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[Subject looks tired today. More tired than usual. Subject is wearing all black, again]
This weekend I was, uh, at my friends school. Yeah, I spent the night over there. You know, I kind of hate, like, dorm room, college beds. Like, how the fuck are two people supposed to fit in one? Not that I'm complaining that I slept with someone a couple of nights ago, but like, come on. Sometimes I need my space [laughs]. Can I smoke this here?
[lights a cigarette] Thanks. Oh sure, uh, yeah. It's weird. I mean, I don't get all the references they make you know. I sat in a living room last night and, like, these two people were arguing about classical art and stuff and they look at me and they're like, "what about you? what do you think?" And I sorta just sat there, you know? Like a deer-in-the-headlights. I was a Dear in their headlights, if you know what I mean. [laughs] Sorry, sorry, terrible joke. I'm still a little drunk.
Oh, I didn't really say anything, man. I was just like, "I don't know, I just work in a mailroom". And like, one of them waved me off and the other -- this girl -- was like, "c'mon, I know you're smart" but I just laughed, you know?
I don't know, I like avoiding those kinds of conversations. I like talking about stupid shit, you know? [subject pulls a water bottle out of a bag and takes a sip] This is weird, eh? We're usually drinking while we do this.
Oh, uh. I think I come off as an asshole most of the time. I mean, I know I'm a smart kid. I've got, you know, thoughts that float around my head about everything. But are they really things worth sharing? I don't know. It seems kind of self-serving. I'm not trying to have some kind of, like, intellectual pissing contest with people. It's like, if I trust you, I'll tell you all this shit that I feel and think and wonder about. But if we're at some goddamn, um, college party? I'm not going to talk about Pollock or Degas or Manet or Hemingway or Fitzgerald or Camus or Kurosawa or Godard or Truffaut with you. I'm trying to get shitfaced, man. Time and place, you know?
[end of interview]