Who: Reader x Monsta Woo ( Kim Young Woo) x Christian Yu
What: Smut/ SPY AU
Story: Just because I'm telling you this story, doesn't mean I'm alive at the end.
I couldn't pull the trigger, all I could do was stare at him. He took a step closer to me and I did everything I could to force myself to stand strong. He smiled at me in his natural cocky way,
"Oh come on now Roo. You wouldn't shoot me? Would you?" He asked.
"That depends on how much of a threat you are to me."
He stepped closer and I cocked the gun just to make sure he knew I would shoot. I wasn't sure I would though, this man had my body pumping full of adrenaline. I felt myself get excited in ways I hadn't felt in a long time. The same instinct I had when I first met him hit my body and mind like a dump truck. This man was dangerous, too dangerous but I couldn't move. A part of me didn't want to move.
"How did you know I was still alive?" I asked.
"I didn't, not until I heard that the White Fang's warehouses suddenly started blowing up and their main headquarters was under attack. It screamed of you. Not to mention, Code didn't properly dispose of the file the White Fang had on the new you."
Fuck was he aware the guys were special agents in NIS too? I wanted to slap myself for not getting rid of the files myself, perhaps three years out of this world had made me lose my touch.
"So why did you fake your death?" He asked.
"Isn't it obvious? To get away from you."
"Why? I thought we had a good thing going. I mourned for you Roo, I really did."
"Oh yeah, I'm sure champagne showers and strip clubs galore were especially hard for you to attend with my absence." I said rolling my eyes.
"First, they were sex workers,"
A smile cracked on my face that I didn't want to form as he stepped closer to me until the gun was pressed to his chest. It would be so easy to pull the trigger, to kill him right then and there and make a run for it but I couldn't. Why couldn't I pull this fucking trigger?
"Two I never truly believed you were dead. I know you, you were my best, always anticipating, calculating-"
"Except I didn't do that great of a job this time, now did I?" I said.
I put the gun away as he chuckled and stepped closer to me. His hand reached out for my cheek and he came close enough to my face that all I could do was focus on his eyes.
"You're just out of practice."
He tapped my butt and walked past me. I turned around seeing the reflection of his back in the rest of the mirrors that were still up.
"So what are you doing here anyway? Why shoot up my studio? You wanna kill me?" I asked.
He chuckled, his voice was dark and his eyes were piercing. I remembered the first time I heard him play the piano, it was haunting with a faint tone of sadness. The song he wrote expressed the death of his innocent self, how he cast it into the first gate of hell to burn away. He took on the role of a demon rising so high he became the devil himself. Killing now became his nature, greed and chaos fueled his desires. Control and power had driven him mad. This was the devil I knew and ran from. The one that never wanted to let me go because I was the best at what I do. Calculating, anticipating disaster at every turn, these skills helped me survive and helped his gang take over even more control of Seoul's territory.
"If I wanted to kill you, you'd already be dead. I wanted to see for myself that you were alive and I wanted to find out from you why the White Fang wanted you?" He answered.
"I'm not sure but Code seems to think it has something to do with your plans for Taeil."
"And why is that? "
"I was around during its inception. Not to mention that's the reason I was tortured. Not that you helped with that. "
"Rescuing you would've shown weakness. I couldn't afford to show it."
"You left me to die Changmo! Your apprentice. I protected you with my life. I did deplorable things for you and you couldn't come up with an extraction plan? I am not expendable!" I snapped at him.
It was because of my team, Rick and John, that I was able to get out. That must've been what tipped him off about the warehouses exploding. I should've thought about what would happen if I met him too soon. I figured he'd realize I was alive anyway; I was just hoping he'd find out when it was too late to try and kill me.
"Why did Sungwoo believe the White Fang wanted you for my plan with Taeil?"
I scoffed. Of course he'd focus everything on his mission. He wanted answers and I couldn't falter when I gave them to him. I ran my hands down my face annoyed and sighed,
"I already told you, they think I know what you're up to."
"What, that you'll remove Taeil? Hell, even Taeil knows that but I don't know how."
He smiled at me and walked closer.
"You didn't kill Dong Gab."
"He wasn't there."
"So you are planning to kill him?"
"He's a threat to my new life all threats must be stopped." I said
He smiled even bigger,
"So are you planning on killing me too?"
"If I was, don't you think I would've done it when I had you at gun point? I'm not coming back Changmo, you can't make me."
He had this look like he begged to differ. The smirk was cocky as all hell and then he said,
"Roo, I know you. You crave this life," he circled me as he spoke, "your blood comes to life when you kill. You're a thrill seeker."
He stopped behind me after his second revolution and he pulled hair behind my ear. He came close to me, his breath sending a tingle down my spine. The feeling of warmth climbing up my body clashed with the frost in his voice. Each word had a blade on the end of it, sharp enough to cut but dull enough it was only a shallow cut. As he spoke, my heartbeat felt like it had slowed; the world felt like it had come to a stand still. I felt like a sleeper cell being activated, he was challenging me, like he already knew I had crossed him. He did know me, well enough to know I was calculating my escape. I was always looking for another way.
"Prove your loyalty Roo," he said. His arms snaked around me pulling me into an embrace. It's the way I imagined the serpent seducing eve.
"Kill for me."
Those words were toxic. Beautiful. Dangerous. Y/N Jackson wanted to run, Yong Roo wanted to comply. Some deep part of me yearned to please him, to please myself through his request. I felt reawakened by his soft command. Kill for him. So simple, such a thrill and my blood did come alive with fire from hell. The devil's apprentice wanted to assume her role but there was more to this fiery desire rising inside of me. I wanted to prove something to Changmo, not my loyalty to him but that I was better than him. I had already decided how to end his reign, I had already calculated how I would bring him down. I wanted my old life after I did that but now....
Now I wanted to assume his throne.
I turned around to look him in the eyes. He smiled,
"I see it there. That glimmer, that need to be bad. The need to be free." He pulled me closer to him almost turned on by the possible return of his right hand girl. "Give in to that need, return to me Roo."
I pulled him away from me.
"I don't want to."
"Do you really desire a new life? This life?" His hands stretched out to my ruined studio. "There's so much potential in you Roo don't let that go to waste."
All I could think was 'I'm not.' My silence made him sigh.
"You know the rules Roo. You leave me, you die." He said.
A smirk grew on my face as I looked up at him, the demon in my crawling out at his challenge.
"Why don't you get it over with then?" I said.
"If you really want out then I'll give you an out. You're the only one I'd do this for," he closed the gap between us again," kill Taeil for me. Eliminate him and I will leave you alone."
I stared him in the eyes as he waited for me to confirm whether or not I'd take the hit. I smiled and said,
"How can I trust you? You're a man who seizes opportunity. How do I know when another time arises you won't call on your apprentice to handle your blood work again?"
"You know me better than that Roo."
"Yes. I do."
He held out his hand for a handshake. I looked down at it and then back at him. I stared at him and I could see that millisecond of worry flash through his eyes. Some sort of doubt that I wouldn't agree to his plan. He had something else up his sleeve for me if I refused. I could see it. I shook his hand,
"Fine. I'll take out your guy and then you forget that I'm alive."
"You have two weeks to get it done."
With that, he took his leave out the back door. Changmo let me escape his grasp but I didn't trust that he didn't have a tracker on me. I had to drive to a different location and took a cab back to the house, I had to make sure no one followed me either. Dealing with Changmo was as stressful as it always was. I walked into the house, tossing my keys to the side. I had let Dong gab know plans had changed and I had a new plan. Two weeks time... that's what I had, that was generous.
Christian was the only one home, he came out of the bedroom and saw me. He walked over to hug me and kissed my forehead mentioning he was glad I was okay. I told him I went to my studio. Christian seemed softer for some reason, wanting very much to touch me and I was walking away from him to get deeper into the house. I turned back to look at him.
"What's going on?" He asked.
"Um, where's Woo? There's some things we need to discuss." I answered.
"He's picking up food, he should be back any minute."
I nodded. There was silence in the room for a while. I was staring at the floor but I could feel Christian's eyes on me. His concern was imminating from his body and over to me. If it was a super power he would've knocked me over. I looked up at him and came closer,
"Changmo knows I'm alive." I said.
"What? How do you know?"
"We had a little chat."
Christian looked even more worried and walked up closer to me. He closed the distance so that he could reach out and touch my arm.
"Are you okay?"
"For now, yeah but I think that maybe you and Woo should-,"
The door opened and we both looked up to see who it was. Woo walked in carrying bags with carry out containers in them. The looks on our faces prompted him to say,
"What?" He looked down at his body then back at us,"Is there something on my face?" He asked once he confirmed that his clothes were clean.
I sighed softly and walked over to him grabbing the carryout bag and helping him place the food on the table. Christian walked over while Woo and I took food out of the bags.
"What were you going to say Y/N?" He asked.
Woo turned his head to see Christian and the serious expression on his face. His eyes then shifted to look at me. I looked between the both of them and sighed, I crossed my arms and walked over to the counter to lean against it while I said,
"Changmo came to me tonight and made me an offer."
"What kind of offer?" Woo asked
"The kind that you don't say no to." I grumbled.
I didn't have an attitude towards him but I needed them to believe the gravity of my situation: the possibility I may not survive this war. All that was left was to take down Changmo with me. I took a deep breath and continued while looking at the ground,
"I think it's time we all accept the facts of this situation."
"And what is that exactly?" Christian asked.
"That I may not make it out of this alive."
I finally looked up at them and I could see it on both of their faces. They looked worried and they looked shocked that I was even saying it. They looked like they didn't want to believe that was even a possibility. They knew I was cunning but for them to hear me say there maybe no other way out of this for me was a reality they refused to accept. I loved that about them.
"We're not going to let anything happen to you Y/N." Woo said.
"You don't have a choice. Changmo doesn't get his hands bloodied unless he has to and killing his competition isn't something he has to do."
"Wait, what did he ask you to do exactly?" Christian asked.
I pulled out the list I had, the one Sungbin had circled names for me. This was my cover and this was a form of betrayal. I was going to lie to them only so they wouldn't interfere with me executing my side of the plan. This list would also make it difficult for Dong gab but he was aware of the fact that plans had changed.
"The circled ones are my targets. I have two weeks to get it done. If I do I get my life back with you two and if I don't I will die."
"These are government officials, how can he expect you to do all of this?" Christian asked.
"I'm just that good."
"Well it doesn't matter because you're not going to do it. Right?" Woo said.
I walked up until I was between them, able to cradle each cheek lovingly.
"I don't have a choice."
"Y/N you can't do this." Christian said.
"If I don't I die and if you two stop me he'll know."
"We'll protect you." Woo said
"You two may think you can protect me but that list shows you just how far the mobs are in the system. I didn't tell you so you could protect me from Changmo. I told you so could protect them from me."
A look of anguish washed over their faces. They wanted to talk about how they could get me out of this but I kept trying to tell them there was no way. They had to let the NIS know and they had to protect those officials. Removing Taeil fulfilled both my obligations to Dong Gab and Changmo. I still didn't believe he was just going to let me walk away from this but at least I knew how I was going to set everything up. I even had a plan to expose Changmo and every dirty politician working with Taeil and him to the public.
Christian walked up to me and kissed me harshly. He kissed me like he knew this was goodbye and in a soft voice between the break of the kiss I reminded him to trust me. He captured my lips with his devouring them like he hadn't kissed me in centuries. Woo tapped on Christian's shoulder asking him if he minded, after all I was his girl too. I chuckled at their playful rivalry and kissed him again. Despite the flame that was sparked inside of me, ready to kill and be that adrenaline junky Roo, a part of me couldn't help but really think there was truth in my lie. Perhaps I really wouldn't make it out of this alive, Changmo was just as calculating as I was so the only real question was: could I take him down with me? For now, I melted into the embraces of the two men I loved more than anything else in this world. More than the adrenaline rush I got when I killed or did something illegal....
I woke up in the middle of the night and packed a small bag. I headed to Rick and John's place again, I was able to catch an uber there. John and Rick sat down and listened to me run off the plan, I told them the risks and they still pledged to stay by my side. We were going to give them hell. They were ready for war. They looked at each other for a moment and then Rick looked at me and said,
"You're not planning on coming back are you?"
I smiled at him. He already knew what I was planning. He already knew they would lose me again.
"I need to end this, for good." I answered.
Rick and John both gave me a solemn look. I knew deep down that was hurting them. I had come back from the dead three years later only to be faced with best case scenario: I lived and disappeared into my new life again or worst case scenario: Changmo was going to end my life for real this time. Dong Gab could only do so much and his men were already making moves to eliminate Changmo's lackeys in the police department. Exposing Changmo's connections would ruin them for him and an investigation would start. I could only hope my plan was unexpected enough to work but I feared Changmo had the same thought process. How was I supposed to expect the unexpected? He wouldn't kill me until I killed Taeil for him and stalling would already determine in his mind I had changed sides.
The guys would know I killed Taeil, they would know I sent them in the wrong direction on purpose and they probably wouldn't forgive me.
"Roo, promise me you'll try and stay alive." John said.
"I promise to give them hell." I grinned.
John rolled his eyes,
"Good enough I guess."
"Great now let's get surveillance on Moon." I said.
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