Hi I am Rhi. I am 15 and I have a dream that is slowly hurting my brain. I found my dream when I found BTS. Sounds cheesy right well sorry but it is true~ BTS came in to my life at just the right time. It was around 2012-13 I was in a very deep depression besause of recent events that had happened and were continuing in my life at that time. The day that they popped up on my screen was that day that I was planning on committing suicide. You see I already tried once but I chickened out at the last minute. When I saw / heard from them how much preforming and just singing, rapping,and dancing meant to them I realized something... I realized that I didn't have a so-called "dream" like they did. It took me a while but I did find my dream; and it is singing. No one knows this about me, no one knows what this means to me. I want to write, sing, and preform music that will help someone. Even if I just help one person. I want to train under a company so I can reach my top ability. I actually have a BigHit audition form mostly filled out but I know for a fact that I will not be choosen. I am not pretty, thin, or that talented. But I know I can improve I just wish that they could see that.
In my head I always think that if I try really hard that I will make it but then I see other people who are much more talented and prettier than me... for some reason I think that if I tell my story that it will magically make its way to BigHit and they will notice I exist. But sadly that won't happen....
Anyway the music that I want to make is something that can help people. There are some people who can only be helped or healed by music(like myself). I want to be that shoulder for the guy/girl to cry on. I want to be someone that you can trust even when you have no one. I don't want other people to have a messed-up mind like I do... I just wish that this dream of mine would come true.. but in the end my dream will stay locked up... and will continue to eat at my brain until there is nothing left. . .
If you read the whole thing then Thankyou. I actually cried when writing it because I know that I can't tell the whole story. I don't have good writing skills so it is difficult for me to tell the story in a way that other people can understand.
Anyway, Thankyou if you read this. One day I want to be able to tell my whole story to more people so I can help them.....
My story may not be inspiring but It can show people that there is more then just the dark...
THANKYOU FOR READING THIS!!!
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