled down your face, you could hear the pain in his voice. He looked up at you and his eyes widened a little. You were sure he wasn't expecting you to be the one that cried. You knelt down to be on his eye level. He gave you a pained smile.

"You don't have to do this. You don't have to relive it." you said.

"Just listen... When they found my father, I was still with them. I didn't see him kill himself but I heard the gun shot. I saw his body hit the ground. My father's mental stability was so skewed he was planning to kill me too, the police were sure of it and then he probably would've killed himself. If I didn't run away I would be dead."

"My father won't do that." You denied.

"Y/N you've admitted he has bipolar disorder. I saw how he changed moods very quickly but I also know that he likes controlling you. I think he likes it because you look like your mother. It's his way of punishing her instead. He can control her by controlling you."

"I'm not my mother Junmyeon."

He touched your face tenderly, the brush of his finger tips on your face awakened your senses. He was close to your face, you felt your heartbeat trip over itself. It stopped and started again while he looked in your eyes. You saw something in his eyes you never thought you would've seen coming from him.

"You're not your mother but I'm very scared that your father doesn't always know that. When his moods change, I don't think he can tell that the person he's trying to hurt isn't his ex wife and I am terrified that he'll end up doing to you what my father did to my mother."

You were terrified of your father but you never had the nerve to keep him away. You acted more like him than you wanted to admit. When someone left you, you erased everything that connected you to them. You erased them from your life the way you erased Heechul from yours. You were even going to push Siwon and Ryeowook out because of what happened. You erased people and memories and that was exactly what your father did when your mother left. You were angry that your mother left you behind with him and she never gave you a reason why.

"I come and talk to a stone as a way to feel closer to my mother. Are you going to make me talk to you that way too?"

You smiled through some tears trying to change the mood.

"You'd talk to me in death? I didn't know you cared."

"Neither did I." He said seriously, "but I do and I know what that helplessness feels like. I saw how scared you were last night. I saw how hurt you were. My grandparents helped me with my PTSD and the fact that Minseok isn't trying to convince you to stay away from him pisses me off."

"He's tried, I just don't listen."

"Then listen now Y/N. Don't let him hurt you anymore. Just because he's blood doesn't mean you have to endure it."

You shook your head. You wanted to break away from him, you had for years but he was your father. He was all you had, if you pushed him away maybe he would die like he said. Maybe it would make things worse and he'd show up at your place and kill you like Junmyeon had feared and maybe you got to go on with your life, maybe you'd be free of him but then you'd have no one left. You were more afraid to be alone than you were of dying and even as you thought that, you knew deep down it was illogical.

You stood up and pulled Junmyeon up with you. You wiped your eyes and Junmyeon wrapped his arms around you to pull you into an embrace. You were surprised by it but you relaxed in his arms and heard the pounding of his heart. It sounded like it was running away. You looked up at him and he looked down at you. Your eyes locked and there was a moment you felt you may swoon just from the look in his eyes. The cemetery was still and the world followed with it. Junmyeon placed his hand on your cheek again, caressing it sweetly. His eyes started to follow the path his thumb took to feel your cheek. He bent his head an inch as if he were about to do something but stopped himself. Your eyes looked at his lips for a moment before they looked back at his eyes. You took in a shaky breath and pulled away from him.

You pulled hair behind your ear as you cleared your throat,

"Um, I will- I will try and...do what you said."

Junmyeon cleared his throat and threw hands in his pockets. The moment had become awkward so suddenly. Junmyeon started to lead you out of the cemetery and decided to talk about something else.

"So why was the cat at our place last night?"

"My dad would've made a big deal about it. If I could pay for a cat then I could pay for my tuition too."

"Oh."

He sounded like he realized he made a mistake by asking that question because it all came back to your father's treatment of you. You were still shaken by Junmyeon's story and there was so much you wanted to ask him but you saw how hurt he was when he was talking about it. You couldn't fathom how much it hurt for him to tell you that story.

"The funny thing is, I never bought the cat. My boyfriend at the time bought her for me."

"Really? A whole animal he must've really loved you. I can't imagine why you two broke up."

You chuckled,

"He cheated on me."

"Why is that funny?" He smiled oddly at you.

"Because your comment sounded really sarcastic."

He laughed with you and it seemed like the tension between you two had finally lifted. You both walked in silence for a little while without much of a destination in mind. You considered talking about your project but your project was about depression it didn't make sense to start a topic like that after everything that had been discussed.

"So, I know it's probably not something either of us wants to talk about right now but I just have to know," you stopped in front of him,

"Now that we know these things about each other...Where do we go from here?"

Junmyeon looked like he didn't really know what to say. You were in the same boat but things were different now. He knew something about you that only Minseok knew and you knew something about him you were sure no one else close to him knew. How did it get to this? The two of you couldn't get along often, you competed to see who was smarter than the other and you were both... empathizing with each other.

"Well you know something about me and I know something about you, now we've got leverage over each other."

"I'm being serious Junmyeon."

"Serious? Okay- seriously speaking, I think we should take the time to understand each other and watch what we say. You only annoy me some of the time but I know that some of the things I've done to piss you off on purpose could've really triggered you. I know better now."

"I can handle that." You said.

He grinned like he was about to say something but he didn't. There was nothing much left to say so you two stopped by a diner to get lunch and then went your separate ways. The conversation between you two was relaxed, it was the first time you two were around each other for a long period of time and neither one of you fought. Although, the competitive nature between you two didn't disappear you both found ways to compete in a healthy way. Junmyeon had to leave for his night shift which left you going back home.

The silence of home, even with Lady running about, was no longer comforting though. Your mind jumped back to your father pushing you down and hitting you in front of company. Junmyeon never would've seen it happen if he hadn't shown up or if your father didn't invite him in....or if you hadn't mentioned your mother.

You laid down on the couch, you knew full well you had homework but you didn't want to move from where you were. Saying you'd run away from your father was one thing but doing it was another. You couldn't help but think about how brave Junmyeon was for leaving his father and trying to make his way back home to his mother. He was only seven, you were ten and couldn't manage the idea of leaving your dad. You were older and couldn't manage it now.

Your phone rang and the collar idea read "Father". You didn't want to answer it, you shouldn't have but-you did. You placed the phone to your ear but didn't say anything for a second. You almost thought to hang up but you finally mustered the ability to say,

"Hello."

"Y/N."

It sounded like he was crying on the other end. These calls were too routine, you knew everything that would be said and what would end up happening. It was the same story with the same predictable ending. You really wanted to listen to Junmyeon and cut him off but you didn't know how without the big fall out. You felt as if you were damned if you do and damned if you don't because either way, your father knew where you lived and he wouldn't let up.

"Please don't hate me ttal, I'm sorry." He whined.

The sound of his crying was almost sickening to you.

"I don't hate you papa." You said softly.

You just hated that he hit you. You hated that he scared you and manipulated you. You hated that Junmyeon might be right, even if your father might not mean to kill you, it's possible he might kill you on accident. You heard him cry and say,

"Please forgive your papa. I'm so sorry."

"It's okay papa."

Your tone said that you weren't interested. You'd seen him cry before. You knew how bad his disorder got when he didn't take his meds. If you asked him about it he'd lash out again. You didn't want to deal with that. You didn't really want to care. You were sure you didn't but you wanted to avoid more trouble.

"Is your friend going to tell the police what I've done? I'll never be able to see you again. You won't come and visit me." He said.

"Papa, nothing is going to happen to you....Papa,"

You wanted to say it, to tell him you needed some space. Your hand shook a little as you thought it. You didn't want to make him angry but that was the issue. You didn't want to do anything to alter his mood any more than it already was. You wondered how long it would be before he was overly happy again. Those were the days you tried to make yourself remember when your father lost his temper. When he took you and Minseok out for ice cream and he held your hand, you two were actually smiling and having fun. His highs always followed with lows that were painful for you to endure. It seemed worse when he didn't take his medication.

"Y/N? Are you there honey?" He asked.

You came back to reality and said,

"Um, Papa you should schedule a doctor's appointment to get a stronger medication."

"I'm fine, I was just angry. I don't need medication."

He still sounded distraught but he wasn't angry. You didn't want to push him even harder. What were you supposed to do? You sat on the phone with him in silence for a while before you made up an excuse that you had to get your school work done. You had work in the morning and class right afterwards so you didn't have time to linger on the phone any longer. He let you go, apologizing again and telling you he loved you. You hesitated when he said that and he called your name to see if you were still on the other end.

"I love you too papa." You said.

"Good. You're a good girl."

You could imagine a faint smile forming on his face. It was a sad pathetic smile that didn't mean much. You wondered if you had always felt this way about your father. It would make sense if you did, that deep down somewhere inside of you, you really dispised him but because he was all the family you had, you convinced yourself to push it down. Even after you hung up the phone, you kept thinking about what Junmyeon said to you. The fact that his father would've really killed him was terrifying and it was even scarier that he was only seven when it happened. It made you think about the real possibility that maybe one day your father's temper would get out of hand. You had to ask yourself the question, was that the real reason behind why you were so terrified of your father.

Deep down, were you always afraid he may kill you?

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You whipped around stalking up towards her, your eyes burned with tears threatening to spill over but even more anger and hatred towards her spilled out. "Explain what? Explain how all this time you were a twenty five minute train ride away? Explain why you didn't call or visit? Explain why you never said a fucking word and just walked out on me! I was your own flesh and blood and you abandoned me to a wolf!" Junmyeon stood up and grabbed you; he held you tightly to him. Your chest heaved up and down and you willed all your emotion to stay down, to just wait until she couldn't see how much your heart was breaking. As angry as you were with your mother, deep down you wanted to forgive her. You wanted her to have a good reason why she disappeared, one worth accepting so that as you lost your father you gained your mother. When the trees bloomed in spring, she would take you to the park, you two would walk around and she'd ask you what you saw in the park. You watched clouds together and visited the Han river at night. When it snowed, she would have a snowball fight with you and drink hot chocolate with you under blankets while you all watched movies. Your early life was filled with childhood memories you clung to because they were beautiful and distant. They seemed untouchable but it was all you ever desired. You lived with hope you'd have your family back one day and when that hope died you just wanted your father to love you. All you ever wanted was someone to love you and it felt like your cat might've been the only one truly did. You calmed down and pulled away from Junmyeon but when you looked up at him you realized something...he cared about you. You two slept together but it wasn't just sex, if it was, why would he do all of this: comfort you and go with you to visit your estranged mother. Someone that wasn't invested wouldn't do this. Yet, you were afraid that you weren't capable of a healthy love; you didn't really know what that was. You were subservient to Heechul, was that why he cheated? You held your own secrets from him, you kept him locked out but you were at his beck and call. Minseok was always your friend, staying close to you, making sure you were alright but there was never anything romantic between you two. You didn't really understand what it meant to be in love. You looked back at your mother, calm now and Junmyeon had you sit back down. "I left because I felt guilty for Haejin's death. In the midst of our affair, her husband started to suspect that she was cheating with another man. She was afraid of his temper but she also loved you," she looked to Junmyeon. He didn't look like he wanted to hear much about his mother. Perhaps she read that on his face because she looked back to you. "Haejin thought it was best if we just went back to our normal lives. We had families we had to end it. Haejin wanted to get back home early that night but I begged her to stay a little longer. We slept together and then she left. That was the last time I saw her." She said. "They had a fight the night before she died." Junmyeon said putting pieces together. "I think he became so convinced about her affair that he tried to drag the truth out of her. It's possible she confessed to the affair or even confessed she was sleeping with a woman but if I didn't ask her to stay- if I hadn't coaxed her into staying later she might still be alive. The guilt ate away at me for three years, I was living with my own family and hers had fallen apart. I couldn't live with myself, I needed a new start so I decided to leave, I didn't tell your father because he would've chased me. I knew how much he loved me he would've fought for me but that only meant I would break his heart more in the process because I didn't love him." "So why didn't you take me?" "Because you were a reminder of the life I was trying to leave behind. You tied me to your father and I had to cut the tether to escape. But, the pain of my sins are like heavy weights forcing me to the ground." "You can't take the blame for other people's actions." you said annoyed. "Isn't that what you're doing to me? Blaming me for what your father has done." "No I'm blaming you for the choices you made. You knew dad was bipolar so you knew the risks of leaving him abruptly. You didn't love him yet everyday you pretended you did, you broke his heart. As my mother, you were responsible for protecting me and you didn't. I don't blame you for the abuse, he's the one that hit me but I do blame you for starting the chain of events that led to it. Your actions were reckless and you never once stopped to consider who you were affecting in the process you didn't care. Out of all the decisions you made, I blame you the most for not choosing me." You said. "I did choose you. I thought you were safe with your father." "You thought I was safe with the mentally ill man that you knew wasn't even responsible enough for taking his own medication. I remember that mom, you counting his pills and crushing them in his drinks. You assumed everything would be fine, you hoped it would be fine so he could assume the role that you no longer wanted. If that was the case you should've never had me in the first place.... You chose your grief over your own daughter. For ten years, I adored you as much as I adored papa, I moved in you. For nine months, your womb was my home and even that connection wasn't enough for you to pick me. What your responsible for is robbing me of a decent childhood by leaving me with a man with a mental illness. That's what I blame you for and your refusal to recognize that what you did was more destructive than how you could've handled it is what's going to keep us from ever being together. I thought papa was the only family I had left... Now it's clear to me I really have no one." You and Junmyeon stood up and you headed for the door. You reached the front only to look back and see Junmyeon handing Seol the picture of his mother. He found out a lot too which meant you both needed time to process. You and Junmyeon went back to Seoul in silence; you both held hands and leaned on each other for comfort on the train. Junmyeon saw you home even though his place was closer to the train station. You both stood at your front door in silence for a moment. Junmyeon couldn't bring himself to look at you. You gave a bitter laugh and said, "Don't tell me you're blaming me too." He looked up at you like he had come out of a daze. "What? What would I blame you for?" He asked. "For being that women's daughter. She had just as much of a hand in destroying your family as she did mine and I look like her-" He kissed you, his movement to your lips was swift, he cupped your face between his thumb and forefinger and his lips were soft against yours. When he pulled away you looked at him almost like a puppy. "I'm not your father Y/N. I'm not like him at all. There's just a lot we found out today. I need- we both need to sort through what we learned." You agreed but you partly wondered if he was already pulling away from you. You walked into the house but you noticed as soon as you unlocked the door he was already walking away. A part of you regretted asking him to come along. You thought about everything that happened though, you were just as guilty of pulling away from him as well. You two were doing this dance of getting close and pulling away. So many things from your past made it complicated to keep a proper relationship. When you were with Heechul, hiding your past and your father's abuse was easy. It was something that you had done all your life. Junmyeon was aware of everything, being this open with someone that wasn't Minseok was new. Your fear that he was with you because he knew your trauma had subsided and was replaced with the fear that he didn't want to be with you because you were your mother's daughter. He said that he wasn't anything like your father but you felt him moving space between you two. .... You were at Cheong Jin Ok, despite not having a hangover you ordered the hangover cure anyway. You spun a coin on the table while you waited. Only three days had passed since you and Junmyeon discovered so much about your mothers and it was still hard to process everything. You weren't bothered by the fact that she was in love with Haejin; what bothered you was that they had an affair. They could've just left their husbands. Though, you started to wonder how well that would've gone for Haejin. It sounded as though Junmyeon's father had exhibited abusive behavior long before he killed his mother. It made some sense, he didn't just go mad and kill her because she had an affair unless he was already the type to get dangerously aggressive. He did this when Junmyeon was seven, you wondered just how much of his father's abuse he remembered. You wondered if he ever even saw it. You were lost in your own thoughts when someone sat down in front of you. It took you a moment to realize it but you looked up to see Heechul smiling at you. For a moment, it reminded you of when you two first met. He had that glow about him, all kinds of charisma but there was a slight reminder of your father in him. The way you felt like you could never make him happy. That you were never really enough to begin with. You wondered if he ever loved you, you were...infatuated with him. Maybe it was the same for him, but what made him captivated with you? "Boo." He said with a soft smile. "Boo." "What are you doing here alone? Couldn't find a date?" Heechul was always a little too harsh. He may have meant it as a joke but it pierced through you a little. "Didn't really want one." you answered. The waiter stopped by and placed your hangover cure in front of you. The waiter asked Heechul if he was ready to order and he informed him he wasn't getting anything, much to your relief. You half expected him to try and turn this into an awkward kind of date. "You don't look like you need a hangover cure." he said. "I don't but at the same time I do." "Where's that guy that's always attached to you. Junmyeon, right?" "I don't know probably at home or hanging out with the guys.... He's not always attached to m-you think he's always attached to me?" Heechul chuckled, he rested his chin in his hand as he looked at you. "He was there everyday while you were in the hospital. Right by your bed side; he was pissed off I even showed up to see you." "You came to see me?" Your voice projected more hope and happiness than you meant it to. It was a given the Junmyeon by your side at the hospital; you figured he wanted to make sure you were safe because of everything that happened. He was the first one you saw when you woke up, he even kissed you. Heechul coming to see you in the hospital meant something to you, the feeling of not being wanted felt a little less heavier than before. That rose a question in you that you never thought to ask before, "Why did you even go out with me?" You asked. His eyebrows rose like he wanted to know where that question came from but then he sank his chin down in his hand and puffed up his cheek. You could tell he was thinking but for a moment his eyes wandered off and you wondered if he was ever going to answer your question. Normally, you wouldn't even talk to him, any one that hurt you, you kicked them out of your life. Although, your most recent revelation that you did the same thing your father did when your mother left made you realize you were following the same path. You still had your reservations when it came to Heechul but you were trying to resolve your problems not create more. Part of that resolution was facing them. "You're really cute." Heechul said. He wasn't even looking at you when he said it. He finally turned to look at you though and you just blinked at him. You could feel a blush rising up once again reminding you of when you two first met. He smiled at your look and said, "You've got big eyes and a really pretty smile. You've got this gravitational pull about you that makes it hard to not want to get close." "But you never got close." "I tried- you wouldn't let me. Minseok was your go to person and that was annoying to me because you were a different person with him, he knew secrets that as your boyfriend I think I should've known. Or at least you could've trusted me with. The more you kept me out the more frustrating it was." "Is that why you cheated?" He got quiet for a moment. Neither one of you talked about it. You never talked about your relationship the way you should've. No wonder it never worked out between you. If he hadn't hit you back, you might've forgave him, you might've gone back to him if he said he wanted you. Instead, you tried pushing everyone out. Siwon and Ryeowook were hard to push out though, when you saw Siwon again you couldn't push him away. It felt too good to know that he was really your friend. You never really seemed to lack friends in your life, you were lucky enough for that. So was it completely impossible for you to "fall in love?" "I cheated because I wasn't satisfied by you." You felt like he just threw a rock at your head. Even though you were offended by that, you did consider that the only reason you ever slept with him most times was because he wanted to have sex. "Next time just take a knife and stab me in the chest, it would hurt a lot less." You said sarcastically. He laughed, "Look, I didn't mean it to hurt your feelings but the truth is that you weren't connected with me. You were always somewhere else. It didn't even seem like you enjoyed it so I felt like I was just screwing a doll." "Geeze do you have to describe it like that?" You both laughed together and it seemed to be a good genuine moment that would lead to some healing. You still needed time but Heechul might not be so bad to hang around again. You enjoyed your time with him at the bar. As you two talked, he made some comments that annoyed you and ones that made you laugh but it reminded you a lot of the initial bliss when you two first hooked up. "Why did you come here alone anyway?" He asked suddenly. "Umm. I just kinda wandered in." You said. Heechul had followed you out of the restaurant and was walking with you down the street. "More secrets huh?" He teased. "It's the truth. I was just walking around lost in thought and my stomach started grumbling so I walked in to eat. What were you doing in there alone?" "I wasn't in there to begin with, I just saw you in there and decided to annoy you." "What's up with you guys always wanting to annoy me?" You smiled. Heechul pushed his finger into your cheek making you laugh. He claimed it was fun seeing your different expressions. He liked your eyes, your father liked them too. That's why he loved your mother, her eyes were expressive and large. He used to describe them like large black holes pulling you in against your will. It was the one advantage you had to never being alone. It didn't seem like either of you had a destination but you stayed together for the majority of the day, even as the clouds began to roll in. You forgot about what it was like dating him, this seemed like a newer experience to you, although, deep down you missed Junmyeon. His radio silence was disturbing and your trial with your father was coming up soon. "So what's up with you and that guy anyway? He ask you out yet?" Heechul asked. "Why do you want to know?" "Just wondering is all. It's obvious he's in love with you." You chuckled, "What?" "Oh I forgot it's obvious to everyone but you." You stopped in your tracks. You grabbed his hand to stop him and looked at him curiously. "Did he tell you that?" You asked. Heechul laughed, "He didn't have to it's obvious. Not to mention he hates when I come around. I have a sneaking suspicion it has more to do with the fact that I'm your ex rather than that I hit you. Which, I suppose I never apologized for." He took your hand in his and kissed the back of it before he cupped your cheek with the other hand. "I'm truly sorry for hurting you, not just physically but emotionally as well. I'm an asshole but you know this by now." He said. You burst out laughing and swatted his hand away from your cheek. "You really are an ass, but I suppose I can forgive you just this once. Just don't go taking advantage of my kindness." "As an asshole I can't promise that." You rolled your eyes but he laughed at you. You two started walking again but you brought up what he said before. "So you really believe he's in love with me?" You said. "You know if you were an anime character you'd have little sparkles in your eyes right now." "Heechul." "Yes, he likes you. He's in love with you, in an annoying capacity actually. From what I've heard you two already slept together, if that was all he wanted from you then he wouldn't have gone through all the trouble he went through " That may have been true but you wondered if he still felt the same after everything he had learned. You hadn't attempted to call him because you wanted to give him time. You thanked Heechul and gave him a hug before running off but you heard him asking you what he did to be thanked for. You headed to Minseok's place hoping to find Junmyeon there. You knocked on the door and Jongin answered. He welcomed you in. "Is Junmyeon here?" You asked. He shrugged, "I don't know I just woke up. Let's see." Jongin knocked on the Junmyeon's door with you standing behind him. Junmyeon opened the door just enough to poke his head out. He was shirtless which seemed like the norm for him when he was home and in his room. When he saw you, his eyes got wide though, "Y/N what are you doing here?" He asked. "I wanted to talk to you. Can I come in?" Junmyeon looked back in his room and then back at you making you feel like he was hiding something. You stepped up to the door, "Junmyeon is someone in the room with you," "Uh-" You put your hand on the door and looked at him. You heard a snicker from behind the door and adrenaline rushed through you. You looked at Junmyeon hoping he'd tell you the truth but you doubted it. "Listen, it's really not what you think." "Then open the door. Show me it's not what I think." He looked almost hopeless and he sighed defeated. He let his hand down so he could stop guarding the door. He opened it more for you to see Seohyun sitting on his bed. You stepped in looking at her disappointed. Was heartbreak all you'd ever know in this world? Was nothing kind to you? You looked to Junmyeon with tears brimming, "Then what is this, Junmyeon?" "We were just talking." He said "In your room, with the door shut and no shirt on? She's your ex isn't she?" "Calm down Y/N-" You raised your hand to stop Seohyun from talking. You were locking eyes with Junmyeon even as you said to her, "I wasn't talking to you." Junmyeon looked down at his feet. Was he playing you all this time? A thousand different things ran in your head but the first thing that came out of your mouth was, "Did you sleep with her?" He looked guilty which made you feel like throwing up. You hurried out of the house, Junmyeon called after you. You felt the first soft drops of rain coming down, rain you weren't expecting even though the soft gray clouds had taken over the sun. You heard Junmyeon calling after you and you hurried, running down the street but he was faster. He caught onto your arm and turned you around so you could look at him. The rain was pouring now, it picked up so quickly, you both were drenched, hair sticking to your faces. "Let me go!" you yelled. "Y/N listen to me." "No!" You cried. You banged your fist on his chest crying, "I hate you. Why did you make me believe you cared about me? Why did you do this?" "I do care about you. Y/n I got drunk last night. I don't even remember how I got home let alone if me and Segun slept together." "Why did you get drunk? Why did you look so guilty?" "Because I knew how it looked. I don't know if me and Seohyun did anything and to be honest I highly doubt we did. I got drunk because I couldn't process all of this information about my mother-" "You do hate me for looking like that woman don't you?" You tried to pull away from him but his grip was firm on your shoulders. He cupped your face, "Y/N I don't hate you. None of what happened was your fault. You're not your mother I know that." "But I look like her, that's all you'll ever see. The woman that destroyed your family." You looked him in the eyes. Your vision blurred a little and you tried to wipe your eyes clear. You felt like someone was ripping your heart out. "Y/N, I'm in love with you." Junmyeon confessed. "How can you mean that? How am I supposed to believe you, when ever I get vulnerable around you, anytime I'm ready to take a risk she shows up. " "You're the only one I want." "How do you know?" He crashed his lips onto yours kissing you hard and feverishly. Your lips molded with his as he deepened the kiss so much it was like he was trying to become one with you. His hands came to your neck then your waist pulling you into his body so that the idea of space didn't even exist. The taste of his lips, the fever of his kiss, he burned himself into your flesh and awakened a Phoenix fire like never before. Your heart jumped, skipped and leapt. It fluttered and wailed and every tear you cried out of sadness became happier. Happier than you had ever been before. "I don't want to live without you." He said against your lips. You looked him in the eyes. His thumbs wiped away tears. His white shirt was soaking and sticking to him showing the lines of his chest and abs. Your hands touched his chest, they memorized the muscles as if it would be the last time you'd ever touch them. "Then stay with me. Don't see her, don't let her near you." You begged. He kissed you once more, softly, letting his lips linger on yours. His tongue slow waltzing in your mouth. He breathed you in, and despite how cold the rain was making you, the heat of his kiss kept you warm on the inside. "Do you love me?" He asked. His eyes were half closed, he kept your face close to his, his hands still cradling your face. You looked at him with dewy eyes, and smiled. "I do... I'm in love with you, I always have been." He was overcome with happiness and scooped you up in one more deep kiss. You broke it to pull away and took his hand. You ran with him to your apartment, pouring rain and all.... Boss Squad: @royalpandajedi @Fromblue2u @Queenpandabunny @marrickej33 @BBxGD @Starbell808 @MelissaGarza @liyahboon Fans: @elishafisher @JaxomB @EXOahjummafan @StefaniTre @Yugykookie97 @dalenalw
Beating Heart Ch.2 {Yoongi FF}
Here is the second Chapter. ♡ Yoongi has definitely stolen the first spot in BTS. My plot was odd. NGL, I'm horrible sometimes for plots. I changed it. Title: Beating Heart Genre: Small Romance and Angst. Pairing: Raquel [OC] x Yoongi Plot: Raquel never thought her and Yoongi were meant for each other, by the way they bickered back-and-forth. One day, after extenuating circumstances take place, she decides to leave the town behind to start over. She believes that it'll be easier for Yoongi if she exits his life. ⊱ ──────ஓ๑♡๑ஓ ────── ⊰ Ch. 2 She woke up to the smell of breakfast. Getting dressed, she made her way to the kitchen. It felt like old times. Raquel helped make it, as they discussed what the day would entail. “Raquel, you don't regret coming home do you?” “Not at all grams. I'll adjust again. What time are we going to the restaurant?” “Momentarily, I want to feed you first.” “Sounds good.” They finished up breakfast as they made their way to the business. It had been a little over a month or more since she came home. She missed everyone already, but her fate was to be back. “Raquel, if your friends want to come visit you, they can. I don't want you to feel secluded.” “It’s okay, I didn’t have many friends. I annoyed more people than anything.” “I'm sure that's not the case.” Raquel smiled thinking about her few friends, Yoongi especially. She never knew she’d miss him this much. She hoped that he’d be at ease since she wasn’t around him. About this time, Yoongi would be sleepily walking around in his apartment. Approaching the restaurant, a few workers were setting up tables. When they walked in, the workers stopped. “This is my granddaughter, she will be joining us.” Everyone gave Raquel a warm welcome, she looked over at the table she carved into when she was a little girl. “You still kept the table?” “Your grandfather always told us that if we got rid of that, he’d get rid of us.” She laughed at the thought of him throwing everyone away for touching the table. Raquel missed the restaurant, spending so many days there when she was younger. It became a second home to her. Every bit of the fragrances hitting her senses, sparked up the many memories she experienced. All the good and bad memories: her first heartbreak, the betrayal and regrets of past friendships that wilted away. The restaurant opened as people shuffled in. Raquel was busy serving the food with the other waitress. They both were knowledgeable and quick on their feet. The rush of customers filled the restaurant. People loved the food, that was no surprise. Her grandmother was passionate about her cooking, it showed in the quality of the food. Raquel finished serving the last table, noticing her uncle and cousin walk in; making her grandmother pause. He didn’t even acknowledge Raquel. She approached the three as he slammed a packet of papers on the table. Her interest was even more piqued. “When are you going to sign mom?” “Never. I have no reason to sell my restaurant. Not then, especially not now. Your dad would be disappointed in your behavior.” “What? You think you can run it by yourself?” “Not by myself, I have Raquel.” Her uncle turned to her, “You expect a child to help you? I know dad dying was hard, but you're becoming delusional.” “I'm not a child,” she stepped closer to the table, “I spent my childhood here, I know the ins and outs of this place. I can help her.” “You’re not even related. You’re just adopted, so you have no say Raquel.” The entire restaurant was silenced by her grandmother’s hand connecting with his face. “You will not talk to her like that. She is more family than you. After you grew up, you forgot simple life morals and ethics. I will not have you disrespect Raquel.” He was above being angry. She never struck him before. It infuriated him that she took Raquel’s side. “It’s okay gram.” “It is not, he will not talk to you like that. Get out and take this contract with you!” She threw the files in his face, pointing at the door. Both guys left defeated as Raquel locked the door behind them. Approaching her grandmother, she sat down. “They want me to get rid of this place. Your grandfather fought him tooth and nail. Son being stubborn, the jerk, he won’t take no for an answer.” “The restaurant isn’t going bankrupt is it?” “Lord no child, we’re set for life. I just am not ready to see it go and turned into something that isn’t beneficial to our small community. With the city being miles away, we offer good food at good prices. People of all walks are welcome here. We also help farmers by buying fresh produce and ingredients. Your uncle doesn’t understand that.” “I hope he will, for your sake Grams.” “Even if he doesn’t, I don’t care. This restaurant will stay open. If you don’t take it, then manager Choi will.” Raquel stood over her grandmother as she calmed her down. The workers were quiet, feeling strange from the conversation. She hadn’t met manager Choi yet, but hoped that he would be kind. Two silhouettes were hanging outside the door. This caught. Raquel’s attention. She figured it was her uncle and cousin trying to start more strife with her grandmother. “You two really have no couth! Didn’t she tell you to leave the first time!” Hoseok and Yoongi grinned at their sharp tonged friend. They missed her. “Hey dodo, who put you in a tizzy?” “Yoo-Yoongi? Hoseok? What are you doing here?” “We miss you, a lot. We wanted to come visit.” “But what about your schooling?” “Did you forget we get breaks every semester?” She was happy inside. Hoseok always knew when she was down or upset. Almost like he had an alarm that went off anytime she needed him. Yoongi, on the other hand, she was unsure why he came. He was the last person she thought she’d see standing in her grandmother’s restaurant. “Come in, sorry about that. My self-righteous relatives just left. I thought you two were them.” “We heard, they pulled up before we did, but we didn’t want to meddle.” “Raque, dear, who are these young men?” “This is Hoseok, and Yoongi. They are friends from my old school.” Her grandmother bowed as they waved, “Please sit, you boys must be hungry coming all this way out here.” They sat at the table while Raquel served them. “How’s Seo-Ah?” Hoseok looked away. Something happened that made him uncomfortable with the mentioning of her name. “They broke up. Seo-Ah wasn’t the girl he thought she was.” “Hoseok,” she placed her hand on his, “I’m sorry to hear that.” “It’s okay. I guess it’s better this way. Plus I can come see you with no backlash.” “Did you get bored with not having anyone to mess with, Yoongi?” “A few different reasons; that being one yes.” She did miss his crass after all. Raquel gave them a tour of the restaurant as her grandmother finished the bookkeeping for the night. “You gentleman can stay with us.” “Thank you for your generous offer ma’am.” The four closed up shop making their way back to Raquel’s new home. There was plenty space for them to stay. Her grandmother didn’t want Raquel to feel alone, so seeing her friends, made her less worried about that. Raquel showed them to their rooms. “Raquel, you’re grandmother’s house is huge for just you two. Why have you lived in a tiny apartment all of this time?” “It's not my money to spend. I want going to have them pay a lot for just me. Anyways, you guys sleep well. You’ve had a long journey here.” She made a detour to her grandfather’s hobby room. Raquel wanted to avoid it, but she couldn't. They spent time together in this room. The memories flooded her mind as she sat in his chair. It was a harsh reality that he would never make another one with her. Raquel curled up crying. She heard the door creak open, as someone appeared with a blanket in hand. He slid between the chair and Raquel, wrapping her up. She couldn't tell who it was by all the tears, but his embrace was warm. He allowed her to cry as he just comforted her; running his hands through her hair. “I know nothing I say will make this better, but I'm here for you. Cry if you need too. That’s why I came.” The guy embraced her all night. His touch was strong, but tender. Warm and protective; even generous. These were the kinds of hugs that you would only receive if you were truly lucky. She had been hugged before, but this was a different force. Not once did she open her eyes, it simply hurt to do so. It was just nice to feel a warm embrace. It was entrancing. ⊱ ──────ஓ๑♡๑ஓ ────── ⊰ Tagging my Normal Readers: @MelissaGarza @QueenPandaBunny Just one more Chapter left. ♡ If you would like to be added to the Taglist please let me know. This will be for my other ffs I throw out there as well.
BTS From Nobodies To Legends!🙌🏻💜😭
Hello ARMY!🤗 I came across this video on YouTube! I thought I would share it with you all! 💜 ❤️ 💜 https://youtu.be/SrI4AvkABm4 Not gonna lie towards the end I started to tear up. BTS started as nobody. They didn’t have a lot of fans. Not a lot of people knew them! But look at them now! They are selling out stadiums with over 70,000 fans attending!🙌🏻🔥 They are dominating the world! They have accomplished so much! And I am proud to call myself an ARMY!💜 I will always be here cheering them on no matter what!💜 *credit to the owner of the gif, video & pic* ❤BANGTAN ARMY TEAM❤: @Yugykookie97 @Mochiroon @QueenPandaBunny @MelissaGarza @kpopfan88 ❤ARMY TAGLIST❤: @amandamuska  @blessowmwago @BoyGroupKpop @Bxbybri @CleafeMaeObina @coolwolf13 @dalenalw @echoxsoul  @gabstar143  @Gracebug @HannahC19 @herreraletecia  @HomegirlG  @ifitnessvn @Ilovephases @izzybell1202 @jennyfer1111r1 @JJiBin @jiminiebae @jkenshayla @jungkookieeeee @Just2BLoved @kaylawalker929  @kaylenne956 @krissynormam @kpopfan88 @Kyla05 @MelissaGarza @Mochiroon @Nyxxonn @PANDABTS @QueenPandaBunny @rebeccariley52 @rodrickagardne @Rose2demhaters @samcorsam @simpsonsamantha @Shelbeigh19 @shellyfuentes70 @soobak @Starbell808 @szewwy @Taekookimonster  @Tiffiedannie @wolfyplayzyv @yukigintokie    *let me know if you want to be apart of the ARMY taglist* K-Monsta Squad: @Yugykookie97 @BBxGD @lilbr0wneyes @DefSoul1994 @KpopGaby @MYAlpha @BangtanGirlOT12 Tag List: @cagonzales9696 @MonieManhiM @cherriblossom17 @SimplyAwkward @Btsislife @jaselgalindo @emealia @saraortiz2002 @xsandos17 @VictoriaBossier @TaehyungKey @Sarahdarwish @kpopandkimchi @Emealia @terenailyn @MonAnnahiX @4dalientae @PrettieeEmm @kyokeo @KwonOfAkind @AnimeKpopLover @SugaOnTop  @QueenyCrossGene @MadAndrea @B1A4BTS5ever @zyxzj @Taehyungie @VKookie47 @NuXX @Baekyeol27 @DOislifeExoL @kpopbeat @BulletproofV @PrincessUnicorn @luna1171 @LisetteZapata @herreravanessa9 @MadAndrea @AnimeKpopFreak @amandamuska @RandomName @aliendestina @mrsyookihyun @MaelstromVIP @Foxxyjinxx @Bangtanss @YessicaCardenas @JadeOwens @cns1391 @JJiBin @TheEnlightment @BlueMoon201 @QueenPandaBunny @emberreynemoll @LacyTanner @nyxxonn @SweetDuella @MmIlk @KihyunA @ARMY4Life @SerenaArthurs @Additional18 @jessicaclove  @olive07354  @YungStatin  @nickij @Mochiroon @LiyahBoon @BoyGroupKpop @blessowmwago @Lesha @jkenshayla @Kpoplover2016 *Let me know if you want to be tagged or untagged from the tag list*
Nocturnal Creature Jun Myeon 56
NCJM56 "A Lost Child, Found" [For future reference: Present Day chapters in Regular type; Past/Memory chapters in BOLD ITALIC; P.O.V - REGULAR ITALIC] Note: Posting as I go... Jun Myeon came to a stop on the edge of an island in the middle of the Pacific. The night air was warm and tropical, his still frozen joints were starting to warm up and melt. He swung his arms around, squatted a few times, rolled his neck making it crack, trying to the cold out of his joints. He walked along the beach under the full moon light. He could see off in the distance, there was a party going on. That was good, he thought, maybe he can blend in, find that one person who's a little too intoxicated to realize that they are taking a night troll with a vampire, too intoxicated to realize he's drinking from them… Or, he could just fly down and snatch one up and take them high up and drink them dry. Because at this point, his thirst was insansible. He hasn't drank blood in, how long did D say, its been five years.  He approached quietly, in a friendly manner. People were laughing and having a good time and sure enough, there were at least a couple people more intoxicated than the rest. One man, one woman, a married couple, drinking, they were starting to get on each others nerves, Jun Myeon watched as their mood escalated to the point where one staggered off into dark. He got up and followed.  He followed until he saw the man lose his balance and stagger into the tree line. He quickly followed. The man laughed at him, sitting on the ground, covered in sand. Jun Myeon said nothing standing over him, an easy catch. He picked the man up, who blinked and before he could say anything, Jun Myeon sunk his teeth into him, covering his mouth with his hand to keep him from screaming too loud. Jun Myeon's eyes rolled up with pleasure. The taste of blood squirting into his mouth, and flowing down his throat was the most heavenly thing ever. It tasted so good, he didn't mind the taste of alcohol, he felt his body perk up. When he felt the man's life draining, he dropped him. He stretched his hands to the sky, he couldn't believe how unbelievably good he felt. He wanted more, every part of ached for more... and just his luck, he heard the man's wife calling to him.  Jun Myeon stepped out of the dark trees, right behind the lady. She stumbled a little, calling her husband's name in that tone that says 'I know you're here, where the fuck are you'. Jun Myeon followed her closely, the scent of her perfume and alcohol mixed was sour and old. He drew so close to her that she felt his breath in her neck, she whirled around, her drunken eyes widen with surprise and shock.  "You son of a bitch, who the fuck are you?!" She said tumbling backwards before landing on her bottom. She gazed up Jun Myeon, frustrated at the fall and his sudden appearance. "I'm sorry… Were you looking for someone?" He asked. He stopped and looked down at her, his hands clasped behind his back. He didn't want to seem like he was going to pounce on her.  At this point, she could scream and people would come running. He looked around, he could see the bon fire blazing high down the beach, he didn't realize how far he was from there. He calculated, that no one would have heard her scream at this distance. He looked back down at her and smiled. "Yes." She huffed getting up off the sand. "I'm looking for an asshole about this tall, fat fucker…"  Jun Myeon pointed into the tree, "I saw man back there, passed out while he was taking a leak. Maybe that's him. Although, he wasn't a fat fucker." He smiled even more. She narrowed her drunk eyes at him and marched past him into the trees. He followed her. "Where are you?" She called, stumbling from time to time, "dammit, damn You! You always ruin everything!" She stopped and looked back but didn't see that guy she had spoken to, he was gone, 'useless men' she mumbled, she thought he would've helped her since he was the one that saw her husband last. 'my husband is just the same' she mumbled again. Her head was starting to clear a bit, and she realized she was lost. It was quiet as she tried to listen for sounds. She couldn't even hear the ocean anymore. He heard a branches breaking behind her, "hello…"  She swallowed the saliva in her mouth that was tinted with alcohol still, her throat went dry, all she could hear was her own heart beating.  "hello….is someone there?" She said quietly. She screamed when she saw something step out from behind a tree. It was a small being as high as her hip. It nearly scared her to death until she realized that it was a little girl. "Oh my God! You scared me! What are you doing out here?!" She screeched.  The little girls face looked frightened.  The woman apologized, and kneeled down, offering her hand to come closer, "I'm sorry little one, you just scared me, I didn't mean to yell at you. Are you, out here by yourself?" The little girl nodded, she rubbed her one eye cutely, and seemed to sob a little, "I'm looking for my dad… " NCJM57: Next Chapter "Bonded" EXO FanFicsFans: @QueenPandaBunny @Indiglow @JaxomB @Jessicalista @ynsamgwlk @MaritessSison @MelissaGarza @Namjoonsbutt @YasminChavez @luna1171 @Matty0204 @SHINee4ever @tinafalcon22
Nocturnal Creature Jun Myeon 54 (19+)
NCJM54 "꿈" [For future reference: Present Day chapters in Regular type; Past/Memory chapters in BOLD ITALIC; P.O.V - REGULAR ITALIC] Note: Posting as I go... Time passed slowly for him, as the rest of the world moved on. Deep inside his head as his body slumbered, he lived in ecstasy.  She rolled over to be on top, he grabbed her hips to keep in rhythm with her, he loved watching her, the look of pleasure and satisfaction emanating from her face and body. He thrusted up, watching her head throw back and roll to one side, moaning, when she suddenly stopped. He looked up at her, she recoiled and crawled back to the other end of their bed, pulling a pillow over her body. "What's wrong?" He asked grabbing her wrist to pull her back to him.  She pointed behind him.  He looked. Standing on the far side of the room was a dark figure. "Who's there… Who is that" she asked crawling up behind him as he turned around quickly to confront the invader. He narrowed his eyes, trying to see who it was, then he realized, "D… Is that you?" Kyung stepped in closer as if he was stepping into the light, he smiled slyly at him and the woman he saw was an image of Aria. "안녕 our Jun Myeon." Kyung said waving his hand. "I knew I would find you, it was just a matter of time. I kept hearing whispers but it wasn't until just now that your mind completely lost control." "I'm not going back D. I'd rather stay here." Jun Myeon said, he pulled Her arms around him as she hid behind him, continuing to softly kiss him across his back. His eyes rolled up feeling the pleasure of it. "I can see that. But it's been too long. It's time to come home."  "I TOLD YOU, I DON'T WANT TO! … Now get out."  "Jun Myeon, it's been five years!" Kyung snapped back, he took a deep breath and stared at him, not wanting to say anything because he wanted to bring him back without telling him so, but he decided to do it, "You've missed the birth of your daughter."  Jun Myeon stopped, the woman sitting behind him, stopped. He gazed at her as she moved in front of him, gazing back at him with a confused look. He reached up and caressed her cheek. "It's not mine." He leaned over and kissed his woman. "Yes. it is. Like all Vampire children that know who their parents are. She wouldn't go to Sehun…" "Don't mention his name here! I don't want to hear it."  Kyung rolled his eyes and shook his head, "fine, the child wouldn't go to him. She cried a river of blood when he tried to hold her. It broke his heart knowing that she didn't belong to him. But he's been looking after them." "Then they're together, whether that child is mine or not, her mother and Him are together." "Don't be childish…"  "LEAVE!" Jun Myeon roared. "Fine." Kyung looked at the ceiling and saw stars twinkling. "So… That's where you are" he gave Jun Myeon a crooked smile and disappeared. He looked to where D had been standing, he looked around the room making sure he was gone. He looked up at the ceiling, realizing his eyes must be open. He concentrated and the the stars faded away. He looked to his woman, he grabbed her around the waist, throwing her down, "Now where were we?" He dove into her, biting until her neck and thrusting his hard member deep into her.  NCJM Chapter 55 "The Awakening" EXO FanFicsFans: @QueenPandaBunny @Indiglow @JaxomB @Jessicalista @ynsamgwlk @MaritessSison @MelissaGarza @Namjoonsbutt @YasminChavez @luna1171 @Matty0204 @SHINee4ever @tinafalcon22
Nocturnal Creature Jun Myeon 55
NCJM55 "AWAKENED" [For future reference: Present Day chapters in Regular type; Past/Memory chapters in BOLD ITALIC; P.O.V - REGULAR ITALIC] Note: Posting as I go... Jun Myeon opened his eyes and saw the stars twinkling high above. 'Dammit' he thought and concentrated to make the stars go away but they didn't. His arms felt stiff, he couldn't move them. He felt the freezing wind blowing across his face. 'Dammit' he thought again. He tried to turn his head but couldn't.  He was awake.  He didn't wake because he wanted to but because his Vampire instincts had been triggered. There were others approaching.  "Shit" he mumbled, or tried to mumble. He tried like hell to move his arms but they were frozen. If it was true, he'd been frozen for five years. He tried to sit up, he tried to move his legs. His mouth barely moved and after a few minutes of trying, he yelled in agony. He didn't want to do it too hard because the thought of shifting his arm suddenly just might break it off completely. He finally got his head to turn from one side to another. Off in the distance, he could see small dots hoping from peak to peak, flying around in circles before moving on to another area to circle.  He finally got an arm to move, and started pushing snow off his body. His other arm came loose, his one leg and then the other. He rolled over and started to crawl away as fast as he could. They were still far away, if he can, he thought he could make it, he could hide.  "I'mmnotttt going bbback…." He stuttered.  Pulling himself along the frozen ground, he could feel his body starting to get it's mobility back. Before he knew it, he was crawling faster and faster and pretty soon was trying to take flight. His first attempt, he crashed and landed on a boulder that broke his arm. His second attempt, he was up and staying up. He looked back and saw someone coming towards him fast.  "JUN MYEON!!! STOP!!!" they yelled. He recognized the voice, "FUCK YOU, YOU BITCH!" He yelled back.  He landed momentarily on a peak, straightened his arm, snapping the broken bones back into place and took off like Superman. Zipping through the air like a bullet, leaving her far behind.  Aria landed on the peak he took off from, watching him disappear once again into the distance. Kyung and Xiumin landed right behind her.  "He's still very angry." Kyung said  "I can see that, D, thanks." She said. Xiumin chimed in, "leave him, he'll come around. Especially if he knows that she is his."  "She wants to see him now. She doesn't want to wait anymore. I'm scared she might fly off on her own to look for him." Aria said, she tightened the silver chain looped on her belt, "If I have to drag his ass back kicking and screaming, then so be it." "She's strong and stubborn little thing, just like her father." Xiumin said, he smirked looking at Kyung, who only smirked in turn. "Can you see where he's heading?" Kyung closed his eyes, "Yes. If we go that way, we should be able to head him off." "D, can you follow him while we go that way. At least then he'll think someone is coming up behind him and he'll keep going in that direction." Aria said and pulled Xiumin in the other direction. "See you on the other side!" Xiumin called out as he and Aria took off. NCJM56: "A Lost Child, Found" EXO FanFicsFans: @QueenPandaBunny @Indiglow @JaxomB @Jessicalista @ynsamgwlk @MaritessSison @MelissaGarza @Namjoonsbutt @YasminChavez @luna1171 @Matty0204 @SHINee4ever @tinafalcon22
Beating Heart {Yoongi Mini FF}
Hello lovely people. I just wanted to take this time and upload a mini FF that I have been working on for years. I got angry how the original one didn't flow like intende, so it sat in my docs for a later time. I recently lost my writer's block, and this is the completed revamped version. I'm happy-ish with it and just glad it's completed. {Now I can try to finish the others} It is a small Three Chapter fiction. I may choose to expand on it later, but here it is! I hope you enjoy. Title: Beating Heart Genre: Small Romance and Angst. Pairing: Raquel [OC] x Yoongi Plot: Sometimes distance makes the heart grow fonder. Yoongi and Raquel soon learn this, after Raquel tries to leave his life. ⊱ ──────ஓ๑♡๑ஓ ────── ⊰ Chp.1 Raquel prepared herself for another day at her school. She glanced at her phone seeing it was time to leave. She grabbed her keys, and locked up her apartment. Every day she would walk to school, admiring the city. She had developed friendships amongst a few of the guys in her classes; Hoseok in particular. He became one of her best friend's over the course of her time at school. When she was new, he was one of the first people to speak with her and show her around. Knowing Hoseok was a blessing, bringing about someone else who was special in her heart. She developed feelings for the jerk Hoseok called his best friend; Min Yoongi. He was cool and supportive to his friends, but he and Raquel clashed. The entire time they were around each other, it was a battle of the wits. They were sarcastic, sometimes driving their mutual friends crazy. It was almost as if Raquel and Yoongi couldn’t breathe right around each other. She felt it was unfortunate that his beautiful face, was prettier than his personality. He was undeniably one of the best looking guys in school. They had their moments of being civil, but it was a rarity. They irked each other’s nerves. It was just frustrating to her how he was cold, and standoffish. "Raquel, here. You left your book in the library. I picked it up for you." Raquel turned around to Hoseok and his friends. He was a gem to be around, turning her bad days into good ones. "Thank you Hoseok, I didn't know I left it behind." "Maybe if you were less ditzy, then you would have picked it up," Suga adjusted the bag on his back giving her his famous grin that she loved and hated all at once. "Suga, don't be rude," Hoseok tried to hush up his friend quickly before Raquel felt offended. "It's okay Hoseok. It's better to be ditzy than a jerk," she shot Yoongi a glare. He was always so cold to her. Raquel never understood why, or what made him mad about her presence. She started walking towards class leaving the others behind. She knew when she wasn't wanted, and this was one of those times. She was labeled as a nerd, but she didn't mind. Reading books and studying was one of her favorite hobbies. Yoongi sat down beside her. She felt like she had upset the heaven’s, as his seat was besides hers. She ignored his presence as she wrote notes down. "You walk fast for someone who's so damn short," he grabbed her notebook off the desk, going through her pages. He wrote something down in the back, but he kept it out of her reach. "Why do you continuously mess with me?" "Me mess with you?" he scooted closer to her, "Raquel, that would imply something." He was even more irritating than before. “Give me my notebook back. I’m not implying anything. I’m just annoyed at how funny you think it is to constantly be a dick towards me.” “Don’t make it so easy then,” he gave her the notebook back as he smirked, pushing her forehead with his hand. One of the girls that had a crush on Yoongi scooted in between the two. It killed her to see Raquel getting his attention. Especially since she was the loner. Raquel never minded, but everyone thought it was sad. Raquel’s phone went off showing her uncle’s number. He only called her when emergencies happened. She walked out of the room answering it. “Hello, what’s wrong?” The voice on the other end of the phone was not her uncle’s. She ran back into class grabbing her stuff, heading towards the door. Yoongi watched her frantic behavior. Something upset her. Raquel grabbed a taxi to the hospital. Her family was waiting for her outside the room where her grandfather was. He wanted to see Raquel one last time. Her grandmother stood by him holding his hand. Raquel kneeled down as she hugged him. “Please take care of your grandmother, she can’t do things on her own. She will need your help. I love you Raq, I always have.” They raised Raquel as their own since she was a baby. Essentially, they were her parents. She kissed her grandfather’s head as he said goodbye. She held her grandmother as they cried. While her grandmother and uncle made the arrangements, she sat in the waiting room feeling numb. She didn't notice Hoseok or the others approach her. “You okay? Yoongi told us you abruptly left class. We went to your uncle's house, but his son brought us here.” “He's gone. My grandfather is gone. I don't know what to do.” They sat down next to her, trying to cheer her up. They noticed her wearing all black. Yoongi, amongst them, hated to see Raquel so down. He always gave her a hard time, but he didn’t like to see her upset. It made him feel some type of way to see her cry. Almost as if a boulder was crushing his chest. People started pouring in showing the family condolences. “I have to get back in there,” Raquel stood up walking towards her grandmother and uncle. Her friends followed behind her. She sat next to her grandmother. The amount of love shown to her family warmed her heart. Raquel needed to figure out her next move. With her grandmother living outside of the city, she would have to make decisions, possibly moving away. After the funeral concluded, Raquel left with her grandmother. A few days had passed with Raquel missing school. She needed to return to school to leave for a few semesters. Yoongi was walking to class when he saw her leave the office. “Raquel, what are you doing?” “Yoongi, it’s good news for you. I’m leaving school. My grandmother needs help so you won’t have to worry about seeing me again, I’m leaving town also.” “You’re leaving school, why?” “With my grandfather gone, I’ll have to take up the chores and her business. So I guess this is goodbye.” He wasn’t too excited like she told him he’d be. Yoongi didn’t want her to leave, that was the opposite of what he actually wanted. She glanced at her phone noticing the time, as Hoseok approached her. “Raqi, you’re leaving?” “Yeah, for a while. I was just telling Yoongi here that he doesn’t have to worry about seeing me anymore. Listen I gotta go, good luck in your studies guys.” She hugged them as she left. Her new fate would take her to her old hometown. Raquel always wanted to live in a big city, it was a good dream while it lasted. Her grandmother needed her though, so the decision wasn’t a hard one to make. She would periodically move her stuff back home, but not now. They got on the road as she stared out the window. She almost forgot how pretty the country was. The car came to a stop in the driveway. It was surreal that this was happening. She hadn’t returned home for a while. With her grandfather gone, she was sad and already missed him. The country was going to be peaceful at least. “Come on baby, let’s get settled.” Raquel helped her grandmother inside the house. She placed their bags down, escorting her to the kitchen. Tea was always her grams go-to for a broken heart. “Raquel, I’m sorry you’re having to take the responsibilities on. Your uncle." “I know gram, he forgot where he came from and thinks the countryside is for bumpkins. It’s okay. I didn’t fit in with anyone there, I was called ditzy a lot. So it’s better I’m here.” Her grandmother placed her hands on top of Raquel's. No matter what, she was always able to count on Raquel. If there was one thing that she did right, it was raising Raquel to be the beautiful, selfless person. She had morals and was thoughtful. That was hard to come by these days. She would see to it that Raquel would be taken care of for her selflessness. “Here have some tea, grams, we both need a good cup,” she poured the tea as they sat in silence. The time came for them to sleep. They had a big day ahead of them, adjusting to Raquel’s new schedule. She walked into her old room as she noticed nothing was moved or changed since she left. This brought a smile. They always respected her privacy, and her space. She climbed in her bed feeling at home. This would be an okay change of pace. Horrible circumstances, but a good start. ⊱ ──────ஓ๑♡๑ஓ ────── ⊰ A/N: Here it is. I may roll the story out all in one day, but it depends on what I have to do today. I also will be rewriting my other stories with the other members. Tagging my Normal Readers: @MelissaGarza @QueenPandaBunny
Super Junior Teaser Pics
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