you message so innocently
after 4 years of silence, name dropping
a place you left me scattered like trash,
to busy with someone else to collect the pieces
And here I am again paralyzed,
back in your dorm stealing secrets and
snatching that gaze I craved through smoke;
I swear it took me higher
back when no one kissed me like that.
back when it was always just me crying in the hallway.
and I remember the drunk text of "I love you"
breaking me like the promise
when you said I was everything.
And after four years of silence I can't get rid
of the seconds in between moments
when I knew I was more to you,
the same way I thought you were so much more to me.
But I am done being paralyzed,
the boy I know you know about.
4 years 1 day of silence.