"I the undersigned promise not to beat myself up too much." Change is necessary. In order to make your life worthwhile you have to hold yourself responsible. Make it as formal as possible, use the right language, and treat your relationship with yourself like an investment. Get serious about caring for yourself, and make it count. If you don't care about yourself, how can you expect others to care about you?
This is a contract, which means you HAVE to follow it.
Date: 8.4.15 Weather: Cloudy, Humid as Hell Location: New York City Time: 2:18 P.M. The Undersigned: Tess Stevens The Proprietor: ========== I, Tess Stevens, understand that the obligations below are non-negotiable. By signing this contract I give myself over to the demands of my new life. I will follow the following to the best of my ability and give it my best shot. If I fail in any of the endeavors below, no harm will come to me; however I must hold myself accountable.
I, Tess Stevens, understand that things are about to change. In order to make life better for myself, my family and my mental health I am prepared to carry out the following actions: -Take everything in stride, even the bad things -Perform to the best of my ability on any given day -Work as hard as possible, without wrecking myself -Give myself room to make mistakes, and correct them accordingly In addition I promise not to beat myself up if things go wrong, and instead welcome change with open arms and always look to the future. I also hold myself accountable for destructive behavior, and will not engage in things that will propel me backward, for that is the way to certain failure. I, the undersigned will not be as hard on myself, and when life gets hard I will take my own advice. I will hold myself to a high standard. I also recognize that I am worth respect and kindness. I will not hold back my creativity, be afraid, or go into things timidly. In like a lion, out like a lion. I will not change myself to fit a mold. I will utterly be myself...whoever that is.
I will still, unfortunately, deal with unrealistic expectations and will have to find balance. Not all of my problems will be solved by signing this, but I will ultimately gain more awareness and respect for myself by doing so. The dreams will never go away and I will learn to respect the processes of life. It will not be easy, but I will keep trying.
I accept that things will happen, and I may not be able to control them.
In conclusion, I, Tess Stevens will learn that life is a gift and not a chore. I will remain an outlaw, but I will do my best to make things work. I, the undersigned, am fearless.
I state for the court, the world, God and the Devil that I will and do understand that nothing is certain, and everything can change.
And that's just fine!
Name: Tess Stevens Date: 8.4. 15