Beartooth- In Between
Been a while. Been a while.
So this is a song that I have come across more recently, and listening to it made me realize where I am in my life right now. For a long time, as many of you may know, I was stuck in the rut where I was miserable and frustrated and sad and hurt, but I am out of that rut now (so long and farewell, rut). I'm in college now (uni, for those of you across the pond) and I honestly cannot remember the last time I was this happy all the time.
I love my hall and my friends and my classes (except for one class, but 4/5 is pretty good) and the school and the swan (who is mostly just amazing because his name is Ron Swanson). Basically I love everything, but it's been hard getting here. I had to leave home (hello other side of the country), break up with my boyfriend, accept some things that I had been fighting, and kind of become a different person. Mind you, I am still being myself, I am just being the parts of myself that I was always afraid to be, the parts of myself that I had lost through the last few years of my life.
I still have ups and downs though. I have good days and bad days, days where I cry and days where I laugh until I cry and sometimes I have a certain day where I do both within a 20 minute period, but it's so much better than where I was. I am so much better than who I was.
This song talks about how life will throw everything it has at you, and it can be hard or it can be amazing, and sometimes it can be both, but he finishes the chorus talking about how he made it to the top. Looking down on everyone else trying to get through life, he can see how crazy and messed up and hard and wild life is, but that being in that part of life, in between here and there is a crucial part of the journey that is so worth the struggle.
No one can expect everything to be all good or accept that everything is all bad. We have to believe that there is life in between the best and the worst, and living in those moments, the good, the bad, and the in between, is where real life takes place.