I hurt more then ever. I need you more then ever. I am lost than i have ever been. I am as lonely as i have ever been. I can't stand it, i'm losing it, i swear. This pain is too much to bare. I have not been in so much pain, i dare not say. For if I did, the less you would care, stay. I'm hurting, please save me, someone. I feel as if i have my grandfathers fate. Someone who meant so much. Couldn't be saved, no, it was too late. My heart beats for you! My heart bleeds for you! My hands search for you in the empty space where you used to be. I am in so much pain. Just as it is, My feelings fall everywhere, just like the rain. I mask the pain behind a smile and laughter. I tuck the feelings underneath a veil of lies that i'n happy, that i'm okay, that it is all going to be okay. I miss you, and I would do anything to have you back, to hear your laugh, to see your smile, to feel your touch, to get lost in your eyes. I'm lost, i feel so empty, maybe because i'm hungry, or maybe because you filled me with so much joy and happiness, that it satisfied my every need including the hunger. I fed off of your embrace, you made me feel so warm and so comfortable, if only i had known. If only i had know what i was doing wrong. I miss you, i miss it all. I cry for you, i long for the day, the day i hear you say my name one last time as time grows thin and we have fulfilled our promise of being together til we our 101 or 100. I miss you. I need you. I want you. I adore you. I love you. I don't know why i'm sad, i'm sorry. I don't know why i'm sad, I love you. I don't know why i'm sad, I miss you. I don't know why i'm sad, I need you. Promised.