Hello Friends, it has been a while

I came here to update one of my cards with a new video link, and I realized that it's been forever since I actually looked at this website. I have no idea how anything works anymore LOL. BUT, I completely and totally forgot to include Vingle in probably my biggest adventure ever. Or maybe I mentioned it somewhere but forgot. IDK. Anyway, Snow in Seoul ACTUALLY WENT TO SEOUL. Over the summer I got to study abroad with Hanyang University, and I spent the entire month wandering around the city and seeing some pretty cool things. I mainly used Snapchat to document my trip, but those don't last forever and I forgot to save many of my stories :/ I did attempt to keep up with a blog here (<-click the word "here"), but I failed miserably and only made 2 posts while I was there. Here are some of the exciting things I witnessed: 1.) Learning a traditional Korean fan dance (and getting college credit for it YES PLEASE) that you can see here: https://youtu.be/LCemLdrGt68 2.) Going to SMTown and seeing the School Oz hologram musical 3.) Accidentally coming across the JYP building and seeing JYP himself coming out of the building (I still wish it was 2PM tho) 4.) Accidentally finding the SM building and FNC like 30 minutes after seeing JYP 5.) Going to an Epik High concert

Snow in Seoul is taking a break

In case you haven't noticed, I haven't really published a video of my own for a long time. I knew I would be on and off with starting school and being a resident assistant this year, and I planned on doing videos whenever I got a chance to go home. But as time went on, I actually liked not having to worry about making videos and what people would think of them. It's crazy how much a dislike button and comments section can impact things. During my time away I also noticed a few things within the KPop YouTuber community that I didn't like (i.e. elitist and egotistical people who make reactions and get mad when others do the same, and... actually that's the only thing) along with some people who have judged me for being a "KPop YouTuber." It's honestly not really an environment I want to be in anymore. I don't really enjoy the idea of being so accessible on the internet anymore, especially with me having a job now and looking for other jobs in the near future. I lived in constant fear that someone would find my channel and watch a video or two and ask me about it... You know for someone who's so open to putting themselves on the internet so visibly like I did, I absolutely hate talking about things I do with my own time with other people. Aside from my family, I only told 3 people about my YouTube channel. The anxiety that came along with keeping my channel a secret from others was exhausting. I didn't even like most of my close friends knowing about it.There's also the fact that the people in my area who are into KPop are not exactly the kind of fans I like to associate myself with. I don't want someone I know to find the videos and automatically group me with the Koreaboos they've heard of, because I am absolutely not one. I don't even tell people I listen to KPop. You guys know all of the questions and assumptions people make about KPop fans. I hate dealing with people asking me why I can't listen to music in English, or assuming I'm only attracted to Korean people, or saying that the only reason I'm learning Korean is to marry an idol. I listen to plenty of music in English, I'm attracted to many ethnicities, and I learn Korean because it challenges me academically. I'm not ashamed of my channel or liking KPop, I'm just tired of it impacting other people's views of me. That being said, I haven't completely deleted my channel. I just made all of the videos unlisted, because I do enjoy going back and laughing at my over-the-top reactions and I know you guys do, too. Since the videos are unlisted, you can still view them on Vingle since you technically have the link to the video by viewing it here. In fact my whole channel just became a Vingle Exclusive, because if you visit my channel on YouTube, subscribed or not, it says that I have no uploaded content. I've made too many friendships through Vingle to completely throw away the things that connected us. I still have my Highlight Vlog to post, and I recently went a little wild and bought 3 different BAP albums that I'll be doing unboxings for, but as far as I know, those videos will be the last ones for a very long time. I still want to follow through with the original intention of my channel, which was getting used to being on camera for when I hopefully start teaching English in Korea, so I guess the next time you'll see me is in Korea. Or maybe right before I go, I don't know. Anyway, I'm sorry for that long chunk of a paragraph. I am so thankful for the roughly 18,000 people from YouTube and Vingle who have enjoyed my videos, and I hope you understand why I'm choosing to leave YouTube for a while. I'll still be semi-active on Vingle, so you'll see me around ^_^

KPop Halloween Playlist of Playlists

I really should be sleeping but it's a Friday night and I don't have anything to do tomorrow so I stayed up a little longer to do this before I forgot. Coming up with playlists is hard for me because I always do long ones where things like the song order matter a lot and I don't have the time to do that right now :/ I remembered that last year I found a lot of Halloween playlists on Tumblr, so I might as well share them here as a Playlist of Playlists! Lots of songs where the song order matters! All of the artwork below is credited to the tumblr user who made the playlist. Thanks @MattK95 for tagging me! This is my absolute favorite playlist out of all of them (and maybe out of all the playlists I've found on Tumblr). It's not exactly Halloween themed but the idea of it is a musical interpretation of blood lust and a slow descent into madness, which is scary in its own right. There's a lot of Hip Hop and Rap in this one, so if you're looking for classic pop songs look at the other playlists. LINK HERE (artwork credited to Tumblr user bbomb) This one doesn't have a specific theme- the songs are just super creepy and give you a nice Halloween vibe! LINK HERE (artwork credited to former Tumblr user leehyorror) This is another playlist with a set theme, but I think the songs are more upbeat than the ones in other playlists. LINK HERE (artwork credited to Tumblr user hyadain) More creepy songs! LINK HERE (artwork credited to Tumblr user imminji) I think these songs are a little more subdued- perfect for a night alone reading scary stories and giving candy to trick-or-treaters! LINK HERE (artwork credited to Tumblr user blondenamjoon)


I don't even have a picture to make this card pretty but I'm mad. I should have expected this with a "concert" that's happening because BTS stayed at some girl's grandma's house and made friends with the members. I wonder how that friendship is now! Anyway if you haven't heard, the Highlight tour that BTS is currently on has been a disaster. In San Francisco VIP pass holders were made to stand in the cold while everyone else, including those who didn't pay for it, were doing hi-touch. People were yelled at excessively and crammed into one tiny room for the performance in Houston. Some 100+ fans didn't even get to SEE BTS because TGM, the organizer, oversold the Atlanta location back in JULY and kept saying they would absolutely not sell any more event shirts (WHICH WERE SUPPOSED TO ACT AS TICKETS???) but still ended up selling them at the end. I went to the Atlanta stop and vlogged a little and basically recorded BTS's entire set, but I want you guys to know before I post that vlog later on is that the only time you see me was right after seeing BTS perform, so I was obviously excited from seeing them and it doesn't reflect my feelings on the whole day. Everything else... multiple thumbs down. Toes, too. In fact, all fingers and toes down except for my middle ones. I posted this on JRE's latest Really Now video about TGM's fuckery, but I felt like you guys should see it too as a warning to never make my mistake and involve yourself with TGM Events (if they survive after Highlight). When you're done reading (or before, it's whatever honestly) PLEASE sign this petition so that everyone who has ever given money to TGM gets some kind of compensation. https://www.change.org/p/issue-refunds-for-bts-highlight-eric-nam-kim-tae-woo-and-indiegogo-immediately I'm glad I went with a group of 9 friends because they along with the new people I met were the only reason I had fun. I stood in the rain for almost 4 hours and would have had to go back out because of 2 separate lines for check-in and t-shirts (which were in the same small hallway and could have been combined tbh) but luckily I had a VIP pass and was able to wait inside in a waiting area. My non-VIP friends had to keep going in and out of the venue and had to wait almost 7 hours total in the rain. During the performance the sound system was horrible and kept screeching. The local artist was subpar. Community54, the clothing line they were "endorsing" for the show, is a bunch of overpriced Forever21 knockoffs. When they were performing Dope, the music stopped for a second during RM's section and he handled it well but he looked mad. Later he said that at first they didn't even know they would only be performing 4 songs. I spent half the time after the performance wondering what the hell we were doing and yelling out instructions from staff because they were too quiet. Honestly the only good thing that happened was the way they personally cut off everyone's wristbands before the hi-touch so people couldn't double back. I'm glad I already knew they changed the number of people in the group photo from 8-10 like they promised for months to 25 because I would have gone OFF if they said it for the first time then. Someone else said this and I agree- 25 + 7 = 32 people... that's the same as a class photo. With the autograph session, hi-touch, and group photo, I really only interacted with the members for 5 minutes tops. TGM said the performance would be short because they wanted to focus more on fan engagement... 5 minutes total spread over 3 different times to see them is not what I consider a fan engagement. I sure as hell did NOT pay over $200 for 5 minutes of interaction and a shitty 45 minute performance, when I was at the venue for nearly 12 hours and officially waiting around for fan engagements for 7. The people waiting outside in the rain didn't pay $70+ to not see BTS. TGM said they oversold in JULY and kept on selling shirts, so they had printed out excuses and promises of refunds just ready to hand out to people. They KNEW fans would be left outside and tried to pull some bullshit like "We didn't tell BTS you guys were waiting, so they left." No. I hope y'all sue them. TGM is notorious for not giving refunds, so there are at least 100 people from the Atlanta show alone who won't get their money back on top of people who still got in and had experiences that did not align with what was promised. I really hope TGM never books an artist again.