2 years ago
Babydol
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Dream?
Hi I am Rhi. I am 15 and I have a dream that is slowly hurting my brain. I found my dream when I found BTS. Sounds cheesy right well sorry but it is true~ BTS came in to my life at just the right time. It was around 2012-13 I was in a very deep depression besause of recent events that had happened and were continuing in my life at that time. The day that they popped up on my screen was that day that I was planning on committing suicide. You see I already tried once but I chickened out at the last minute. When I saw / heard from them how much preforming and just singing, rapping,and dancing meant to them I realized something... I realized that I didn't have a so-called "dream" like they did. It took me a while but I did find my dream; and it is singing. No one knows this about me, no one knows what this means to me. I want to write, sing, and preform music that will help someone. Even if I just help one person. I want to train under a company so I can reach my top ability. I actually have a BigHit audition form mostly filled out but I know for a fact that I will not be choosen. I am not pretty, thin, or that talented. But I know I can improve I just wish that they could see that. In my head I always think that if I try really hard that I will make it but then I see other people who are much more talented and prettier than me... for some reason I think that if I tell my story that it will magically make its way to BigHit and they will notice I exist. But sadly that won't happen.... Anyway the music that I want to make is something that can help people. There are some people who can only be helped or healed by music(like myself). I want to be that shoulder for the guy/girl to cry on. I want to be someone that you can trust even when you have no one. I don't want other people to have a messed-up mind like I do... I just wish that this dream of mine would come true.. but in the end my dream will stay locked up... and will continue to eat at my brain until there is nothing left. . .
If you read the whole thing then Thankyou. I actually cried when writing it because I know that I can't tell the whole story. I don't have good writing skills so it is difficult for me to tell the story in a way that other people can understand. Anyway, Thankyou if you read this. One day I want to be able to tell my whole story to more people so I can help them..... My story may not be inspiring but It can show people that there is more then just the dark...
THANKYOU FOR READING THIS!!! it may be deleted later...
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There's always going to be someone who is prettier, smarter, more talented, so to be intimidated is a waste of time cause someone out there will always seem better. That's what I'm starting to learn, anyway. What's best is that you keep working hard and become the BEST you can be! People will see your hard work and it WILL pay off! Thank you so much for sharing, I was very inspired ❤️ know that you are loved and cared for and God knew what he was doing when he made you😊 can't wait to hear the music you make! Go finish filling out the application!! 화이팅!!!
2 years ago·Reply
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Don't give up. And don't delete this. It took a lot of guts and courage to write this and post it. Trust me, you're a lot braver than most people. Don't ever give up on your dreams. We never know what life has in store for us. Start writing in a journal. Write your goals and dreams down. You can also start writing poetry and songs to help you cope with the depression and frustration of life in general. You never know, you might be amazing at it with a bit of practice and trial and error. If you think you aren't good enough, then how can you be better? Go on YouTube and look up vocal exercises. Work on your voice. Watch videos of the type of dancers you want to be like and start learning their routines to learn dance. Just do it over and over and over again. Just Don't give up. And remember, in the end, you're perfect just the way you are. ❤️ God has a plan for you!!!!
2 years ago·Reply
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Thankyou everyone for all the amazing comments~ it really amazed me. I took every single word to heart and I will try to make my dream come true. I hope that all of your dreams come true and if you don't have one yet, I hope that you will find something that you are passionate about. Even though my dream hurts me and puts me in depression sometimes I am glad that I have it because without it I wouldn't be the person I am right now . It maybe a cheesy thing to say but sometimes that cheesiest things are what is true and are something they can help you through life. Again thank you everyone for saying such kind and encouraging words and advice. I will be sure to continue to take steps to make my dream a reality. And you should too. Even though there maybe some heartache and difficult decisions along the way, if you truly enjoy it then in the end it is worth it and you will be happy.💓 To everyone, 화이팅! !!!!💞 P.S~ sorry I have terrible writing skills. I hope that you understand what I was trying to write~^^
2 years ago·Reply
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awwh your beautiful no matter what don't let what other people look like effect you. because theirs people out there that are jealous of how you look. and just keep practicing and show big hit you are worth being under their label don't delete this please because you never know when someone who has the same struggle will come across this and ask for your help
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