I finally made it to top 20 yesteray and i was so happy i was so excited at this chance, this opportunity to actually go to a concert of my dream but i just dropped 2 ranks and im at 22 again. I dont understand. I tried so hard. all month i tried so so so hard for this contest. I promised myself i wont be discouraged and that i will continue to love bigbang and vingle but i dont think i can keep that promise. I feel like this is a sign telling me that Im not really meant to be happy or that im meant to like bigbang. 8 years I didnt even dare to think about going to a concert because my parents wouldnt let me spend that kind of money for what they see as a "fling"... and this One time. one time. i let myself have hopes and this is what happens......... i guess its just not meant to be. This contest was what I lived for this past month and i feel really pathetic. great.