Susan Swihart left her career in advertising to start a family, however she returned to the working world in photography. Susan's newest project is a series of self portraits that takes a closer look motherhood and identity. The project If Only attempts to explore the chaos of parenting and how it effects parents on a personal level. Susan hits at the theme of loss of self due to the obligation to family, and the routine and nurturing of her family taking priority in her life. This project really asks the question about self identity when identity is not up for consideration. Here are a few words from Susan as she went through and documented this experience: "IF ONLY is a personal narrative of self portrait work that explores the challenges of being a wife, mother, artist, daughter and friend in the middle of a crossroads, at the middle of my life, not quite sure who I am now or what direction I am heading. It’s a period that feels out of balance, a time where I struggle with the concept of aging and lost youth and the pursuit of having it all when I’m not really sure I want it. Often feeling that the person I thought I was has disappeared, replaced by familial needs and that slow and steady march through time as I shepherd my family forward. I am a participant observer in a life where I watch my children grow and take our place, while at the same time observe parents deteriorate. I’m lost somewhere in the middle with little room or time for personal growth or a clear understanding where I fit on the spectrum of my life. Not much time to reflect, but plenty of time to be wistful."