He said, "The first time I kissed you was because I was jealous of my 'ex-girlfriend'." He later called himself a douchebag bcuz he felt guilty for fooling me and tricking me into thinking he was actuaLly falling for me over the four months when we were together. What he didn't know was I knew it all along that I was being played, but I risked getting hurt. Why? Bcuz it was him that I am willing to sarcrifice getting hurt for. Crazy? I know. =] The risk I have taken for my first relationship was 'Pain'.