When I was in high school, I was awkward in every sense of the word. I wore eyeliner that smudged a few inches too long. I’d awkwardly run to the cafeteria to be one of the first kids in line to get the “good” pizza. My pants were too big, and I wore a chain across my hip. I never skipped class, and I was a teacher's pet -- but I still managed to get really shitty grades. I thought school was boring, but the library was my sanctuary.
I wasn’t a cheerleader, athlete, or the class star. I failed math way too many times to count, and my test scores were a disaster (how I got into college, is beyond me). I didn’t date, and sitting next to a cute guy made my hands sweaty.
I wished I was popular. I even thought about joining the cheerleading team, just so I can have the cheerleader status. I would imagine how great my life would have been if I was to date the star athlete.
But that just wasn't in the stars for me. The high school gods were like, "no! You stay awkward, grasshopper."
During my high school graduation, my 2006 class members were choking in tears. I stood there with a long smile pressed up against my chunky cheeks. I was happy. Happy to be over high school.
My college goal was cultivate a new identity for myself.
After I left high school, I realized that everyone's high school identity was left at the graduation stage. The popular kids became little people in a massive grown-up world. Some of them were crushed by the realities, others moved on. The popular kids weren't given any special statuses. They just were.
Some of them cried alone in dorms. Some got married. Some took leadership roles in college organizations. Some of them made a family. Some of them became invisible.
As for me, I started to take school more seriously. I was known on the college campus as the girl who lifts weights. I was acknowledged by my professors, and I was highly regarded through my written works. I dated a lot. I dated hot guys, athletic guys, and smart guys.
The status I had in high school just wasn't relevant after the class of 2006 threw up their graduation caps. And my college status didn't matter in the career world, either.
Resume, cover letters, writing samples, a great interview, work experience. That's what matters now.
When you're in high school, you believe it's the end of the world if you're not popular, prom queen or king, or the star athlete. But I am here to tell you that all of that doesn't matter. I promise you, it doesn't. Focus on making best out of high school. Focus on being happy. Do what you love.
Your high school status is not going matter after you walk out and throw your high school deuces.