Time to be
I jump and lay down on my bed. It seems the white painted walls are following my thoughts. They're blank, plane, mindless. Asking to be consumed, filled with something. I didn't even know if my thoughts are worth of this walls, worth of their silence and comprehension. But my mind is stubborn and my voice floats trough the air, touching every inch of the white cold paint. I let my self go. Close my eyes. I feel the smooth breeze dancing in my skin. Overwhelmed by the emptiness of the everything, I feel calm. Safe. True. I stop my self from falling asleep so I can enjoy the moment of complete plenitude. Like a cut, rough, ruthless, noisy. My phone rings. A gasp escapes from my throat and I follow the noise to my desk. -Hi. -"Hey Luna! What's up?" Her happy loud voice entered like a shock in my ears. I tremble. -Nothing.. -I feel my throat dry, as my words are, but I can't help it. -"Oh, so it's one of those days, han?" -What do you mean by that? -"You're in the Zone", she giggled. -The Zone? Look Aria, I'm actually not in the mood right now. -"I can see that, but as your only friend I think you should appreciate a little more my call, right?" Her laughter's filled my room and my eyes rolled. -What makes you think your my only friend? -"And the best one to actually! I mean... Is anyone else calling you? I guess not" I repressed the irony and ignored it. -The best! So, why did you call? -"That's better! Well, today you're going out with me, of course!" Of course? What did she meant with that?... -Wait, what?! -"Not asking! Put something cute on, 'cause if you don't you'll be on your panties in the next fashion magazine. I'm there in 10. Bye!" Can't believe it. I'm not even in the mood to argue with her. The fresh air may clean my thoughts at least. My only friend. Wouldn't exactly call her that but I don't know what else to call her. Only a person. Not even an interesting one, for the record. I found my self crawling to the bed again. My body melted into the mattress and I relaxed. I won't go.
Suddenly, all I see is black. My eyes start opening to the nock that's echoing in my head. I force one of my eyes to open completely so I can see what's standing in front. -Aria... -So you thought you could escape me, han? Her blond hair moved slowly while she talked, or at least seemed slowly to me. Suddenly I started to hear her loud and fast voice again. -...you did that to me! If you didn't wanted to come why didn't you said something? -You didn't ask, remember? -W-Well... I just wanted to hang out with. apparently I'm just to boring for you.. I'm not going to waste my time with someone who doesn't want to be with me! -I'm not one of your ex's, you know? Her face got even more red then it was. At the corner of her eye, I saw a tear struggling to roll through her face, but was she forcing it in. Although I don't like the way she talked to me, I feel an light feeling of compassion. -I'm so... But she stopped me. I saw her hands shake a bit and she turned around. She opens the door to leave but my mother appears. Her bright face surprises me. A big smile shows her white pearl teeth, and her eyes are kind and sweet. -Don't leave.. - her voice was persuasive and sweet at the same time. -I just made lunch. You won't leave me eating alone won't you? She giggled and Aria disappeared with her without even looking back. Did I did that much wrong? Finally along. I felt invisible, when my mother entered. Why am I thinking about it? Do I even care? I shouldn't! I don't! And everything was black again.